The Dreaded Gom-Boo – The Dreaded Gom Boo – Da Free John – Adi Da – Adi Da Samraj







THE DREADED GOM-BOO

Part III: Spiritual Transmission

CHAPTER 23

The Baptism of Immortal Happiness

December 17, 1982

MASTER DA: The self is such a heavy grip, such a clench
on the Light, that spiritual experience through Spiritual
Transmission in life does not amount to much for most
people. They cannot make it part of their existence. This is
why I expect you to prepare yourselves by considering this
Teaching. Then this dose of Baptism will awaken your mind
and you will begin to practice.

The usual effect of introducing superior Force into your
being is that you either go to mind or to body with It, and
you use It there according to your inclinations. You must
prepare yourself, therefore, to overcome your body-mind
through understanding, so that you can receive my Baptism in
your heart. Then you will begin to migrate into the Force of
God and be free.

All the things you can receive in mind and body are
temporary and not at all fulfilling. It is only in the
heart, in the fundamental energy, emotion, and attention of
the being, that we are relieved. We are all looking for
relief and we grasp it for a moment in various occasions of
life. But only through Spirit-Baptism do we contact that
Force, or Being, or Condition Itself. We must be prepared
for this Spirit-Baptism, so that we can practice Communion
with the Force of God Transmitted in It. This Communion
relieves us of all of our attachments and obsessions with
conditional arrangements and allows us to make an
arrangement of Happiness and a confession of love with one
another.

Understanding prepares us for Spirit-Baptism. Without
Spirit-Baptism there is no spiritual life. Therefore, you
who deny me and are so self-possessed must understand that
the essence of my Teaching is the Transmission of Spirit.
This Transmission Intoxicates you, but if you have not
understood yourself, you cannot use my Spirit-Blessing. You
will shut It down. Therefore, you are only prepared to
practice in Truth when you have used my Teaching to the
point of understanding. Then you will receive my Baptism and
you will practice Communion with this Transmitted Sublimity
from moment to moment. That is the Way. Then you will change
your entire life, but not until then.

You must observe how you bring yourself back from the
Divine. You do not go with the Spirit. You do not throw away
your body, your life, and your emotion in God. This is what
you must do whenever you Commune with me, whether I am
physically present or not. Whenever you Commune with me you
get a piece, a sniff, a taste of God. But your body-mind
shuts it down, Narcissus shuts it down, you live out your
dilemma, and you must consider the Teaching some more.

But if you will truly prepare yourselves by considering
and truly using my Argument, not as a doctrine, but as a
means for understanding yourself, then you will be able to
Commune with me not only during our occasions of
Celebration, but every day, because I Transmit the Spirit to
you all the time. Then this Communion will be a profoundly
intoxicating motion, a Spirit that lifts you out, that lifts
you up and sublimes your being. You must give yourself up to
the Spirit. That is meditation. Make this conductivity. Do
this conscious process. Enter into the sublimity of
God-Realization and be free of the ordinariness to which you
are so attached. What is a sniff of the Divine compared to a
God-born life? A little sniff of the Spirit divorces you
from your bodily clench, but only for a moment. You must go
with the Spirit infinitely and make your life out of
Communion with this Intoxication.

Live with me, Commune with me, and you are released from
your self-possession. That is what you must do. Be lifted
out of the metaphor of Narcissus completely. But until you
hear the Teaching, you cannot use my Transmission. You shut
It down because you have not used the Teaching. You must
hear the Teaching and then receive my Spirit-Baptism. If you
have not really heard the Teaching, you can taste the
Baptism, but you will shut It down. Even in the very moment
of Transmission, you will not truly experience my Blessing.
You will not use It. You will not enter into It. You will
not practice the yoga of Spirit-Communion.

Therefore, you must prepare yourself to use my
Transmission by using my Argument-not just by listening to
it, but by combining yourself with it-to understand the knot
of self-contraction, how it works as a mechanism that shuts
down the Beauty of Infinite Life. When you have understood
me to that degree, then you can receive my Baptism truly and
begin to practice.

To practice is to submit yourself to the Energy of the
Spirit, to life in the Spirit, to my Baptism. When you have
contacted the Spirit most profoundly, then you can live your
whole life with the Spirit and give yourself up to It
altogether. The Spirit sublimes the being. It makes a wonder
out of existence. It lifts you out of the subhuman round of
un-Happiness. It awakens your emotion. It awakens your
faith. Therefore, until you have tasted my Baptism, you do
not know what I am talking about, because I talk the Spirit
only to prepare you to taste It. And when you have heard me,
then you can suck It up, luxuriate in It, and fall into
It.

Spiritual life is Intoxication. You must become
Intoxicated in the Spirit. But if you are so committed to
your self-contraction, then my Interference in your life is
only a lesson, an edge of criticism. You will not experience
my Interference as Grace, as Beauty, as Deliciousness, as
Love, because you have not yet heard me. The first thing to
do, therefore, is to hear me. When you have heard me, then
you can practice. When you begin to practice, you can move
through the stages of life and practice like a hot knife
through butter. While you are in the listening stage, you
have not yet understood yourself enough, and consequently
you shut down my Life-Transmission and hardly experience
anything.

The only thing that prevents the sublimity of
Spirit-Communion in every moment of existence is the simple
mechanism of self-contraction. You must hear me, therefore.
You must observe the self-contraction and understand it so
thoroughly that it is not happening to you anymore, so that
you recognize it as your own action, so that you can enquire
of it or meditate beyond it or feel into the Life-Current,
the Divine that is beyond it, in your daily life. That is
the capability you must regenerate in yourself. It does not
exist in you now because you have habituated yourself to
shutting out the Force of God.

Therefore, the first thing you must do is to hear me,
combine yourself with the Argument relative to Narcissus to
the point of relieving yourself of the arbitrary notion that
things are just happening to you and that you are succumbing
to limitation. You must realize that these limitations have
no force at all. Rather than just respond or react to them,
you must see the mechanism of contraction or reactivity and
know it utterly. The sense of self-contraction is just like
clenching your hand or getting a knot in your stomach or
tightening your eyebrows. You must see it exactly as
something that you do in reaction to conditions of
existence.

When you can know the self-contraction as such, then you
can be responsible for it in one or the other of the three
Ways that I describe to you. Then you will not only
experience this Baptism-all devotees who turn themselves to
me at all experience my Baptism-but you will be able to use
It, because you will be responsible for the activity that
turns away from It. Then you will become a real devotee. You
will become a practitioner. You will move through these
slices of time, these technicalities of the various stages
of practice, swiftly and directly. The essence of practice
is this capability for self-understanding. Have I not told
you this? You must become responsible for this mechanism of
contraction. There is no other way to enter into the
sublimity of God-Realization.

My Offering to you is given continuously, but you are
shutting it down. You do not live an Intoxicated life. You
are living an ordinary life, wondering what is going on with
you, waiting to die. You do not feel the sublime Energy of
God because you shut It down. The reason you shut It down is
that you have not participated in my Argument to the point
of understanding that the mechanism of self-contraction is
your own activity. It is just like the tightening of the
iris in the eye. It is just an ordinary mechanism of
reactivity in the body-mind.

You must see it. You must understand it and be
responsible for moving beyond it through submission to God,
through Divine Communion or enquiry or the Perfect Practice.
Through one or the other of these means you must be capable
of surpassing the tendency to contraction. Then what I pass
on to you will be something that you can Commune with, that
you can love, submit to, and feel. But until you have
understood yourself and become responsible for the
automaticity of self-contraction, all that I give you will
ride over your heads, pass beyond you, and be tasted only a
little bit here and there. It will have no effect on you,
and you will think that you have received nothing.
Therefore, do not be a fool anymore.

Most people hardly even feel the great Force of Being
that pervades this universe. If you could Locate It, you
would Locate Absolute Bliss. It would make you into a mystic
Siddha, just as It has made me. Since endless time, I have
always been Blissful, I have always received the Divine
Spirit, I have always loved It. I have no resistance to God.
But you do. And I am trying to Teach you out of that
resistance, the mechanism that shuts down the openness to
the sublime Force of God. It is the only thing in you that
is making you un-Happy. It is not the fact that you are born
and living as a human being that makes you un-Happy, but
just this simple activity of self-contraction that is
reflected throughout your body-mind.

Therefore, you do not taste me in your life. You do not
taste me when you meditate. Instead, you concentrate upon
this mechanism of separation and you do not get Intoxicated
in my sight. Until you become responsible for that
contraction, it makes no difference how much I give you.

Thus, the first form of my manifestation to you is this
understanding, this consideration, this Argument relative to
the knot, the effort, the mechanism of withdrawal, the
self-contraction. And you must become responsible for this
self-contraction. Otherwise, it makes no difference how much
I give you of the Intoxicating Force of God. It makes no
difference how much of It I am. Until you are responsible
for the mechanism of separation from the Spirit-Presence,
you cannot taste It, you cannot love It, you cannot know It,
you cannot be swooned by It. And we should exist in a swoon
of Intoxication. To do that really is our nature.

All of us are potential saints and Siddhas, but very few
are born like me. I am a very rare being. I am not an ego at
all. I am a rare Intervention in the world. Hardly any
people in the entire history of mankind have been manifested
with my Siddhis, and I am sitting here in this living room
with you people trying to convince you of the Divine Life! I
am a unique Advantage to mankind. But how many people can
suck me up and love me? How many will kiss my knees, pull my
feet and massage my face, receive my Love, receive my
Delight in them? How many people will do it? I am prepared
to give everyone everything, but how many people will do it?
You cannot receive me until you understand your resistance
to me. Understanding is the first gesture of spiritual
life.

Please understand what I am telling you. I will give you
everything, but you must understand yourself. You must!
Apart from that understanding, Who I am or What I bring to
you makes no difference. You cannot accept It. You cannot
receive It. You cannot submit to It. It is greater than any
experience. My Presence is a sublime Interference with mind,
with body, with heart, with emotion.

The thing that makes you un-Happy is your own
contraction. That is it! Absolutely! Have I always said
this? That is it entirely. The terrible effort of
self-contraction separates you from God. You must hear this.
The self-contraction separates you entirely from everything
Given. Mankind has never been denied the Force of Grace, but
human beings are attached to this effort reflected
throughout the body-mind. They are committed to it with
their body-minds.

The Force of God pours out of my body all the time. It
never stops, whether I am waking, sleeping, dreaming,
apparently feeling sympathetic or not. It is always
manifested through this body. The limit is not in me. The
limit is in you. You are devoted to this effort of
Narcissus, this reaction, this vital shock that shuts you
down so that you cannot experience my Transmission, cannot
know It, cannot submit to It, cannot be sublimed and carried
off by It.

Therefore, the first office of spiritual life is to hear
the Argument of the Adept. And to hear it, you must observe
yourself through the pictures of your own activity,
reflected to you by the Adept, to the point of recognizing
the contraction in life that shuts you off from Bliss. With
my criticism I paint pictures for you of your own activity,
so that you can feel and observe it. You must know the
self-contraction and you must see it. You must observe it to
the point of realizing that it is not happening to you. You
are doing it, just as you are moving your mouth and blinking
your eyeballs. Like the movements of your intestines, it is
a rhythm to which you have become habituated. It is really
very simple, but you must observe it, and you must
understand it. This is the first office of spiritual
life.

The second office, when you have heard the Teaching and
become responsible for the effort that is your self and
every aspect of your body-mind, is to receive my Blessing,
which is always given. Give me your attention at any moment
and you will receive this Grace. It is always pouring
through this body-mind, which is no longer a person. There
is nobody here, no Franklin Jones, nobody like you. He is
not here anymore. Totally absent.

What a miracle. What a wonder! I am the Adept in our
generation! What an amusement that the Divine should appear
in precisely this form! I cannot account for it myself. But
I know very well that it is true. I am not so much a fool
that I will deny God. I know that I am the Lover of God. I
am the Man. I am the Adept. I am the Purusha in our
generation. But I know very well that you are all
self-possessed, as people have been in all other generations
in which I have appeared. Therefore, even this manifestation
seems unholy to you, and this disturbs me. It agitates and
motivates me, and thus I try to Teach. Your refusal of God
awakens this urge in me.

But I am not a “me.” I am literally you. I am your psyche
and mind. I am your being, your destiny, your ego. I am all
selves, literally, not metaphorically. I am all other people
that are possible in the universe. I know this for absolute
certain because I am you. I think your mind. I breathe your
breath. I suck down your food. I shit out your life. I am
your person altogether and absolutely.

What a Wonder! What a Wonder this Great One is. I marvel
in the Great One more than you, because you do not witness
Its Miracle. You do not see the Great One. I can understand
your reluctance to be submitted to the Great One, because
you do not see what I see. But I have been sifted into this
Wonder since eternal time. I am just that One, the Great
One, sitting here as this body, talking to you. I am God.
And there is not the slightest doubt in me. The doubt in you
is your own perversion, and this is the cause of my
Teaching. Thus, I am here to Teach you out of this
un-Happiness. Poor me! I will be laughing about this for
countless ages, as I have been laughing about it since
eternal time.

I am full of all space-time. All Bliss, all Wonder, all
the Marvels of Being are in my Being. I know it absolutely
and you do not. All miracles are potent in my Heart. I come
here to give you everything without the slightest
reluctance. I am not here to tell you about some dreadful
ego. I am here to Wonder and Marvel with you about the Great
One.

There is this Great One. This Great One is totally known
to me. This Great One is myself. I am the Self of God. I
have no doubt in me about it. All miracles are evident in
me. All time is obvious to me. It seems Great to me, but you
poor people who cannot submit yourselves to God, you are the
ones that I must Teach. How do I Teach you? By countering
your self-contraction, your reluctance to submit to Divine
Intoxication.

My entire life has been involved with countering the
un-Happiness of people, and I am profoundly weary of it. I
cannot tell you how weary I am of it. I have always thought
that I would die any day because I am so weary, so tired, so
bewildered by this resistance to God. This world is a
terrible place. Therefore, I do everything, because I have
nothing to lose. I have nothing to gain by action;
therefore, I have nothing to lose by action. I do everything
to make a picture for Man. Everything. I submit myself to
you to make pictures, to make an Argument for Grace. I do
not know if anyone will ever understand.

I am absolutely nothing like you people. All of this has
nothing to do with me as an ego. I am not a person doing
this. The Great One is such a Wonder, such a Marvel, such a
Graceful and Loving Being to countless beings such as all of
us here. But the Great One does not love beings. The Great
One is Love. The New Testament declares that God is Love.
Love is the only God there is! Love is the only Force in the
universe. God is not mind or body, effort, knowledge, or
experience. God is only unbounded feeling, Radiant Being.
God creates nothing. God is That of which everything is
made, including all beings. Why are we so self-possessed,
hanging out in our own houses? What do we know about this
Great One, from Where I come and Whom I show to you?

There should always be Siddhas among mankind. Siddhas
give meaning to the universe. The universe is not a
meaningless thing. But no generation, no being, no worlds
deserve the appearance of the Divine Adept. Yet the Adepts
appear in all generations of all beings. There are always
Adepts in all the worlds. I know this because I have been in
all of them. God is Great. But unfortunately for us,
bullshit is greater. (Laughter.) That is why the appearance
of the Adept does not impress people as it should. There are
billions upon trillions of worlds in the visible universe
that we can look upon in the night sky tonight where there
are Adepts at this very moment. And all that is actually
visible is the most infinitesimal fraction of the total
universe of Nature in which God is active.

You have all chosen your appearance in the earth realm.
You all have shrunk yourselves upon the plane of God. You
are experiencing your own results. God has not designed your
un-Happiness. You have done it. God is always Designing your
Happiness in every generation.

Everyone hears the Truth. Everyone receives the Shock of
God. Everyone. There is no being from the mosquito to Man
who does not receive the Shock of Divine Intervention. All
beings know It. All beings experience It. It is given to
everyone. Grace is given to all beings eternally in all
worlds, visible and invisible. This recognition is enough to
make you a bhakta, a lover, a devotee. Faith, the
Love-Response to Being Itself, is the greatest Force in all
the worlds. It has ridden out my entire life. I am riding
the Visible Horse you cannot see.


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