The Dawn Horse Testament (1991) – Adi Da Samraj – Da Avabhasa


Notice

This 1991 version of The Dawn Horse Testament is NOT the final version by Adidam (Adi Da).

“you should not study any earlier edition of The Dawn Horse Testament (or any earlier edition of any other of My “source-Texts”). The final edition is it. There are not “multi-editions” or “multi-instructions”.
“I am taking great care to prevent the falsification and transformation of the Reality-Way of Adidam – all of this kind of make-it-up-as-you-go-along do-it-yourself “religiosity” and revisionism.

Adi Da Samraj 2004


The current and latest 2004 edition of The Dawn Horse Testament is out of print. It is not entirely “current” with Beloved Adi Da’s final language conventions and the details of His practical Instructions. Since their is no final or official version available Beezone feels it appropriate to use this 1991 version as a form of study with the understanding of the above ‘notice’.

The Dawn Horse Testament

The Testament Of Secrets
Of The Divine World Teacher
and True Heart-Master,
Da Avabhasa
(The “Bright”.)

November 1991
Table of Contents

 

Chapter 23

Observe Your Separate and Separative self, Understand Your Separate and Separative self, and Freely Surrender The Ritual Of Your Separate and Separative self

The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart Requires A Profound Exercise Of the frontal personality That Submits, Opens, and (Spiritually) Rightly Polarizes, Purifies, Balances, and Infuses the frontal or human character (In The Context Of every function and every kind of relationship or circumstance). In That Process, the human and Spiritual limitations of the frontal character Are To Be Constantly Encountered and Surrendered Via Directly and Effectively self-Transcending Devotional and Spiritual Communion With Me.

This Real Process Of Encounter and self-Surrender Inevitably Produces (and Must Produce) Many Kinds Of phenomenal (or psycho-physical) Signs. Even Some Signs Related To The Ascending Spiritual Process (and The Spinal Line) May Spontaneously Appear, but The Significant Signs That Are Specific To The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart Are Associated With The Descending Process (and The Frontal Line Of the body-mind). Thus, The Significant phenomenal Signs At This Developmental Stage Include psycho-physical Openings and Releases Everywhere In The Frontal Line, Spiritually Relieving egoic mental, emotional, and physical Patterns, Reactions, and Blocks In The Hierarchical Structure, From the head To the bodily base.

The self-Contraction (or the egoic personality Developed In The Context Of The First Three Stages Of Life) Shows itself, In The Context Of The Frontal Line, In A Hierarchical Pattern, Progressing From the head To the bodily base Via A Range Of specific emotions and bodily and mental states that Generally Prevent Spiritual Communion With The Divine (and Inherently Spiritual) Love-Bliss That Is Native To Existence Itself. In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart (or, That Is To Say, In Either The Third Practicing Stage Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart Or The First Formally Acknowledged Stage Of Actually and Truly Both Hearing and Seeing Practice Of The Technically “Simpler”, or Even “Simplest”, Form Of The Way Of The Heart), My Devotee Must Be Already Equipped (By Virtue Of Previously Awakened Hearing and Seeing) To Immediately and Directly Transcend these various states that Generally Prevent Spiritual Communion With The Divine (and Only By Grace Revealed) Love-Bliss. Therefore, In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart (Which Is Real Practice Of The Way Of The Heart In The Fully Established “Basic” Context Of The Fourth Stage Of Life, and Which Is Based On Previous Hearing and Seeing, and An Already Established Basic human Equanimity Relative To The First Three Stages Of Life), The Spiritual (and Always Devotional) Process Of Such self-Transcendence Is Primarily Engaged Relative To Patterns Of self-Contraction That Merely Diminish , Rather Than Prevent, Direct Communion (and, Ultimately, Inherent, and Inherently Perfect, Identification) With The Divine Love-Bliss.

The head Is Associated With mental Patterns That Reflect the emotional and physical conditions below, and, In The Context Of Practice In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart, My Devotee Discovers That The Primary mental Sign Of the self-Contraction, Whereby Spiritual Communion With The Divine (and Only By Grace Revealed) Love-Bliss Is Diminished, Is The Habit or Tendency Of Non-Specific Doubt (Which Is Not So Much a thought As It Is an emotionally Contracted state of mind that, In A Negative or Disabling Fashion, Controls thought and Otherwise limits The Useful functional Clarity and Strength Of mind and will, or Of All Intelligent Intention).

Immediately below the head Is The Region Of the throat (or The Channel Of The Spirit-Current and the breath That Connects the head, and the Total brain, To The Heart, and the entire trunk, and the lower body). The self-Contraction (Whereby Spiritual Communion With The Divine Love-Bliss Is Diminished) Registers In This Region As Tendencies Either Toward The Diminishment Of psycho-physical Equanimity (Via A Relatively Chaotic Expression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness) Or Toward A Degree Of Suppression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness (Depending On The egoically Characteristic Mood and The Accumulated personality Pattern Of the individual).

The General Region Of The Heart (Including the solar plexus) Is Associated With emotional Patterns That Reflect conditions everywhere in the body-mind. The self-Contraction Is Displayed emotionally As every kind of Chronic and Key emotion, or Pattern Of emotional Reaction, Including Fear, Sorrow, Anger, and Un-Love, but The Maturing Spiritual Practitioner (At The First Actually Seeing Stage, and Beyond) Of The Way Of The Heart, In whom Hearing, Seeing, and The Advancing Spiritual Process Of Ishta-Guru-Bhakti Yoga Have Already Purified The Heart In Its Average Of moments, Discovers That The Primary emotional Sign Of the self-Contraction (Whereby Spiritual Communion With The By Grace Revealed Divine Love-Bliss Is Diminished) Is Boredom (or The Boredom-Reaction To The Inherent Demands Of The Spiritual Ordeal).

If Heart-Boredom Is Suffered, The objectless Doubt Is Also Made To Seem. Or If The Doubt Appears, Heart-Boredom Is Likewise Suffered. And If the mind Of Doubt and The Heart Of Boredom Are Suffered, the entire body-mind Is Expressed By Either Chronic Or Variously Ranging Signs Of Discomfort (or Dis-ease). Therefore, In The Case Of Spiritually Awakened Devotees In The Way Of The Heart, These Three (Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort) Are The Always Simultaneous Moods and Signs That May Tend To Appear (and That May, By Their Appearing, Tend To Diminish Spiritual Communion With The By Grace Revealed Divine Love-Bliss).

The Devotee In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart Discovers (By Real, and Really self-Transcending, Spiritual Communion With Me, and, Thus and Thereby, With The By Grace Revealed Divine Love-Bliss) That The ordinary (and egoic) Struggle With concrete doubts, negative thoughts, emotional reactions, and grosser bodily discomforts (or All The egoic Resistance To The Discipline Of True Sila, or functional, practical, relational, and Cultural self-Control) Is (Already, and More and More) Superseded (and Even Replaced) By The True (and Necessarily First) Spiritual Ordeal Of frontal Communion With My Spiritual (and Always Blessing) Presence Of Self-Revealed “Bright” (or Self-Radiant, Self-Existing, and Necessarily Divine) Love-Bliss, and By The Grace-Given Process Of (Effectively and Fully) Feeling Beyond The Primary (and Even objectless) Signs Of Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort (or The frontal Efforts Of self-Contraction That Diminish, Rather Than Prevent, moment to moment Spiritual Communion With The Divine, and Only By Grace Revealed, Love-Bliss).

Therefore, Even Though The True (and Maturing) Devotee In The First Actually Seeing Stage (and Beyond) Of The Way Of The Heart May Sometimes (In Random and Occasional moments) Be Obliged To Transcend The Lingering “Grosser” Resistance (or Love-Bliss-Preventing Reactivity) Of the body-mind, The Primary and Constant Ordeal (Until The Way Of The Heart Is, By Grace, Awakened Into The Divinely Self-Realized Context Of The Seventh Stage Of Life) Is The Ordeal Of Direct and Immediate Spiritual (and Always Devotional, and Truly Feeling-Contemplative) Communion With Me (and, Thus and Thereby, With The By Me Revealed Divine Love-Bliss Itself), and This Is Done On The Basis Of True and Basic psycho-physical Equanimity (Already Established By Virtue Of Previous Right and Complete Fulfillment Of The Listening Stage, The Hearing Stage, and The Would-Be-Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart, and, Therefore, Rather or Relatively Easily Maintained By Constant Right Discipline and Consistent Real Heart-Practice).

(.1) The Characteristic Mood and the Basic character of the egoic individual In The First Three Stages Of Life Are Developed In Terms Of What I Call “Vital”, “Peculiar”, and “Solid” personality Patterns. These Patterns Correspond, Respectively, To Reactive (or ego-Preserving and ego-Dramatizing) Strategies Of Either A Characteristically vital (or “vitally”, and, Perhaps, or Sometimes, Even “Grossly”, physical) Kind Or A Characteristically emotional (or emotionally “peculiar”, and, Perhaps, or Sometimes, Even Hysterical) Kind Or A Characteristically mental (or mentally “solid”, or Strategically, and, Principally, by means Of ego-Efforts That Exploit the conceptual mind, Invulnerable) Kind.

(.11) The Dominant Characteristics Of the “Vital” character Are Obsessive and Compulsive vital-physical self-Expression and The Chronic, Excessive, and Even Degenerative Dramatization Of bodily self-Indulgence. The “Vital” character Is Also Associated With Diminished (or Suppressed) emotional Capability (Often Expressed Via a One-Dimensional, Generally Invariable, and Superficially Positive emotional state), and it Is Generally Represented By Either mental Dullness Or A Chaotic (or Undisciplined) Display Of the conceptual (or intellectual) function.

(.1) The Dominant Characteristics Of the “Peculiar” character Are Excessively “Romantic” (or Even Sentimental) and Idealistic (or Un-Realistic) Expectations (That Are Inevitably Frustrated) and The Loss Of Balance Via Chronic emotional Hypersensitivity and The Dramatization Of Exaggerated “Mood Swings” (or The Tendency To Alternate Dramatically, Even Without Apparent cause, Between Very Positive and Very Negative or Depressed or Hysterical emotional states). The “Peculiar” character Is Also Associated With Diminished conceptual or intellectual Capability (Characterized By Mechanical or Superficial Application Of mind), and it Is Generally Represented By Either Suppressed Or Chaotically Displayed vital-physical functions (Characterized By vital weakness and nervous energy).

(.1) The Dominant Characteristics Of the “Solid” character Are Hyperactivity Of the conceptual mind and The Chronic Dramatization Of A Profound and Even Suppressive Need To Control the psycho-physical self, and others, Especially Via The Efforts Of the conceptual mind and the effects Of merely conceptual Expression. The “Solid” character Is Also Associated With Diminished or Suppressed (or Over-Controlled and Mechanical) vital-physical activity or Capability, and it Is Generally Represented By A Suppression (or Sometimes Chaotic Display) Of emotional Expression (Of both Positive, or Non-Reactive, and Negative, or Reactive, emotions).

(.1) Even Though many individuals May Seem To Express themselves In A Complex Fashion, Combining Two or More Of These Chronic egoic Strategies, every egoic individual Is Basically Dominated By One Of These Three Reactive Designs. And The Characteristic Mood or Effort Determined By Each Design Dictates The Characteristic Expression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness Via The Region Of the throat. Thus, the “Solid” character Tends Toward Suppression (or Negatively and Mechanically Controlled Expression) Of bodily energy and human Aliveness. The “Vital” character Tends Toward A Chaotic (and Even Degenerative) Expression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness. And the “Peculiar” character Tends To Swing (In Hysterical Fashion) Between Chaotic and Suppressive Expressions Of bodily energy and human Aliveness.

(.1) Insofar As These egoic Strategies Simply Represent The ordinary and Spirit- Preventing Efforts Associated With The First Three Stages Of Life, They Must Be Observed (personally), Understood (Most Fundamentally), and Transcended (Most Effectively) During The Three Periods Of Intensive Listening and (Then) Hearing Practice (Associated Either With Practicing Stage One Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart, Or, Otherwise, With The Listening-Hearing Process Engaged By Beginning “Lay Congregationist” Practitioners Of The Technically “Simpler”, or Even “Simplest”, Form Of The Way Of The Heart), and The Capability Of Those egoic Strategies To Prevent Heart-Communion With The Living Spiritual Divine Is Finally Undone (By Grace) In The Eventual Awakening Of True Seeing (In The Culmination Of The Would-Be-Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart). However, Insofar As These egoic Strategies Represent Only The Spirit- Diminishing Tendencies Of the humanly Adapted frontal personality (and Frontal Line) Of The Spiritually Awakened Devotee, They May Continue To Be Responsibly Transcended and Released (and Replaced By Spiritually Positive Signs) In The Truly and Fully Spiritually Active (or Truly Both Hearing and Seeing) Practice Of The Way Of The Heart (and First, and Especially, and With Principal Effectiveness, In The Context Of The Fully Established “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life In The Way Of The Heart, and, Therefore, Either In The Context Of The Third Practicing Stage, or The Formally Acknowledged First Actually Seeing Stage, Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Practice Of The Way Of The Heart Or, Otherwise, In The Formally Acknowledged First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Technically “Simpler”, or Even “Simplest”, Form Of The Way Of The Heart).

(.1) Deeper Than the head and the throat, and Central To the body-mind As A Whole, Is The Heart. In The Case Of The Seeing Devotee Practicing The Way Of The Heart In The Fully Established “Basic” Context Of The Fourth Stage Of Life, The Left (or physical and lower psychic) and The Middle (or subtle and deeper psychic) Regions Of The Heart Are functionally Evident (In The Context Of the frontal personality), but The Right Side Of The Heart (Which Is The Root-Source, or Point Of Origin, Of egoic self-Consciousness, and Which Is Also, Ultimately, The Seat Of Transcendental, Inherently Spiritual, and, Ultimately, Divine Self-Realization) Is Only Latently Evident In the egoic individual Previous To The Transition To The Sixth Stage Of Life (In The Way Of The Heart).

(.1) The (General) Heart-Region Of the egoic individual Functions (In The Descended Context Of the body-mind) As The Primary Seat Of functional emotion and (Potentially) Of Spirit-Energy. And The Heart-Expression Is Retarded (and Even Prevented) By the self-Contraction, So That It Becomes Characterized By A Range Of Non-Spiritual and (In The Case Of Spiritual Activation) Diminished Spiritual Signs, From The Absence Of Spiritual Awareness To (In The Case Of Spiritual Activation) The Spiritual “Disease” Of Diminished Spiritual Delight (or Diminished Spiritual Awareness Of Love-Bliss). And The self-Contracted Heart Is Also Characterized By A Range Of emotions Associated With Un-Love, or Non-Love, or ego-Based and Superficial Pseudo-Love, or Diminished Love.

(.1) The Spiritual Yoga Of Devotional self-Submission Of the frontal personality (Begun In The Would-Be-Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart, and Continued, To The Degree Of True Spiritual Fullness In The Total Context Of The Frontal Line and the frontal personality Of the body-mind, In The Formally Acknowledged First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart) Is First (and Spiritually) To Purify, Rebalance, and Regenerate The head, throat, and Heart Regions Of The Frontal Line. In That Initial Process, Chronic (and Love-Bliss-Diminishing) Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort, Love-Bliss-Diminishing Aspects Of “Vital”, “Peculiar”, and “Solid” character-Strategies, Love-Bliss-Diminishing Suppression or Chaos Of bodily energy and human Aliveness, and Love-Bliss-Diminishing emotional Expressions Of Un-Love and Non-Love and Pseudo-Love and Diminished Love, and All Other Forms Of Diminished Heart-Expression and Heart-Delight Are To Be Progressively (and To A humanly and Spiritually Significant Degree) Released, and These Are (By Truly Spiritual Heart-Cooperation With Me) Responsively (and By Grace) To Be Replaced By the mind Of Sat-Guru-Praise and God-Aware Happiness, and By Spiritual (or Spiritually Infused) Equanimity, and By Fullness Of Both human Aliveness and Spirit-Life, and By The Heart-Radiant Disposition Of self-Transcending Love.

(.1) Once The Initial Spirit-Work Of The Way Of The Heart Has (In The First Phase Of The Fully Established “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life In The Way Of The Heart) Become Significantly Effective In The Frontal Line Of the body-mind, The Spiritual Yoga Of Devotional self-Submission Of the frontal personality Can (and Must) Then (and By Grace, In The Final, or Fullest, Phase Of The Fully Established “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life In The Way Of The Heart) “Break The Navel” (or Release and Open The Knot In The lower frontal Pattern Of the body-mind), and, Thus (By Grace), Spiritually Purify, Rebalance, and Regenerate The Deeper or Base Regions Of The Frontal Line.

The Deeper or Base Regions Of the body-mind Are Associated With The (Rather Unconscious) Root-Reactivity Of the born personality. That Root-Reactivity Is Represented By Anger (In The Region Of the solar plexus and the navel), Sorrow (Deeper, In The Region Of the lower abdomen and the genitals), and Fear (In The Deepest Region, The Region Of the perineum, the core of the bodily base). These Great and Base Reactions Are Not Commonly experienced (In Their Most Profound Forms) in the daily course, and, Therefore, In General, They Do Not (or Cannot) Directly and Effectively (or experientially) Either Prevent Or Diminish Spiritual Communion With The (Only By Grace Revealed) Divine Love-Bliss. The More Superficial Patterns (In The Heart, throat, and head Regions), Including Occasional and Lesser Expressions Of Fear, Sorrow, and Anger, Are Commonly Indulged (To The Degree Of, Effectively, Either Preventing Or, Potentially, Diminishing Spiritual Communion With The Divine Love-Bliss), but The Great Base Reactions Are Commonly Suppressed (or Strategically Avoided), Even Though They Are At The Root Of All Superficial Reactivity and All conventional Patterning.

(.1) Spiritually Untouched Anger, Sorrow, and Fear (Along With Aggressive Un-Love) Are The Dark or Hidden (and Generally Unconscious) Side Of The Heart (In Its Apparent Association With egoity), Whereas The Less Aggressive (or Less Debilitating) Expressions Of Fear, Sorrow, Anger, Un-Love, Non-Love, Pseudo-Love, and Diminished Love, As Well As The ordinary Chaos or Suppression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness, and Also Even Chronic Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort Are The Commonly Dramatized (and Even “socially Acceptable”) Side Of The Heart (In The Context Of Apparent egoity). Therefore, In The Way Of The Heart, It Is Only When The Deep Reactive Base Of The Heart (and the Total frontal personality) Is (Through The Spiritual Heart-Practice Of Devotional self-Submission In The Frontal Line) Invaded (or Infused) By My Baptizing, Purifying, Rebalancing, and Regenerative Spiritual (and Always Blessing) Presence (and, Thus and Thereby, By The Mere and Blessing Love-Bliss-Presence Of The Divine Person and Condition) That the frontal personality Is Most Fully (or Maximally, To The Fullest Degree Possible Previous To The Divinely Enlightened Awakening Associated With The Seventh Stage Of Life) Restored To Superior (or Spiritually Fully Infused) Equanimity, and To Optimum Clarity Of Awareness, and To Constantly Capable Feeling-Responsibility For mental, emotional, and physical Negativity, and To Truly Fundamental (and Undiminished) Love (or The Free Happiness-Delight Of Inherent Love-Bliss).

This Process Of Total frontal Invasion (or Infusion) By The Spirit-Current Of Love-Bliss (In The Context Of The Fully Established “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life In The Way Of The Heart) Does Not Itself Require (or Necessarily Involve The Conscious experience Of) The Most Debilitating Revelation Of Base Fear, Sorrow, and Anger, but (Rather) The Process Directly (and Most Simply) Involves and Requires The Deep Opening Of The Base Regions Of The Frontal Line Of the body-mind To My (By Grace Revealed) Spirit-Presence Of Love-Bliss Itself (So That The Base Reactions That Are Otherwise Locked Away As Fear, Sorrow, and Anger Are Directly and Immediately Replaced, In The Event Of The Grace-Given Spirit-Invasion Of The Frontal Line, With The Fullness and Delight and Freedom That Is Love-Bliss Itself). And The Fullest (or Maximal) Restoration Of the frontal personality To The (Only By Grace Revealed) Divine Love-Bliss Itself (Such As This May Be Realized Previous To Inherently and Fully Perfect Divine Awakening Itself) Is The Primary Sign That Is To Be Realized (At The Point Of Basic Maturity) In The Fully Established “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life In The Way Of The Heart. (Indeed, This Primary Sign Is So Potent As A Base Of Heart-Awakening That Direct Awakening To The Native Position Of The Witness-Consciousness, and Early Transition To Practice Of The Way Of The Heart In The Context Of The Sixth Stage Of Life, May Possibly Occur At any time After The Point Of Basic Maturity In The Fully Established “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life In The Way Of The Heart.)

Only When Chronic (and ordinary) Anger, Sorrow, and Fear (Which Effectively Separate the psycho-physical being From all ordinary relations) Are (By The Awakening, and The Subsequent Exercise, Of Most Fundamental self-Understanding) Capably, Directly, and Effectively Released (In The Maturity Of The Intensive Listening-Hearing Process Of The Way Of The Heart) Can It Be Said That The First Three Stages Of Life (and The “Original”, or Beginners, Devotional Development Of The Fourth Stage Of Life) Are Complete (and That the Possible limitations Of The First Three Stages Of Life Are Inherently and Effectively Transcended, By Means Of True Hearing, and By Basic, and Basically Stable, and Truly Hearing-Based human Equanimity). And Only When The Degrees Of ordinary Anger, Sorrow, and Fear That Prevent Heart-Communion With The Living Spiritual Divine Are Also (By The Effective Exercise Of True Hearing, and, Ultimately, By The Eventful Awakening Of True Seeing) Spiritually Released (By The Spiritual Awakening Associated With Maturity In The Would-Be-Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart) Can It Be Said That The Fourth Stage Of Life (In Its Fully Established “Basic”, or First Actually Spiritually Responsible, Form) Has Truly and Fully Begun. Therefore, Practice Of The Way Of The Heart In The Spiritually Responsible Context Of The “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life Cannot Be Truly and Fully Established Until, By Grace, Chronic (or ordinary, and Also Happiness- Preventing ) Fear, Sorrow, and Anger Are Transcended (Via The Awakening, and The Effective Exercise, Of True Hearing, or Most Fundamental self-Understanding, Demonstrated By Basic human Equanimity), and Until, By Grace, True Seeing (or Real Spiritual Heart-Conversion) Is Awakened or Established (and Begins To Be Demonstrated By Ever-Increasing Spiritual Equanimity and Fullness).

Fear Is The Primary Mood Of Separation. Fear Is Especially Associated With The First Stage Of Life and The Vital Shock Of birth. It Is Signalled By the gaping mouth (In Pitiful Awe), As If the mothers teat Were Suddenly Torn From the infant lips.

Fear Is Also The Principal Motivating Mood Of the “Solid” character. Paradoxically, the Obsessively self-Controlling and other-Controlling “Solid” character Is Founded On A Fear Of Being Controlled By others (or By conditions outside the body-mind-self). And That Fear Is Originally Developed In the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence, Generally In A Passive and Rather infantile Reaction Either To The Feeling Or To the Actual experience Of Being Too Much Controlled and Threatened By others, Especially adults.

Sorrow Is The Primary Mood Of the Rejected individual. Sorrow Is Especially Associated With The Second Stage Of Life, The Loss Of self-Security, and The Loss Of Power Over others On whom one Depends. It Is Signalled By the grimace, the downturned and puckered mouth, As In the eliminative anal grunt, The End-Game Of oral Dependency.

Sorrow Is Also The Principal Motivating Mood Of the “Peculiar” character. The Alternately Idealistically (and Thus mentally) self-Controlled and Chaotically self-Indulgent “Peculiar” character Is Founded On A Basic and Sorrowful Feeling Of Being Neglected. The Chronic Sorrow Of the “Peculiar” character Is A Yearning To Be Effectively Touched, or Loved. It Is A Call and Even An Hysterical Need (or Search) To Be Controlled, or Restored To Balance By A Positive Controlling Influence. And That Sorrowful Need Is Originally Developed In the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence, Generally In An Hysterical and Rather childish Reaction Either To The Feeling Or To the Actual experience Of Being Neglected, Denied Love, and Denied A Positive Controlling Influence.

Anger Is The Primary Mood Of Reaction To All That Seems To Justify Fear and Sorrow. It Is Especially Associated With The Third Stage Of Life, The adolescent Struggle With The Motives Of Dependence and Independence, and The Aggressive Effort Toward genital Victory (Glorifying the Separate and Separative self, egoically Powerful Over all others). It Is Signalled By the tortured mouth with gnashing teeth, The facial Display Of genital Shapes and genital Agony. Everything Of The First Three Stages Of Life Is Displayed In Common egoic Anger. Even egoic sex Is Full Of Rejection and Anger, Threatened By Loss and Sorrow, and Convinced Of Fearful Separation.

Anger Is Also The Principal Motivating Mood Of the “Vital” character. The “Vital” character Is Characteristically self-Indulgent, vitally, or physically. The Mood Of This Pattern Is Always Rather Rebellious. Indeed, Even the Most Apparently Carefree, self-pleasurizing “Vital” character Is Dramatizing Resistance and Refusal. The “Vital” character Is Founded On An Angry Reaction To Controls and Demands. The Characteristic Behavior Pattern Associated With the “Vital” character Is A Chronic Effort To Resist, Refuse, or Avoid The Controlling Influence Of others (or Even Of the mind) On The personal bodily Existence Of the conditional self. And That Angry Mood Is Originally Developed In the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence, Generally In An Aggressive and Rather adolescent Reaction Either To The Feeling Or To the Actual experience Of Being Too Much Controlled and Threatened By others, Especially adults.

Truly human and adult Maturity Requires Transcendence Of The Chronic and Obsessive character Patterns Developed In the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence. Truly human and adult Maturity Is The Achievement Of A Balance Between The Motive Toward Control Of the psycho-physical self and The Motive Toward Motion or Excitation Of the psycho-physical self. Truly human and adult Maturity Requires self-Control and A Willingness To Be Even physically Affected, emotionally Touched, mentally Influenced and Thus, To A Significant Degree, Controlled By others. Likewise, Truly human adulthood or Maturity Requires The Constant Exercise or Excitation Of The Motive Of (or Toward) Real Freedom (Even The Ultimate Freedom Of Utter self-Transcendence and Inherent, and Inherently Perfect, Realization Of The Transcendental and Inherently Spiritual Divine).

(.1) The Tendency To perceive Existence As A Problem, or To conceive and suffer An Inherent Conflict Between Control and Freedom, Must Be Transcended In Wisdom. The Father-Force (or The Husbanding Force, or The Controlling and Demanding Influence) and The Mother-Force (or The Feminine Force, or The Nurturing and Supporting Influence) Must Both Be Discovered, Accepted, and Integrated Into The psycho-physical Patterns Of Your Own Real Existence. When That Integration Is Real and Stable, So That The human Pattern Of Your Own body-mind Is Basically Balanced, Intelligent, self-Disciplined, and Also (By Grace) Directly Communing With Spirit-Life (bodily, emotionally, and mentally), Then The Transition To Practice Of The Way Of The Heart Beyond the limits Of The First Three Stages Of Life (and Beyond the limits, or Rudiments, Of The “Original”, or Beginners, Devotional Context Of The Fourth Stage Of Life) Has Really Been Completed, and Practice Of The Way Of The Heart In The Spiritually Responsible Context Of The “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life Has Been Granted A Full and Stable Foundation. Therefore, It Is This Both human and Spiritual Foundation (or The Real and Most Basic Process Of Truly Both Hearing and Seeing ) That Must Precede The Transition To The Formally Acknowledged First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart (and, Thus, Either To Practicing Stage Three Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart Or, Otherwise, To The Fully Acknowledged First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Technically “Simpler”, or Even “Simplest”, “Lay Congregationist” Practice Of The Way Of The Heart).

There Is No Fullest (and Truly Spiritual) Integration Of the frontal or ordinary human personality Until The Divine Spirit-Presence Fully Infuses the Surrendered body-mind With Love-Bliss (and, Thereby, Fills and Replaces The Spaces Of mental, emotional, and physical Negativity). Therefore, By Grace, The Wandering and self-Contracted Heart Must Find Its Own True Father and Mother.

Even the Total body-mind Must Cling To The Divine Life-Light, Calming breath and mind In Love-Bliss, If the ego-self and others Are To Be Sublimed, All Well. Therefore, By Grace, The Wandering and self-Contracted Heart Must Find Its Own True Husband, The Father-Revealing and Mother-Revealing Son Of The Only Source Of all and All.

The Heart Must Surrender Itself In Listening Love To The Husbanding “Bright” Companion, and This Love-Surrender Must Become A Truly Hearing and Seeing Yoga Of Devotion.

The Heart That Hears and Sees Must Meet The Husbands Spirit-Mark, and Many Signs Must Appear (By Grace) Before The Work Is “Bright” and Done.

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