Dawn Horse Testament – Chapter 23 – 2004 – Adi Da Samraj


Notice

This 1991 version of The Dawn Horse Testament is NOT the final version by Adidam (Adi Da).

“you should not study any earlier edition of The Dawn Horse Testament (or any earlier edition of any other of My “source-Texts”). The final edition is it. There are not “multi-editions” or “multi-instructions”.
“I am taking great care to prevent the falsification and transformation of the Reality-Way of Adidam – all of this kind of make-it-up-as-you-go-along do-it-yourself “religiosity” and revisionism.

Adi Da Samraj 2004


This chapter is from the current and latest 2004 edition of The Dawn Horse Testament which is out of print. It is not entirely “current” with Beloved Adi Da’s final language conventions and the details of His practical Instructions.


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The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Only-By-Me Revealed and Given Way Of Adidam (Which Is The One and Only By-Me-Revealed and By Me-Given Way Of The Heart) Requires A Profound Exercise Of the frontal personality Which Surrenders, Opens, and (Spiritually) Rightly Polarizes, Purifies, Balances, and Infuses the frontal (or human) character (In The Context Of every function and every kind of relationship or circumstance). That Process Must Always Take Place On The Basis Of The Primary (and Always First) Practice (Of Searchless Beholding Of Me and of (Subsequent) Responsive Reception Of My Ruchira Shaktipat (Engaged In The Manner Of My “Hridaya Rosary” Of “Four Thorns Of Heart-Instruction”). And, In That Process, the human and Spiritual limitations of the frontal character Are To Be Constantly Encountered and Surrendered Via Directly and Effectively ego-Transcending Devotional and Spiritual Communion With Me.

This Real Process Of Encounter and self-Surrender Inevitably Produces (and Must Produce) Many Kinds Of phenomenal (or psycho-physical) Signs. Even Some Signs Related To The Ascending Spiritual Process (or the Yogic phenomena Associated With The Spinal Line) May Spontaneously Appear, but The Significant Signs That Are Specific To The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart Are Associated With The Descending Process (and The Frontal Line Of the body-mind). Thus, The Significant phenomena Signs At This Developmental Stage Include psycho-physical Openings and, Releases everywhere In The Frontal Line-Spiritually Relieving egoic mental, emotional, and physical Patterns, Reactions, and Blocks In The Hierarchical; Structure (From the head To the bodily base).

The self-Contraction (or the egoic personality) Developed In The Context Of The First Three Stages Of Life Shows itself, In The Context Of The Frontal Line, In A Hierarchical Pattern-Progressing From the head To the bodily base Via A Range Of specific emotions and bodily and mental states that Generally (Apart From The Exercise Of The Hearing-and-Seeing Capability) Would Prevent Spiritual Communion With My (Avatarically Self-Transmitted) Divine (and inherently spiritual) Love-Bliss. In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart, My Devotee Must Be Already Equipped (By Virtue Previously Awakened Hearing Of Me and Seeing Of Me) To Always Immediately and Directly Transcend The Potential Of these various states To Prevent Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss; Therefore, In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart (Which Is Real Practice Of The Way Of The Heart In The Fully Established “Basic” Context Of The Fourth Stage Of Life, and Which Is Based On Previous Hearing Of Me and Seeing Of Me, and On An Already Established Basic human and, In The Foundation Sense, Spiritual-Equanimity Relative To The First Three Stages Of Life), The Spiritual (and Always Devotional) Process Of Such ego Transcendence Is Primarily Engaged Relative To Patterns and Degrees Of self-Contraction That (Comparatively) Would Merely Diminish, Rather Than Prevent, Direct Communion (and, Most Ultimately, Inherent, and Inherently Most Perfect, Self-Identification) With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss.

 

The head Is Associated With mental Patterns That Reflect the emotional and physical conditions below – and, In The Context Of Practice In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart, My Devotee Discovers That The Primary mental Sign Of the self-Contraction (Whereby Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss Is, or Would Be, Diminished) Is The Habit (or Tendency) Of Non-Specific Doubt (Which Is Not So Much a thought As It Is an emotionally Contracted state of mind that, In A Negative or Disabling Fashion, Controls thought and Otherwise limits The Useful functional Clarity and Strength Of mind and will, or Of All Intelligent Intention).

Immediately below the head Is The Region Of the throat (or The Channel Of the breath, and Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spirit-Current, Which Connects the head, and the Total brain, To The Heart, and the entire trunk, and the lower body). The self-Contraction (Whereby Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss Is Diminished) Registers In This Region Either As The Tendency Toward The Diminishment Of psycho-physical Equanimity (Via A Relatively Chaotic, Expression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness) Or As The Tendency Toward A Degree Of Suppression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness (Depending On The egoically Characteristic Mood and The Accumulated personality Pattern Of the individual).

The General Region Of The Heart (Including the solar plexus) Is Associated With emotional Patterns That Reflect conditions everywhere in the body-mind. The self-Contraction Is Displayed emotionally As every kind of Chronic and Key emotion (or Pattern Of emotional Reaction), Including Fear, Sorrow, Anger, and, Un-Love – but The Maturing Spiritual Practitioner (At The First Actually Seeing Stage, and Beyond) Of The Way Of The Heart, In whom The Hearing Of Me, The Seeing Of Me, and The Maturing Spiritual Process Of Ruchira Avatara Bhakti Yoga Have Already Purified The Heart In Its Average Of moments, Discovers That The Primary emotional Sign Of the self-Contraction (Whereby Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss Is Diminished) Is Boredom (or The Boredom-Reaction To The Inherent Demands Of The Spiritual Ordeal).

If Heart-Boredom Is Suffered, The objectless Doubt Is Also Made To Seem. Or If The Doubt Appears, Heart-Boredom Is Likewise Suffered. And If the mind Of Doubt and The Heart Of Boredom Are Suffered, the entire body-mind Is Expressed By Either Chronic Or Variously Ranging Signs Of Discomfort (or Dis-ease). Therefore, In The Case Of My Actually Me-Seeing Devotees, These Three (Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort) Are The Always Simultaneous Moods and Signs That May Tend To Appear (and That May, By Their Appearing, Tend To Diminish Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss).

My Devotee In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart Discovers (By Real, and Really ego-Transcending, Spiritual Communion With Me, and, Thus and Thereby, With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss) That The ordinary (and egoic) Struggle With concrete doubts, negative thoughts, emotional reactions, and grosser bodily discomforts (or All The egoic Patterns Of Resistance To The Discipline Of True Sila, or functional, practical, relational, and Cultural self-Control) Is (Already, and More and More) Superseded (and Even Replaced) By The True Spiritual Ordeal Of (Spiritually) Fully Technically Responsible frontal Communion With My Spiritual (and Always Blessing) Divine Presence Of Avatarically Self-Transmitted “Bright” (or Self-Radiant, Self-Existing, and Self-Evidently Divine) Love-Bliss, and By The By-My-Avataric-Divine-Spiritual-Grace-Given Process Of (Effectively and Fully) Feeling Beyond The Primary (and Even objectless) Signs Of Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort – or The frontal Efforts Of self-Contraction That (Comparatively) Would Diminish, Rather Than (Otherwise, or Apart From The Exercise Of The Hearing-and-Seeing Capability) Would Entirely Prevent, moment to moment Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss.

Therefore, Even Though The True (and Maturing) Devotee In The First Actually Seeing Stage (and Beyond) Of The Way Of The Heart May Sometimes (In Random and occasional moments) Be Obliged To Transcend The Lingering “Grosser” Resistance (or Love-Bliss-Preventing Reactivity) Of the body-mind, The Primary and Constant Practice and Process (Until The Way Of The Heart Is, By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace, Awakened Into The Divinely Self-Realized and Love-Bliss-Realized, and, On That Basis, Most Perfectly Devotional, Context Of The Only-By-Me Revealed and Given Seventh Stage Of Life) Is The ego-Surrendering, ego Forgetting, and ego-Transcending Ordeal Of Direct and Immediate and Fully Technically Responsible Spiritual (and Always Devotional, and Truly Feeling Contemplative, and Searchlessly Me-Beholding, and Upward-To-Me-Opening) Communion With Me (and, Thus and Thereby, With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss Itself) and This Is Done On The Basis Of True and Basic psycho-physical and Spiritual Equanimity, Already Established By Virtue Of Previous Right and Complete Fulfillment Of The Listening Stage, The Hearing Stage, and The Would-Be-Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart (and, Therefore, Rather, or Relatively, Easily Maintained By Constant Right Discipline and Consistent Real Heart-Practice).

The Characteristic Mood and the Basic character of the egoic individual In The First Three Stages Of Life Are Exhibited In Terms Of What I Call “Vital”, “Peculiar”, and “Solid” personality Patterns. These Patterns Correspond, Respectively, To Reactive (or ego-Preserving and ego-Dramatizing) Strategies Of Either A Characteristically vital (or “vitally”-and, Perhaps, or Sometimes, Even “Grossly”-physical) Kind Or A Characteristically emotional (or emotionally “peculiar”, and, Perhaps, or Sometimes, Even Hysterical) Kind Or A Characteristically mental (or mentally “solid”, or Strategically-and, Principally, By Means Of ego-Efforts That Exploit the conceptual mind-Invulnerable) Kind.

The Dominant Characteristics Of the “Vital” character Are Obsessive and Compulsive vital-physical self-Expression and The Chronic, Excessive, and Even, Degenerative Dramatization Of bodily self-Indulgence. The “Vital” character Is Also Associated With Diminished (or Suppressed) emotional Capability (Often Expressed Via a One-Dimensional, Generally Invariable, and Superficially Positive emotional state), and it Is Generally Represented By Either mental Dullness Or A Chaotic (or Undisciplined) Display Of the conceptual (or intellectual) function.

The Dominant Characteristics Of the “Peculiar” character Are Excessively “Romantic” (or Even Sentimental) and Idealistic (or Un-Realistic) Expectations (That Are Inevitably Frustrated) and The Loss Of Balance Via Chronic emotional Hypersensitivity and The Dramatization Of Exaggerated “Mood Swings” (or The Tendency To Alternate Dramatically, Even Without Apparent cause, Between Very; Positive and Very Negative or Depressed or Hysterical emotional states). The “Peculiar” character Is Also Associated With Diminished conceptual (or intellectual) Capability (Characterized By Mechanical or Superficial Application Of mind), and it Is Generally Represented By Either Suppressed Or Chaotically Displayed vital-physical functions (Characterized By vital weakness and nervous energy).

The Dominant Characteristics Of the “Solid” character Are Hyperactivity Of the conceptual mind and The Chronic Dramatization Of A Profound (and Even Suppressive) Need To Control the psycho-physical self (and others), Especially Via The Efforts Of the conceptual mind and the effects Of merely conceptual Expression. The “Solid” character Is Also Associated With Diminished or Suppressed (or Over-Controlled and Mechanical) vital-physical activity or Capability, and it Is Generally Represented By A Suppression (or Sometimes Chaotic Display) Of emotional Expression (Of both Positive, or Non-Reactive, and Negative, or Reactive, emotions).

Most individuals Express themselves In A Complex Fashion, Combining (In One or Another Manner) Two, or Even All Three, Of These Chronic egoic Strategies – but every egoic individual Is Basically Dominated By One Of These Three Reactive Designs. And The Characteristic Mood (or Effort) Determined By Each Design Dictates The Characteristic Expression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness Via The Region Of the throat. Thus, the “Solid” character Tends Toward Suppression (or Negatively and Mechanically Controlled Expression) Of bodily energy and human Aliveness. The “Vital” character Tends Toward A Chaotic (and Even Degenerative) Expression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness. And the “Peculiar” character Tends To Swing (In Hysterical Fashion) Between Chaotic and Suppressive Expressions Of bodily energy and human Aliveness.

Insofar As These egoic Strategies Simply Represent The ordinary and Spirit-Preventing Efforts Associated With The First Three Stages Of Life, They Must Be Observed (personally), Understood (Most Fundamentally), and Transcended (Truly Effectively) During The Three Periods Of Intensive Listening and (Then) Hearing Practice – and The Capability Of Those egoic Strategies To Prevent Heart-Communion With Me Is Finally Undone (By means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace) In The Eventual Awakening Of The True Seeing Of Me (In The Culmination Of The Would-Be Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart). However, Insofar As These egoic Strategies Represent Only The Spirit-Diminishing Tendencies Of the humanly Adapted frontal personality (and Frontal Line) Of My Actually Me-Seeing Devotee, They May Continue To Be Responsibly Transcended and Released (and Replaced By Spiritually Positive Signs) In The Truly Both Hearing and Seeing Practice Of The Way Of The Heart (and First, and Especially, and With Principal Effectiveness, In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart).

Deeper Than the head and the throat, and Central To the body-mind As A Whole, Is The Heart. In The Case Of My Seeing Devotee Practicing The Way Of The Heart In The Fully Established “Basic” Context Of The Fourth Stage Of Life, The Left (or physical and lower psychic) and The Middle (or subtle and deeper psychic) Regions Of The Heart Are functionally Evident (In The Context Of the frontal personality), but The Right Side Of The Heart (Which Is The Root-Source, or Point Of Origin, Of egoic self-Consciousness, and Which Is Also, Ultimately, The Heart-Seat, or Horizontal-Plane Focus, Of Transcendental, Inherently Spiritual, and Most Perfect Divine Self-Realization) Is Only Latently Evident In the egoic individual Previous To The Transition To The “Perfect Practice” Of The Way Of The Heart.

The (General) Heart-Region (or Horizontal Core) Of the egoic individual Functions (In The Descended Context Of the body-mind) As The Primary Seat Of functional emotion and (Potentially) Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spirit-Energy. And The Heart-Expression Is Retarded (and Even Prevented) By the self-Contraction, Such That It Becomes Characterized By A Range Of Non-Spiritual and (In The Actually Me – Seeing Case) Diminished Spiritual Signs – From The Absence Of Spiritual Awareness To (In The Actually Me – Seeing Case) The Spiritual “Disease” Of Diminished Spiritual Delight (or Diminished Spiritual Awareness Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss). And The self-Contracted Heart Is Also Characterized By A Range Of emotions Associated With Un-Love, or Non-Love, or ego-Based and Superficial Pseudo-Love, or Diminished Love.

The (Fully Technically Responsible) Spiritual Yoga Of Devotional self-Surrender Of the frontal personality To Me (Begun In The Would-Be-Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart, and Continued, To The Degree Of True Spiritual Fullness In The Total Context Of The Frontal Line and the frontal personality Of the body-mind, In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart) Is First (and Spiritually) To Purify, Rebalance, and Regenerate The head, throat, and Heart Regions Of The Frontal Line. In That Initial Process, Chronic (and Love-Bliss-Diminishing) Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort, Love-Bliss-Diminishing Aspects Of “Vital”, “Peculiar”, and “Solid” character-Strategies, Love-Bliss-Diminishing Suppression or Chaos Of bodily energy and human Aliveness, and Love-Bliss-Diminishing emotional Expressions Of Un-Love and Non-Love and Pseudo-Love and Diminished Love, and All Other Forms Of Diminished Heart-Expression and Heart-Delight, Are To Be Progressively (and To A humanly and Spiritually Significant Degree) Released-and These Are (By Truly Spiritual Heart-Cooperation With Me) Responsively (and By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace) To Be Replaced By the mind Of Ruchira-Avatar Praise and Real-God-Aware Happiness, and By Spiritually Fully Infused Equanimity, and By Fullness Of Both human Aliveness and Spirit-Life, and By The Heart Radiant Disposition Of ego-Transcending Love.

Once The Initial Purifying Work Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spirit-Energy Has (In The First Phase Of The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart) Become Significantly Effective In The Frontal Line Of the body-mind, The (Fully Technically Responsible) Spiritual Yoga Of Devotional self-Surrender Of the frontal personality To Me Can (and Must) Then (and By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace, In The Second, and Final, or Fullest, Phase Of The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart) “Break the navel” (or Release and Open The Knot, or self-Contraction, in The lower frontal Pattern Of the body-mind), and, Thus (By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace), Spiritually Purify, Rebalance, and Regenerate The Deeper (or Base) Regions Of The Frontal Line.

The Deeper (or Base) Regions Of the body-mind Are Associated With The (Rather Unconscious) Root-Reactivity Of the born personality. That Root Reactivity Is Represented By Anger (In The Region Of the solar plexus and the navel), Sorrow (Deeper, In The Region Of the lower abdomen and the genitals), and Fear (In The Deepest Region, The Region Of the perineum, the core of the bodily base). These Great and Base Reactions Are Not Commonly experienced (In Their Most Profound Forms) in the daily course, and (Therefore, In General) They Do Not (or Cannot) Directly and Effectively (or experientially) Either Prevent Or Diminish Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss. The More Superficial Patterns (In The Heart, throat, and head Regions) – Including Occasional and Lesser Expressions Of Fear, Sorrow, and Anger-Are Commonly Indulged (To The Degree] Of, Effectively, Either Preventing Or, Potentially, Diminishing Spiritual Communion With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss), but The Great Base Reactions Are Commonly (or In the Average moments of daily life) Suppressed (or Strategically Avoided), Even Though They Are At The Root Of All Superficial Reactivity and All conventional Patterning.

Spiritually Untouched Anger, Sorrow, and Fear (Along With Aggressive, Un-Love) Are The Dark, or Hidden (and Generally Unconscious), Side Of; The Heart (In Its Apparent Association With egoity)-Whereas The Less Aggressive (or Less Debilitating) Expressions Of Fear, Sorrow, Anger, Un-Love, Non-Love, Pseudo-Love, and Diminished Love (As Well As The ordinary Chaos or Suppression Of bodily energy and human Aliveness, and Also Even Chronic Doubt, Boredom, and Discomfort) Are The Commonly Dramatized (and Even “socially Acceptable”) Side Of The Heart (In The Context Of Apparent egoity). Therefore, in The Only-By-Me Revealed and Given Way Of The Heart (or Way Of Adidam), It Is Only When The Deep Reactive Base Of The Heart (and the Total frontal personality) – is (Through The Fully Technically Responsible Spiritual Heart-Practice Of Devotional self-Surrender To Me In The Frontal Line) Invaded (or infused) By My (Avatarically Self-Transmitted) Baptizing, Purifying, Rebalancing, and Regenerative Spiritual (and Always Blessing) Divine Love-bliss-Presence That the frontal personality Is Most Fully (or Maximally, To The Fullest Degree Possible Previous To The Divinely Enlightened Awakening Associated With The Only-By-Me Revealed and Given Seventh Stage Of Life) Restored To Superior (or Spiritually Fully Infused) Equanimity, and To Optimum Clarity Of Awareness, and To Constantly Capable Feeling Responsibility For mental, emotional, and physical Negativity, and To Truly Fundamental (and Undiminished) Love (or The Free Happiness Of Delight In The Spirit-Current Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss).

This Process Of Total frontal Invasion (or Infusion) By My Avatarically Self Transmitted Spirit-Current Of Divine Love-Bliss (In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart) Does Not Itself Require (or Necessarily Involve the Conscious experience Of) The Most Debilitating Revelation Of Base Fear, Sorrow, and Anger – but (Rather) The Process Directly (and Most Simply) Involves and Requires The Deep Opening Of The Base Regions Of The Frontal Line Of the body-mind To My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spirit-Presence Of Love-Bliss Itself (Such That The Base Reactions That Are Otherwise Locked Away As Fear, Sorrow, and Anger Are Directly and Immediately Replaced, In The Event Of The Invasion Of The Frontal Line By My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace, With The Fullness and Delight and Freedom That Is My Divine Self-Condition Of Love-Bliss Itself). And The Fullest (or Maximal) Spiritual Restoration Of the frontal personality To My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Love-Bliss Itself (Such As This May Be Realized Previous To Most Perfect Divine Awakening, and The Demonstration Of The Only-By-Me Revealed and Given Seventh Stage Of Life) Is The Primary Sign That Is To Be Realized (At The Point Of Basic Maturity) In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart. Indeed, This Primary Sign Is So Potent As A Base Of Heart-Awakening That Direct Awakening To The Position Of The Witness-Consciousness (By Means Of The Only-By-Me Revealed and Given Samadhi Of The “Thumbs”), and (Consequent) Transition To The “Perfect Practice” Of The Way Of The Heart, Will (In Due Course, By Means Of My’, Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace) Occur At The Point Of Basic Maturity In The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart.

Only When Chronic (and ordinary) Anger, Sorrow, and Fear (Which Effectively Separate the psycho-physical being From all ordinary relations) Are (By The Awakening, and The Subsequent Exercise, Of Most Fundamental self Understanding) Capably, Directly, and Effectively Released (In The Maturity Of The Intensive Listening-Hearing Process Of The Way Of The Heart) Can It Be Said That The First Three Stages Of Life (and The “Original”, or Beginner’s, Devotional – and, In The Foundation Sense, Spiritual-Development Of The Fourth Stage Of Life) Are Complete (and That the Possible limitations Of The First Three Stages Of Life Are Inherently and Effectively Transcended, By Means Of The True Hearing Of Me, and By Basic, and Basically Stable, and Truly Hearing-Based human – and, In The Foundation Sense, Spiritual Equanimity). And Only When The Degrees Of ordinary Anger, Sorrow, and Fear That Prevent Heart-Communion With Me Are Spiritually Released (In The Context Of The Fully Technically Responsible Spiritual Awakening Associated With Maturity In The Would-Be-Seeing, or Progressively Seeing, Stage Of The Way Of The Heart) Can It Be Said That The Fourth-Stage – Of Life Practice Of The Way Of The Heart (In Its Fully Established “Basic”, or First Actually Seeing, Form) Has Truly and Fully Begun. Therefore, Practice Of The Way Of The Heart In The (Spiritually) Fully Technically Responsible Context Of The “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life Cannot Be Truly and Fully Established Until (By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace) Chronic (or ordinary, and Also Happiness-Preventing) Fear, Sorrow, and Anger Are Transcended, Via The Awakening (and The Effective Exercise) Of Both The True Hearing Of Me (or Most Fundamental self-Understanding, Demonstrated By Basic human – and, In The Foundation Sense, Spiritual-Equanimity) and The True Seeing Of Me (or Real Spiritual Heart-Conversion, Demonstrated By Ever-Increasing Spiritual Equanimity and Fullness).

Fear Is The Primary Mood Of Separation. Fear Is Especially Associated With The First Stage Of Life and The Vital Shock Of birth. It Is Signaled By the gaping mouth (In Pitiful Awe), As If the mother’s teat Were Suddenly Torn From the infant lips.

Fear Is Also The Principal Motivating Mood Of the “Solid” character. Paradoxically, the Obsessively self-Controlling and other-Controlling “Solid” character (Chronically Seeking To Be “In Control”, or Chronically “Talking” As If “In Control”, or, Altogether, Chronically “Seeming” To Presume To Be “In Control”) Is Founded On A Fear Of Being Controlled By others (or By conditions outside the body-mind-self). And That Fear Is Originally Developed In the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence-Generally In A Passive and Rather infantile Reaction Either To The Feeling Or To the Actual experience Of Being Too Much Controlled and Threatened By others, Especially adults.

Sorrow Is The Primary Mood Of the Rejected individual. Sorrow Is Especially Associated With The Second Stage Of Life, The Loss Of self-Security, and The Loss of Power over others On whom one Depends. It Is Signaled By the grimace, the downturned and puckered mouth-As In the eliminative anal grunt, The End-Game Of oral Dependency.

Sorrow Is Also The Principal Motivating Mood Of the “Peculiar” character. The Alternately Idealistically (and, Thus, mentally) self-Controlled and (Otherwise) Chaotically self-Indulgent “Peculiar” character Is Founded On A Basic and Sorrowful Feeling Of Being Neglected. The Chronic Sorrow Of the “Peculiar” character Is A Yearning To Be Effectively Touched (or Loved). It Is A Call and Even An Hysterical Need (or Search) To Be Controlled (or Restored To Balance By A Positive Controlling Influence). And That Sorrowful Need Is Originally Developed in the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence Generally In An Hysterical and Rather childish Reaction Either To The Feeling Or To the Actual experience Of Being Neglected, Denied Love, and Denied A Positive, Controlling Influence.

Anger Is The Primary Mood Of Reaction To All That Seems To Justify Fear and Sorrow. It Is Especially Associated With The Third Stage Of Life-Which Is Characterized By The adolescent Struggle With The Motives Of Dependence and Independence, and The Aggressive Effort Toward genital Victory (Glorifying the Separate and Separative self, egoically Powerful Over all others). It Is Signaled By the tortured mouth with gnashing teeth, The facial Display Of genital Shapes and genital Agony. Everything Of The First Three Stages Of Life Is Displayed In common egoic Anger. Even egoic sex Is Full Of Rejection and Anger-Threatened By Loss and Sorrow, and Convinced Of Fearful separation.

Anger Is Also The Principal Motivating Mood Of the “Vital” character. The “Vital” character Is Characteristically self-Indulgent, vitally (or physically). The Mood Of This Pattern Is Always Rather Rebellious. Indeed, Even the Most Apparently Carefree, self-pleasurizing “Vital” character Is Dramatizing Resistance and Refusal. The “Vital” character Is Founded On An Angry Reaction To Controls and Demands. The Characteristic behavior-Pattern Associated With the “Vital” character Is A Chronic Effort To Resist, Refuse, or Avoid The Controlling Influence Of others (or Even Of the mind) On The personal bodily Existence Of the conditional self. And That Angry Mood Is Originally Developed In the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence Generally In An Aggressive and Rather adolescent Reaction Either To The Feeling Or To the Actual experience Of Being Too Much Controlled and Threatened By others, Especially adults.

Truly human and adult Maturity Requires The Transcending Of The Chronic and Obsessive character Patterns Developed In the years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence. Truly human and adult Maturity Is The Achievement Of A Balance Between The Motive Toward Control Of the psycho-physical self and The Motive Toward Motion (or Excitation) Of the psycho-physical self. Truly human and adult Maturity Requires self-Control and A Willingness To Be Even physically Affected, emotionally Touched, mentally Influenced and (Thus, To A Significant Degree) Controlled By others. Likewise, Truly human adulthood (or Maturity) Requires The Constant Exercise (or Excitation) The Motive Of (or Toward) Real Freedom (Even The Most Ultimate Freedom Of Utter ego-Transcendence and inherent, and Inherently Most Perfect, Realization Of Me – The Avataric Self-Revelation Of The Transcendental, Inherently Spiritual, Inherently egoless, and Self-Evidently Divine Self-Condition, and Source-Condition, Of all-and-All).

The Tendency To perceive Existence As A Problem, or To conceive and Suffer An Inherent Conflict Between Control and Freedom, Must Be Transcended In Wisdom. The “Father-Force” (or The Husbanding Force, or The Controlling and Demanding Influence) and The “Mother-Force” (or The Feminine Force, or The Nurturing and Supporting Influence) Must Both Be Discovered, Accepted, and Integrated Into The psycho-physical Patterns Of Your Own Real Existence. When That Integration Is Real and Stable, Such That The human Pattern Of Your Own body-mind Is Basically Balanced, Intelligent, self-Disciplined, and Also (By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace) Directly Communing With My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spirit-Presence-Of Love-Bliss (bodily, emotionally, and mentally) Then The Transition To Practice Of The Way Of The Heart Beyond the limits Of The First Three Stages Of Life-and Beyond the limits (or Rudiments) Of The “Original” (or Beginner’s) Devotional (and, In The Foundation Sense, Spiritual) Context Of The Fourth Stage Of Life – Has Really Been Completed, and Practice Of The Way Of The Heart In The (Spiritually) Fully Technically Responsible Context Of The “Basic” Fourth Stage Of Life Has Been Granted A Full and Stable Basis. Therefore, It Is The Establishment Of This Both human and (Fully Technically Responsible) Spiritual Basis For Maturing Practice Of The Way Of The Heart (or The Real and Most Basic Process Of Truly Both Hearing Me and Seeing Me) That Must Precede The Transition To The First Actually Seeing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart.

There Is No Fullest (and To The Fullest Degree Spiritual) Integration Of the frontal (or ordinary) human personality Until My Avatarically Self-Revealed Divine Spirit-Presence Fully Infuses the Surrendered body-mind With My Divine Love-Bliss (and, Thereby, Fills and Replaces The Spaces Of mental, emotional, and physical Negativity). Therefore, By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace, The Wandering and self-Contracted Heart Must Find Its Own True “Father” and “Mother”.

Even the Total body-mind Must Cling To My Divine Conscious Light, Calming breath and mind In Love-Bliss, if the ego-self and others Are To Be Sublimed, All Well and “Bright”. Therefore, By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace, The Wandering and self-Contracted Heart Must Find Its Own True Husband -The “Father” – Revealing and “Mother” Revealing “Son” Of The Only Source Of all-and-All.

The Heart Must Surrender Itself In Listening Love To The Husbanding “Bright” companion – and This Love-Surrender Must Become A Truly Me Hearing and Me-Seeing Yoga Of Devotional Recognition-Response To Me.

The Heart That Hears Me and Sees Me Must Meet The Husband’s Spirit Mark, and Many Signs Must Appear (By Means Of My Avatarically Self-Transmitted Divine Spiritual Grace) Before My Work Is “Bright” and Done.


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