The Dawn Horse Testament (1991) – Chapter 3 (WOP)

Notice to Reader

This 1991 version of The Dawn Horse Testament is NOT the final version by Adidam (Adi Da).

“You should not study any earlier edition of The Dawn Horse Testament (or any earlier edition of any other of My “source-Texts”). The final edition is it. There are not “multi-editions” or “multi-instructions”. “I am taking great care to prevent the falsification and transformation of the Reality-Way of Adidam – all of this kind of make-it-up-as-you-go-along do-it-yourself “religiosity” and revisionism. Adi Da Samraj 2004

The current and latest 2004 edition of The Dawn Horse Testament is out of print. It is not entirely “current” with Beloved Adi Da’s final language conventions and the details of His practical Instructions. Since there is no final or official version available Beezone feels it appropriate to use this 1991 version as a form of study with the understanding of the above ‘notice’.

2004 Dawn Horse Testament


The Dawn Horse Testament

The Testament Of Secrets Of The Divine World Teacher and True Heart-Master, Da Avabhasa (The “Bright”.)

November 1991

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Chapter 3

 

I Prepare To Serve You By Freely Assuming, Wholly Understanding, and Perfectly Transcending the conditional states Of Existence.

From The Beginning Of My Teaching Work, I Taught The Great Heart-Way Of self-Understanding and self-Transcendence. That Way Is The Way Of Devotional and Meditative Communion with The Divine Person Via Heart-Communion With Me.

From The Beginning Of My Teaching Work, I Taught The Great Heart-Way Of self-Understanding and self-Transcendence. Therefore, From The Beginning, I Communicated Many Forms Of Useful Wisdom That Would Help those who Were Not Yet Ready To Commune or Meditate In The Hearts Fullness.

From The Beginning Of My Teaching Work, I Taught The Great Heart-Way Of self-Understanding and self-Transcendence. Therefore, For The Sake Of those who Are Able To Grow Especially By The Exercise Of Feeling and Insight, I Taught The Way Of The Heart As The Devotional Way Of Insight, Which Way Becomes Most Fundamental self-Understanding and The Great Capability For self-Transcendence.

From The Beginning Of My Teaching Work, I Taught The Great Heart-Way Of self-Understanding and self-Transcendence. Therefore, For The Sake Of those who Are Able To Grow Especially By The Exercise Of Feeling and Faith, I Taught The Way Of The Heart As The Devotional Way Of Divine Communion, Which Is Also The Devotional Way Of Faith, and Which Way Becomes Most Fundamental self-Understanding and The Great Capability For self-Transcendence.

Therefore, From The Beginning Of My Teaching Work, and By Every Kind Of Effective Means, I Taught and Revealed The Two Devotional Ways, or These Two Forms Of The One Great Way Of The Heart, Which Is The Great Heart-Way Of self-Understanding and self-Transcendence, Which Begins In Satsang With Me, and Which Begins With Right Devotional Feeling -Contemplation Of My Heart-Purifying, Heart-Inspiring, Heart-Instructing, and Heart-Awakening Revelation-Sign, and Which Begins With Right Devotional “Consideration” Of My Ever-Speaking Word, My Teaching Leelas, and Even All The Leelas Of My Work Of Revelation and Blessing, and Which Becomes Fully Spiritual, Transcendental, and Divine Practice In Satsang, or Heart-Communion, With The Divine Person In My Always Present Company, and Via My Perfect Heart-Transmission.

In The Total Course Of My Teaching Work, I Thoroughly Taught and Fully Revealed The One Great Way Of The Heart In These Two Devotional Ways. Therefore, and In The Form Of These Two Devotional Ways, I Thoroughly Taught and Fully Revealed Every Kind Of Means That Leads Toward and To The “Perfect Practice”.

In The Way Of The Heart, Each Of These Two Devotional Ways Culminates In The Ultimate Process and Practice. Each Of These Two Devotional Ways Builds Upon, Expresses, and, Ultimately, Realizes The Native Condition Of Divine Ignorance, or “Radical” Intuition Of The Transcendental Divine Self-Condition, Who Is The Inherent or Native Feeling Of Being. Therefore, These Two Devotional Ways, Their Associated Means, The “Perfect Practice” To Which All Of That Leads, and The Completion Of All Of That In The Ultimate, Native, and Inherently Perfect Realization Of Divine Ignorance Will Forever Remain The Basic Features Of The Great and Truly Single Way Of The Heart.

Formally Acknowledged Student-Beginners In The Way Of The Heart Study The Devotional Way Of Insight, and they Also Study The Devotional Way Of Faith. Student-Beginners Are Also Called To Practice The Original Basics Of Both Devotional Forms Of The Way Of The Heart, Until they Choose One or The Other Of These Two Great Devotional Forms Of The Way Of The Heart, As A Beginners Course, and As A Prerequisite Either For The Transition To Practicing Stage One Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart, Or For The Transition To The “Simpler”, but, Nonetheless, Potentially Full and Complete, Practice Of The “Lay Congregationist” Form Of The Way Of The Heart.

In The Way Of The Heart, The Devotional Way Of Insight Involves The Conscious Process Of Random self-Enquiry In The Form “Avoiding Relationship?” This Gradually Becomes The Process Of Non-verbal Re-Cognition Of the self-Contraction, or Tacit Transcendence Of The Habit Of “Narcissus”.

In The Way Of The Heart, The Practice Of self-Enquiry Is First Developed As A Formal and Rudimentary Activity, Whereby the conditional self, and, Thus, the entire body-mind, Is Simply Observed and “Considered”, and Felt Beyond. This Original Practice Of self-Enquiry Is Based On Simplest Listening, or The Beginners Devotional Feeling-Contemplation Of My Own Sign, and Also The Beginners Devotional “Consideration” Of My Full-Given Word and Storied Leelas, and Also The Beginners Devotional “Consideration” and Application Of The Basic functional, practical, relational, and Cultural Disciplines Given By Me To All Practitioners Of The Way Of The Heart. And This Original Practice Of self-Enquiry Is Experimentally Engaged, Along With The Similarly Experimental, and Formal, and Rudimentary Pondering Of My Arguments Relative To Divine Ignorance, During The Student-Beginner Stage Of The Way Of The Heart.

If, On The Basis Of That Student-Beginner Experiment, The Devotional Way Of Insight Is Chosen For Further Development, The Practice Of self-Enquiry Continues To Develop During The First Practicing Stage Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart. The Transition To The First Practicing Stage Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart Is Itself Made Only After Either The Beginners Devotional Way Of Insight Or The Beginners Devotional Way Of Faith Is Chosen, and Only Once All My Original Gifts, Callings, and Disciplines, Including All The By Me Given Basic functional, practical, relational, and Cultural Disciplines, and The Primary Gift, Calling, and Discipline Of Ishta-Guru-Bhakti Yoga, Are Thoroughly Established, and Consistently So Demonstrated, In Practice. And, If The Beginners Devotional Way Of Insight Is Practiced During The First Practicing Stage Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart, self-Enquiry Itself Progressively Becomes The Primary Technical Feature Of A Really self-Transcending Way Of Life, Based, Eventually, On True Hearing, or Most Fundamental self-Understanding. Likewise, The Practice Of self-Enquiry Is Continued Beyond The First Practicing Stage Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart, By all those who Find The Practice Of self-Enquiry To Be Especially Attractive and Effective In their own case.

In The Way Of The Heart, The Devotional Way Of Faith Is, From Its Beginning, Based Upon The Heart-Response To Me. Therefore, It Is, Primarily, A Practice That Involves The Devotional Exercise Of Faith, Rather Than The Devotional Exercise Of Insight. However, The Devotional Way Of Faith Is Not An Exercise Of childish emotionalism, or An Exercise Of “gleeful” and ego-Consoling idealism, or An Exercise Of any other kind of dependency, want, or enthusiasm that Neither Requires True self-Surrender Nor Expresses Truly self-Forgetting Feeling and Faith. Neither Is The Devotional Way Of Insight A Rather adolescent and Non-Feeling Exercise Of mere intellect and The Motive Of egoically “self-Possessed” Independence, Rather, In The Way Of The Heart, Both The Devotional Way Of Insight and The Devotional Way Of Faith Are Well Founded In Right and True and Truly Faith-Filled Feeling-Responsiveness, and The Total Devotional Way Of Faith, just As Well As The Total Devotional Way Of Insight, Is A Responsible Practice Directly and Fully Associated With The Process Of self-Observation, Most Fundamental self-Understanding, and self-Transcendence.

In The Case Of those Practitioners Of The Way Of The Heart who Are Practicing The Devotional Way Of Faith, and who Are Extending their Practice Of The Devotional Way Of Faith Beyond The “Simple” Practice Of Random Invocation Of Me Via My Principal Name, The Beginners Practice Of The Devotional Way Of Faith Involves The Conscious Process Of Sat-Guru-Naama Japa. The True Practice and Conscious Process Of Sat-Guru-Naama Japa Requires The Random and Progressively Meditative Feeling-Exercise Of Faith In My Sign, My Realization, and My Helping-Power. And This Feeling-Exercise Of Sat-Guru-Naama Japa Is Associated With Devotional Recitation Of The Sat-Guru-Naama Mantra.

I Have Revealed and Given Two Variant Forms Of The Sat-Guru-Naama Mantra For The Use Of My Devotees In The Practice Of Sat-Guru-Naama Japa.

The Two Variant Forms Of The Sat-Guru-Naama Mantra Revealed and Given By Me Are “Om Sri Da Avabhasa Hridayam” and “Om Sri Da Love-Ananda Hridayam”.

The Proper Pronunciations Of The Two Variant Forms Of The By Me Revealed and By Me Given Sat-Guru-Naama Mantra Are To Be Demonstrated, and All Their Parts Are To Be Explained, In Sacred Formal Initiation Ceremonies, Based Upon My Elaboration Of The Significance Of All These Names or Word-Signs In The Various Moments Of This Testament Of Secrets. And My Any Devotee Practicing Sat-Guru-Naama Japa May Select Either One Or The Other Of The Two By Me Revealed and By Me Given Variant Forms Of The Sat-Guru-Naama Mantra, and Use It Exclusively-or My Any Devotee Practicing Sat-Guru-Naama Japa May Randomly Alternate The Two By Me Revealed and By Me Given Variant Forms Of The Sat-Guru-Naama Mantra.

In The Way Of The Heart, The Devotional Way Of Faith Is To Be Associated With All The Same Basic Forms Of Study and “Consideration”, and With The Same Practice Of Feeling-Contemplation, and with The Same Forms Of self-Discipline That Are Associated With The Devotional Way Of Insight. And Even Though, In The Way Of The Heart, The Devotional Way Of Faith and The Devotional Way Of Insight Are Each Developed Via A Different Primary Technical Exercise, Both Involve The Development Of The Same Basic Process Of self-Observation, self-Understanding, and self-Transcendence.

In The Way Of The Heart, The Practice Of Sat-Guru-Naama Japa Is First Developed As A Formal and Rudimentary Activity, Whereby the conditional self, and, Thus, the entire body-mind, Is Simply and Directly Observed and Directly Felt Beyond In Faithful and Responsive Feeling-Contemplation Of My Bodily Form, and With The Constant Exercise Of Feeling-Confidence In My Constant Helping-Power. And This Original Practice, Based On Simplest Listening, Is Experimentally Engaged During The Student-Beginner Stage Of The Way Of The Heart.

If, On The Basis Of That Student-Beginner Experiment, The Devotional Way Of Faith Is Chosen For Further Development In The Context Of Either The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Practice Of The Way Of The Heart Or The Technically “Simpler” Version Of “Lay Congregationist” Practice Of The Way Of The Heart, The Practice Of Sat-Guru-Naama Japa Continues To Develop During The First Practicing Stage Of The Way Of The Heart, Once All My Original Gifts, and Callings, and Disciplines, Including All The By Me Given and Called For Basic functional, practical, relational, and Cultural Disciplines, and The Primary Gift, Calling, and Discipline Of Ishta-Guru-Bhakti Yoga, Are Thoroughly Established, and Consistently So Demonstrated, In Practice. And, If The Beginners Devotional Way Of Faith Is Practiced During The First Practicing Stage Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart, Sat-Guru-Naama Japa Itself Becomes The Primary Technical Feature Of A Really self-Transcending Way Of Life, Based, Eventually, On True Hearing, or Most Fundamental self-Understanding. Likewise, The Devotional Way Of Faith Is Also To Be Continued Beyond The First Practicing Stage Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart By all who Began To Practice The Way Of The Heart By Embracing The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Devotional Way Of Faith. And The Devotional Way Of Faith Is Also To Be Continued Beyond The Hearing Stage Of “Lay Congregationist” Practice Of The Way Of The Heart By all who Began To Practice The Way Of The Heart By Embracing The Technically “Simpler” Devotional Way Of Faith.

The Second and The Third Practicing Stages, The Fourth and The Fifth Practicing Stages, and The Sixth and The Seventh Practicing Stages Of The Technically “Fully Elaborated” Form Of The Way Of The Heart Are Reserved For those who Are Capable To Practice The Seeing Devotees Way Of Fullest Heart-Communion With Me. And Such Spiritually Active Participation In My Satsang and Inherently Perfect Heart-Company Is The Great Principle Of The Fully Established Way Of The Heart.

Student-Beginners In The Way Of The Heart, Beginning “Lay Congregationist” Practitioners Of The Way Of The Heart, and Beginning “Lay Renunciate” Practitioners Of The Way Of The Heart Engage In Study and Beginners Practice As A personal Discipline In Satsang With Me, and Always In Preparation For Entrance Into The Seeing-Devotee Culture Of Spiritually Active Satsang with Me. Such Student-Beginners, Beginning “Lay Congregationists”, and Beginning “Lay Renunciates” Gratefully, and In A Progressively Developing Devotional Manner, Acknowledge Me As their Adept Heart-Teacher and Resort To Me As their True Heart-Master, Ever-Present Via My Own Given and Revealing Sign, and Ever-Active In The Form Of My Full-Given Word and All The Storied Leelas Of My Always Heart-Revealing Work. They Always “Consider” My Word and My Leelas, and they Always Contemplate My Sign. Therefore, their Practices and their Occasions Must Necessarily Be Described As Participation In Satsang With Me. And The Practice Of My Student-Beginner Devotees, My Beginning “Lay Congregationist” Devotees, and My Beginning “Lay Renunciate” Devotees, As Well As That Of All My Seeing Devotees, Is A Matter Of their own Responsibility and Struggle with their own conditional self. Therefore, In The Way Of The Heart, The Original Practice For all Is Simply To “Consider” My Heart-Revealing Word and All My Heart-Revealing Leelas, and Constantly To Contemplate My Heart-Revealing Sign, and To Directly Observe, and To Understand, and To Transcend the conditional self, Until The Way Of self-Transcendence Is Fully Revealed To The Heart and Embraced From The Heart.

The “Consideration” and Revelation Of The self-Transcending Way Of The Heart Developed Over The Many Teaching Years On The Basis Of My Response To The Needs and limitations and Heart-Necessities Of those who Were Moved By My Heart-Given Word and By The Spiritual Presence, Transcendental Condition, and Divine Person Always Spontaneously Revealed In, By, and As My Even Bodily Heart-Company. And The Real Course and Ordeal Of self-Transcending Practice Must Not Be Bypassed In The Way Of The Heart, Even Though the ego Would Prefer To Do So.

Anyone who Fully “Considers” The Great Process Demonstrated In My Own Case Must Thereby Observe That Real and Ultimate Fulfillment Of self-Transcending Practice Involves A Profound Ordeal That Encompasses Each and All Of The Stages Of Life, and No Such Effort Is Likely To Fulfill Itself Without Full Teaching and Right Guidance, The Discipline Of A True and Complete Culture Of Life, and Access To A Potent Source Of Unrelenting Grace.

The Way Of Transcendental Divine Enlightenment Has Been Revealed In The Form Of My Own Ordeal Of Life, Practice, and Divine Realization. However, My Own Ordeal Is Unique. It Is The Ordeal Of One Born To Teach and Awaken others. Therefore, The Way Of The Heart, Which Is Based On The “Consideration” Of The Means and The Stages Necessary For others, Is Summarized In This Testament.

Every one Begins The “Consideration” and Practice Of The Way Of The Heart Without Immediate Resort To The More Complex Practices Of Spiritually Responsible Devotion To Me, but That Earliest “Consideration” and Practice Should Make Appropriate Use Of My Person. Just As The Ordeal Of My Own Practice, Even Of self-Enquiry, Was Founded On Devotional Submission Of My Own Apparent self To My Own Teachers and Spiritual Sources, Just So, any one who Seriously Responds To Me Via My Full-Given Word and My Storied Leelas Will Also Realize The Graceful Necessity To Embrace The Way Of The Heart As Just Such An Ordeal Of self-Transcending Devotion. By My Own Example, I Have Already Revealed The Form Of That Ordeal Of self-Transcending Devotion, and I Am Summarizing That Revelation In The Words Of This Testament.

In My Own Case, The Conscious Process Of self-Understanding, Persistent self-Enquiry, and The Effective Practice Of Feeling-Transcendence Of self-Contraction, Also Accompanied By All Of The Technical psycho-physical Evidence Of Conductivity Of The Spirit-Current, Gradually Characterized My Own Practice Of Great Heart-Surrender. The Entire Process Was Originally Generated On The Basis Of A Unique Insight Into The Core-Dilemma I Felt In The Midst Of ordinary life. That Liberating Insight Became More and More Effective Over time Via Numerous Incidents Of Sudden Extraordinary Re-Awakening, but, Even From Its Own First Moment Of Re-Awakening, That Insight Itself Directly Transcended The Motive To Seek An “Answer” To The Presumed “Question” Of egoic or self-Contracted Existence, or A “Solution”, In The Form Of Acquired experience or knowledge, To The Presumed “Problem” Of life.

I Spontaneously, but Gradually, Developed The Total Process Of The Understanding Of the ego, The Practice Of self-Enquiry, and The Total Process Of Ultimate Awakening During The Many Years Of My Own Ordeal Of Re-Awakening. The Consistent Formal Practice Of self-Enquiry and Non-verbal Re-Cognition Did Not Formally Characterize My Meditation Until The Last Year Of My Ordeal Of Realization. Even So, All Of My Years Of Practice Were Founded On The Same Basic Insight, and Those Years Were Punctuated By Sudden Great Moments Of Awakening and Sudden Great Leaps Of Understanding.

One Such Incident Of Heart-Awakening Occurred Quite Gently, In a moment In which I Was mindlessly Regarding My Right Hand, Observing The Contrast Between The Natural or Open and Functionally Relational Attitude Of The Hand and The Unnatural or Contracted and Functionally Dissociated Attitude Of The Clenched Fist.

The Natural Sign Of the human body Is Relatedness, Not Separation and Independence!

Therefore, When This Sign Convicted The Heart, The subjective Commitment To self-Contraction Was Spontaneously Released. In that moment There Was A Quiet Revolution In the body-mind. I Knew The “Always Already” State. And This Began A Period Of Pondering, Which Eventually Became Random self-Enquiry. And Random self-Enquiry Eventually Became Formal self-Enquiry In Meditation. And, In Meditation, Formal self-Enquiry Became Formal, and Spontaneous, and Non-verbal Re-Cognition Of self-Contraction. And, In Due Course, The Process Of self-Enquiry and Re-Cognition, and, Thereby, The Feeling-Transcendence Of self-Contraction, Became Constant, In Meditation, and In daily life, Until, When The Efforts and The Effects Of The Avoidance Of Relationship Were Transcended, There Is The Tacit Certainty and Self-Illumined Awakeness Of “I Am Consciousness”.

My Earliest and Most Basic Practice Was An Example Of What Is Traditionally Called “prapatti”, or Simple, Direct, Non-Technical, and Unconditional Surrender To Whatever Is Always Already The Case. It Was Not A Practice informed by any conventional religious philosophy, or by any traditional Spiritual philosophy, or by any inherited God-concepts. All That Was Possible For Me Was The Real Practice Of Divine Ignorance, or Spontaneous Submission To The Unknown and Unknowable Condition In Which the conditional self and the conditional world Are arising in every moment.

I Soon Enjoyed A Profoundly Essential Insight Into The Felt Dilemma and The Urge To Seek That Characterize the born self. It Became Clear To Me That The Feeling Of Dilemma and The Urge To Seek God, Happiness, Fulfillment, or Release Via The Acquisition Of experience, knowledge, or any condition or conditional object at all Are Not In Fact The Means For The Realization Of Truth Itself. I Understood That The Problem-Feeling and The Urge To Seek Are Not A Program For The Actual Discovery Of Truth, but They Are Merely Symptoms Of A Curious Disease. I Observed That These Symptoms, Which Tend To Characterize every moment Of ordinary Existence, Are In Fact The Evidence Of the very state that Must Be Transcended If The Truth Itself Is To Be Realized. It Was Clear To Me That The Feeling Of Dilemma and The Seeking-Urge Are Nothing More Than A Confession That God, Truth, or Happiness Is Not presently experienced or known. And This Seemed Remarkable To Me.

If God, Truth, or Happiness Is Sought On The Basis Of A Problem, Then God, Truth, or Happiness Is Always Projected Into future time, and The Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness Is Made conditional, or Dependent Upon psycho-physical events. This Stood Out To Me As Nonsense, or As An Absurd Proposition.

My Own “Consideration” Was This: God, Truth, or Happiness Must Necessarily Be That Which Is Always Already The Case. Therefore, I Observed That The Felt Dilemma and The Urge To Seek Are Simply The Absurd Confession That God, Truth, or Happiness Is Absent Now. And I Observed Further That The Signs Of Dilemma and Seeking Are Not A Program For The Actual Future Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness, but They Are Merely A Means For Preventing Present Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness. The Feeling Of Dilemma and The Urge To Seek Are Actually The Evidence Of A Disease, Which Is the conditional self In its Chronic Contraction Upon itself, and In its Symptomatic Non-Realization Of God, Truth, or Happiness.

Indeed, It Became Clear To Me That the “ego” Is Not an “entity”, but the “ego” Is The Chronic and Total psycho-physical Activity Of self-Contraction, Always Associated With Concrete Results. And the self-Contraction Can Always Be Located In Feeling.

The self-Contraction Is the Complex limit on Natural bodily energy In The Circle Of the body-mind. Therefore, the self-Contraction Is a Complex limit On The Inherent and Self-Existing Spiritual Radiance Of Transcendental Being. And Freedom, or Inherent Happiness, or God-Realization Is A Matter Of Direct and Inherently Perfect Identification With The Self-Existing and Self-Radiant Condition Of Transcendental Divine Being, Which Identification Is Allowed Only By Present or Progressive Transcendence Of The ego-Act Of self-Contraction.

The self-Contraction Is Un-Necessary. The self-Contraction Is Being “Added” To Existence Itself. The self-Contraction Coincides With and Perpetuates The Apparition Of Cosmic Nature Itself, and The Presumption That Existence Itself Is conditional, or Merely Apparent. Therefore, the self-Contraction Is Un-Natural, Because it Superimposes On The Transcendental, and Inherently Spiritual, Self A False View Of Both Cosmic Nature and The Divine.

When what Is Un-Necessarily Superimposed On Reality Is Released, What Stands As The Obvious Is, Necessarily, Reality, or The Real Condition Itself.

That Is To Say, Whatever Is Always Already The Case Authenticates Itself.

Therefore, self-Transcendence Necessarily Reveals The Transcendental, and Inherently Spiritual, Self-Condition As The Self-Authenticating and Most Prior Reality and Truth!

This Heart-Awakened Insight Was Instantly Liberating, and It Became The Basis For A Progressive Revelation Of God. The Insight Itself Directly Coincided With A Practice That Was Thereafter To Be The Most Basic Characteristic Of The Way Of My Life. That Practice Had Two Primary Aspects. The First Was Profound Submission Of attention and all the energies of the body-mind To Observe, Feel, and Feel Beyond the self-Contraction. And The Second, Which Coincided With The First and Ultimately Superseded It, Was Direct Communion and Inherent Identification With The Native Condition That Is Simply and Directly Obvious When the self-Contraction Is Transcended.

I Observed That The Sense Of “Absence”, or The Sense Of The Non-Presence Of God, or The Sense Of Separation From God, Truth, Happiness, or What Cannot Even Be Described, Is Not Evidence Of The Real Absence Of God, Truth, Happiness, or The Indescribable, but It Is Clear Evidence That the conditional self Is Contracting, or Actively Separating From What Is .

I Named This Disease “Narcissus”, Because Of The Likeness Between This self-Program and The Ancient Myth Of Narcissus. And I Became Attentive In every moment To This Feeling Of Absence, Of Separateness, Of Dilemma, and The Urge To Seek.

Remarkably, In every moment Of Such Observation, I Felt The Non-Necessity As Well As The Deluding or Binding Effect Of the self-Contraction, So That A Spontaneous Release Occurred In every Such moment. That Is To Say, I Observed That It Was Un-Necessary To Presume or Suffer or Be Motivated By the self-Contraction In any moment Of My Direct Observation Of it. And, In That Observation, A Deep Spontaneous Response Of self-Release Was Awakened. And Whenever That Release Of self-Contraction Occurred, That Which Is Always Already The Case Stood Out As The Obvious.

Over time, What Is Was Revealed More and More Profoundly. And As That Revelation Increased, There Was Also The Spontaneous and Otherwise Progressive Unfolding Of The Many Extraordinary Phenomena That Are Characteristic Of Each Of The Seven Stages Of Life.

The Process Of That Revelation By Stages Was Not Developed Only On The Basis Of Insight and Spontaneous self-Transcendence, or What I Call The “Conscious Process”, but It Was Equally Associated With A Developing Response To What Was Being Revealed. Thus, It Also Involved What I Call “Seeing” and What I Call “Divine Ignorance”.

What Is Is Revealed Only When the self-Contraction Is Not Effective. It Is Revealed To Be Self-Radiant and Transcendental Being, God, Truth, or Happiness. Any and every conditionally Manifested “I” Always Already Inheres In That One, Both At The Level Of Being, or Consciousness Itself, and At The Level Of every Apparent or conditionally Manifested psycho-physical function, process, or state. Even the body-mind Is Only An Apparent Modification Of That Divine Self-Radiance In Which “I” Am .

When This Realization Was Perfectly Re-Awakened In My Own Case, all beings, this world, and all kinds of other worlds Were Revealed In That Same One, Inhering In That Same One, and Appearing As Modifications Of That Same One.

Then The Significance Of My Own Birth and Life-Work Became Clear: I Am Only That One. If Only they Will Realize It, Even all beings Are Only That Same One.

When This Truth Became Obvious, The Self-Transmitting Powers Of The Transcendental, Inherently Spiritual, and Necessarily Divine Reality Spontaneously Became Active In and As My Form And I Became Moved To Serve and To Awaken The Total Cosmic Mandala Of conditionally Manifested beings.

In The Later Period Of My Own Ordeal Of Spiritual, Transcendental, and Divine Self-Realization, The Basic Insight That Already Informed My Practice Began To Express Itself Spontaneously and Randomly Via self-Enquiry, and That Practice Was Itself A Sign Of The Great Capability That Must Awaken To Characterize The Practice Of anyone who Will Realize The Living and Transcendental Divine Truth. That Great and Most Fundamental Capability, Which Leads To Divine Self-Realization, Develops From The Original and Spontaneous Urge To Observe and Transcend the self-Contraction. And That Great and Most Fundamental Capability Expresses The Clear Understanding That the self-Contraction Is The Only Reason Why God-Communion Is Not Enjoyed In the present. This Heart-Awakened Insight and The Great Capability For Spontaneous Release That Extends From It Were The Ground Of My Free Surrender, and My Surrender Was Not Encumbered or Retarded By Dilemma or The Search Toward Any Goal.

I Was Not Projected Toward the future, but What Is Always Already The Case Was Revealed In every moment. Even So, The Process Of Ecstatic Communion and Inherent Identification With That Which Is Revealed In every moment Of self-Transcendence Developed, Spontaneously and Inevitably, As A Progressive Unfolding Of The Characteristic Signs Of Each Of The Seven Stages Of Life.


original Chapter 3 (with parentheses)

read without parentheticals and capitalization

(also see why Adi Da ‘writes’ in the style he does)


 

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