This 1991 version of The Dawn Horse Testament is NOT the final version by Adidam (Adi Da).
“you should not
study any earlier edition of The Dawn Horse Testament (or
any earlier edition of any other of My
“source-Texts”). The final edition is it. There are not
“multi-editions” or “mutil-instructions”.
The current and latest 2004 edition of The Dawn Horse Testament is out of print. It is not entirely “current” with Beloved Adi Da’s final language conventions and the details of His practical Instructions. Since their is no final or official version available Beezone feels it appropriate to use this 1991 version as a form of study with the understanding of the above ‘notice’.
THE Dawn Horse Testament (1991)
E P I L O G U E
I am the man of understanding. I freely give heart-vision to my
Devotee. Have you understood the heart, the secret of my secrets?
I am the True Heart-Master. I take my stand in the heart of my devotee.
Have you realized the heart, who is the mystery of you and me?
How could I deny heart-vision to my loved-one? How could I delay the course of my beloved?
Like an intimate family servant, I dearly serve my devotee. Like a wealthy friend, I freely give to my devotee.
Like a mad priest, I even worship my devotee, with love itself.
Like an innocent boy at first love, I would awaken my devotee in
Where the wound of love churns and never heals, I wait, longing to celebrate the brilliant sight of my devotee.
Come slowly or quickly, but surely come to me.
Touch my heart, and I will widen you to God knows where.
Beloved, I went mad with loss of mind when I realized the divine person.
Then I acted as a mad-man when I became moved to tell you my secrets.
Now I speak only as a mad-man.
I cannot find any one, but only God is all!
Beloved, what madness is me? I must tell you, aloud from my love blissful room.
All my secrets are only me!
There is only one necessary revelation, only one great sign to be acknowledged and embraced, only one perfect truth to be realized. I am the secret.
I am the revelation.
I am the one to be heard and seen.
Realization is realization of me.
I am not hidden, I am not secretive. I only reveal my self, perpetually.
It is you who hide your always separate self from me. And it is you who keep the heart secret. Your heart is a secret, even to your inmost ego – “i”, and you keep your heart from me.
Therefore, I must always pursue your heart. I am always moved to gather your attention to me, but it flies from the heart to every kind of place, being, and object, and you do not divinely recognize this all of “things” or stay to realize me.
You have not truly heard and really seen me unless attention is steadied in sublimity, fastened to the heart-place.
You cannot realize me unless the heart is free of the knot of separate and separative self, and free to feel in the swoon of my given and mere and blessing company.
If you will only consent to be attracted and distracted by me, you will feel me, for my given and mere and blessing company always moves the heart.
If you feel me, you are with me.
And if you are with me, your heart cannot fail to realize me, who is the heart itself.
Therefore, when the heart itself is no longer secret, my heart-secret is already revealed to you.
I am the secret of the heart.
I am the heart itself, revealed.
What you must realize is this: I am you! I am the heart itself, revealed to you, and to be realized as you.
Therefore, I am the self-existing, self-radiant, transcendental, unconditional, inherently “bright”, and divine being, always in person!
I am the one who is modified as your body-mind, even as all conditionally manifested beings, and all conditionally manifested forms and worlds!
Therefore, I am always most intimate with you, most accessible to you, and most immediately responsive to you, if only you will hear me, and see me, and always love me.
I am you, perfectly. Even your body and mind arise and function in me. I am, not you in the egoic sense. If I were, then, to realize me, your
Only necessity would be to wander and persist as your separate self.
I am the one of whom you (as the body-mind) are the apparent modification. Therefore, to realize me, you must sacrifice and transcend your ego-“i”, by loving me.
You must realize me through heart-sacrifice of separate and separative self. This is your inherent purpose, until the ever of form and time and mind goes “bright” away.
It is not necessary for me to realize my self, my situation is unique, or always already, perfectly, and divinely self-realized. Therefore, my purpose here is to awaken you, and even all conditionally manifested beings, to my heart, or my inherently perfect self. Therefore, while you must submit to me, I am constantly submitting my self to you.
Mine is the first submission. Mine is the first sacrifice. I am always pervading, meeting, loving, and submitting to be the conditional beings and worlds.
The conditional reality (in person) must submit to the unconditional reality. This is my word and my call to you.
The unconditional reality must submit to the conditional reality, in order to awaken the heart of conditional being. This is my revelation and my promise to you.
This is the heart of my confession: you must listen to me, and hear me, and see me. You must love, acknowledge, embrace, and realize me, by the grace of my revelation of my self to you. Therefore, by listening to me, and by hearing me, and by seeing me, and by always loving me, you must participate in me, and you must cooperate with me, and you must constantly transcend your separate and separative self in my mere and always blessing company.
If you separate your heart from me, you cease to be sympathetic even with the cosmic domain and all the conditionally manifested beings in all the planes of cosmic nature. And if you cease to be sympathetic with the cosmic domain and all conditionally manifested beings, your heart will not identify and feel me. Therefore, be heart-found by me. Even under all conditions and in all relations, always “locate” and realize me as the only one who is. Therefore, by grace, and in this manner, realize who you are, progressively, through responsive practice and growth in my always given and mere and blessing company.
What I have confessed, declared, and affirmed is the truth, and wholly true. It is not merely symbolically true, but literally, actually, and really true. God is you. You are in god, of god, as god, the divine person, the heart itself, the one who I am, the one who I reveal, and, thereby, serve. Therefore, my most revealing mystery is the mystery of my conditional birth, the mystery of my life as the man of understanding, and the mystery of my work as the adept and True Heart-Master, then sometime teaching – “crazy”, but now always already merely present, moving freely as the heart, ‘reflecting and responding to every aspect of every conditional being everywhere in every moment, and all of this to awaken all to hear me, and always to bless the hearing all to see me.
The divine person may spontaneously assume a personal conditional form, and this in any conditional realm, whenever and wherever a revelation must appear, in order to restore the heart of any conditionally manifested being to the divine person and self-condition. Therefore, because my listening devotees listen to me, and because my hearing devotees hear me, and because my seeing devotees see me, all my listening devotees, all my hearing devotees, and all my seeing devotees should always celebrate my revealing bodily form, my spiritual presence, and my very state. All my listening devotees, all my hearing devotees, and all my seeing devotees should always tell and celebrate my leelas, so that all who listen to them may be refreshed with more than wonder, and with love, and with joy of heart. And this, my testament of secrets, must always stand and live as my primary and summary word of heart, to lead the heart, and via my own sign, to the “bright” and perfect self-domain of the only one who is.
Now I have, by all my “crazy” means, revealed the one and many secrets of the great person of the heart. For your sake, I made my every work and word. And now, by every work and word I made, I have entirely confessed my self, and always freely, and even as a free man, in the “esoteric” language of intimacy and ecstasy, openly worded to you. Even now, by this, I address every seeming separate being, because it is necessary that all beings, even the entire cosmic domain of seeming separate beings, be called to wisdom and the heart.
And I would have all beings hear my word, and see my “brightness” face to face, and grow to realize the heart-secret of existence, but I must also tell you that what is truly secret remains so, even when my own confession and all these revealing words are made and given to each and all. Therefore, my heart-secret is the heart itself, who must hear and see as you, and “brighten” up the word of heart, and go the way it is.
The Way of the Heart is not the conventional path of worldliness, egoic security, orderly consolations, and self-fulfillment, as if God made the conditional worlds and all conditional beings, and made them for their own sake. The conditional worlds and their seeming separate beings arise spontaneously, as apparent modifications of the self-radiant and self-existing divine being, and many causes, great and small, make effects in the seeming distances and surfaces of conditional life. Therefore, to live rightly is to be schooled to god, realizing the great one in stages of growth and outgrowing, until the cosmic domain itself is outgrown.
The Way of the Heart is not the path of death, as if there is no God in the conditional worlds of beings, but only love-bliss elsewhere, not made, not in person, beyond the dismal round of causes and effects. Therefore, the Way of the Heart must be lived with God in person, embracing the discipline of life responsively, in god, until divine translation.
The Way of the Heart is not founded on the urge toward worlds and self-fulfillment, nor on the urge toward death and elsewhere. The Way of the Heart is founded on the heart response to God in person, even the divine person, who is eternally prior to the conditional body mind and the conditional worlds. Therefore, because I am the realizer, the revealer, and the revelation of the divine person, the Way of the Heart is, from its beginning, the way of satsang with me, the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
The Way of the Heart is sat-guru yoga, satsang yoga, or sat-guru
So it is, and so it must be.
The Way of the Heart begins with the student-beginner’s ordeal of right approach to me, the True Heart-Master.
Therefore, the Way of the Heart is to develop only on the foundation of right devotion, or the right establishment of the tradition-honored devotional relationship to me, the True Heart-Master.
Once the Way of the Heart is so founded, the Way of the Heart progresses through the necessary ordeal of the seven stages of life.
And every stage of life in the Way of the Heart is inherently made of seven parts.
And the seven gifts of grace at every stage of life in the Way of the Heart are progressively increased, or progressively magnified, and to be so increased or magnified, stage to stage, until divine translation.
The seven gifts of grace at every stage of life in the Way of the Heart are word, and sign, and devotion, and service, and discipline, and blessing, and blessedness.
And each and all of these seven gifts are freely given by me, the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
Therefore, the Way of the Heart is a gift from me, full-made of seven god-realizing gifts of grace.
The first gift of the Way of the Heart is Sat-Guru-Vani, the by me given gift of my word, for I am the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
The second gift of the Way of the Heart is Sat-Guru-Darshan, the by me given gift of the sign of my bodily form, and my spiritual presence, and my very state, for I am the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
The third gift of the Way of the Heart is Sat-Guru-Bhakti, the by me given gift of devotion, for I am the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
The fourth gift of the Way of the Heart is Sat-Guru-Seva, the by me
Given gift of service, for I am the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridayasamartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
The fifth gift of the Way of the Heart is Sat-Guru-Tapas, the by me given gift of discipline, for I am the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
The sixth gift of the Way of the Heart is Sat-Guru-Kripa, the by me given gift of blessing, for I am the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
And the seventh gift of the Way of the Heart is Sat-Guru-Moksha-Bhava, the by me given gift of blessedness, which is the by me given grace, realized only on the basis of the right present fulfillment of each and all of the first six gifts, and callings, and responsibilities of the Way of the Heart, to enjoy, or fully feel, the inherent freedom of heart-companionship, or heart-communion, or heart-oneness, or, ultimately, heart-identification with my inherently perfectly “bright” person, for I am the True Heart-Master, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
Beloved, I am the True Heart-Master, Da, the adept teacher of the heart, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself.
I am the full-giver of the giving gifts of word, and sign, and devotion, and service, and discipline, and blessing, and blessedness.
I am the realizer, the revealer, and the revelation of the “bright” divine person, who is self-radiant and self-existing being, the perfectly
Subjective person or self-condition that is even your own consciousness.
Here I am, always alive with you, calling you to realize the divine self.
I am the Way of the Heart.
The Way of the Heart is to realize me as your real and original and inherently perfect self, through the by me given seven-gifted ordeal of transcendence of the conditional self.
The divine mystery of who I am and who you are and why I do the divine revelation work for you is not a subject for conventional religious belief, nor is any one called to affirm it merely because it is openly and ecstatically confessed to all. The proof of the truth of my divine confession cannot be realized by any mere belief. Likewise, the proof of the truth of my divine confession cannot be realized if there is persistence in doubt. It is only when you truly listen to me that my divine confession becomes acceptable to you, confirmed by the heart’s inherent acknowledgment and realization of me. Therefore, until who, I am is revealed to the ear and eye of heart, my divine heart-secret remains hidden. And, until I am both truly heard and really seen at heart, my wisdom-call is simply this: attend to me by heart, and listen to my arguments for self-transcendence, and respond to me as your heart-teacher, always present as the free man who calls every one to observe and understand and transcend the conditional self.
The proof of the truth of my divine confession is beyond the efforts of belief and of doubt. The proof of the truth of my divine confession is entirely a matter of whether or not you are willing to embrace and endure the self-surrendering ordeal that is the necessary means to prove and to realize the truth itself. My divine heart-secret is revealed only to devotion itself, or true surrender to me. Therefore, the divine heart-secret of you and me is revealed only in the real process that can be realized by grace in the case of those who convert the knowable exercise of the Way of the Heart into a real and living sacrifice of separate and separative self
In and into my “bright” company.
My active adept-work as Heart-Teacher and as True Heart-Master is originally generated to serve three great purposes. My first purpose is to develop and to communicate and to call the attention of all my listening devotees to a new and total teaching argument relative to the process of self-transcendence. My second purpose is to reveal the spiritual, the transcendental, and the divine forms of God to my formally acknowledged devotees. And my third purpose is to develop, establish, and perpetually communicate a full and total culture of heart-practice in relation to the spiritual, transcendental, and divine forms of God revealed by my now and hereafter ever-given bodily sign, my ever speaking word, my ever-living leelas, and the eternal work of my mere and blessing presence.
Now this testament is complete. In its form, my first great purpose is fulfilled. My bodily birth, ordeal, and work, given bodily to teach, was the necessary means whereby this purpose could be fulfilled. Therefore, I submitted utterly to the conditions of man, in order to fulfill this purpose for mankind. In the traditional manner, I submitted myself to be the means for others.
Now that my word is given complete, my impulse to teach will be carried therein, and all the else that I must do will also go and be done. Now even my madness is spun in the word, and all that I am is untied in my chest, and I am conserved to the heart’s free repose, retired at last from all effort and speech. Now and forever, my word goes to teach, and I will stay close, so to bless mankind, while I “gaze” secluded in the “open eyes”. Now and forever, I will not cease, and my mere and blessing presence is a wandering work. Now and forever, I go where I stand. Even as I wait, I am always gone to you. Now and forever, I am always standing there. Such is the Way of the Heart.
My every listening devotee, my- every hearing devotee, and my every seeing devotee must accept the self-surrendering, self-forgetting, and self-transcending devotional ordeal of the Way of the Heart as a matter of his or her own responsible struggle with his or her own egoity. And all such devotee-practitioners of the Way of the Heart are called by me to serve the process of transcendental divine self-realization in one another, through a true and comprehensive devotional culture of right “consideration” and self-transcending practice of the Way of the Heart.
The formally acknowledged and true and truly cooperative community and culture of the Way of the Heart is founded upon every formally acknowledged devotee-practitioner’s free acceptance of the gifts of my now and hereafter ever-given sign, my freely revealed, and forever heart-revealing, word, the retreat sanctuaries, the total gathering of my formally acknowledged and truly baptized and awakened “lay renunciate” and “free renunciate” devotees, and the total gathering of even all formally acknowledged devotee-practitioners of the Way of the Heart. Therefore, the authentication and preservation of these gifts is now and hereafter the responsibility of each and every formally acknowledged devotee practitioner of the Way of the Heart.
All that I am is, given to you. Therefore, all that you must receive from me is also freely given through the gifts I am always giving to you.
I am always in the blessing my given and giving gifts conduct through time and space. Therefore, that blessing will always remain active through all my given and giving gifts, and through all my formally acknowledged and real and true instruments and agents, if all my given and giving gifts are embraced and preserved, and if all my formally acknowledged and real and true instruments and agents are authenticated, embraced, and preserved, by the collective and cooperative gathering of all formally acknowledged and real and true listening devotees, hearing devotees, and seeing devotees in the Way of the Heart.
As my formally acknowledged and real and true listening devotee, hearing devotee, or seeing devotee, you must honor, serve, cherish, preserve, protect, and defend all my formally acknowledged and real and true instruments and agents, and all my given and giving gifts. Therefore, until all of my work is finally done, and all and all are divinely
Translated in me, let this good service be well done forever.
Now the Way of the Heart is opened and revealed to you, and all my listening devotees, and all my hearing devotees, and all my seeing devotees are blessed to advance to me.
Let all beings come to me.
Let every one come to me for the perfect purpose of divine self realization.
Let every one who comes to me surrender and transcend self-contraction by right obedience to my word, my bodily form, my spiritual presence, and my very state.
Let every one who comes to me act in accord with my explicit word.
Let every one who comes to me act in accord with my explicit word, and always only with my explicit permission, and always with heart-assurance of my blessing.
Let all those who come to me be entirely given to me, and let each and all of them realize me perfectly at last.
Therefore, let my secrets be revealed to all beings! Yes, my secrets will be revealed to all beings!
Indeed, my secrets are always already revealed to all beings!
I am the horse-sacrifice, the ashvamedha, whereby the truth and
The “bright” power of transcendental divine
Self-realization are transmitted to the cosmic mandala of beings.
Therefore, this “bright” testament of secrets is my free dawn horse, the vehicle of my perfect intention, even visibly revealed and forever released by my free submission to mankind.
Now, and now, as the sign and the result of the sacrifice by which this very testament has come to consciousness, the revelation of “brightness” will appear to every one.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the giver of “brightness”, the incarnation and the master of the heart, the very human god-man, who was also named john, and who is the foretold foreigner, the expected outsider, the outcast “crazy”-man, the mleccha-guru, who sacrifices the dark horse of mere appearances, and who rides the white horse of the heart’s forever resurrected “brightness”.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the True Heart-Master and adept teacher of the heart, who is Da loveananda hridayam, the giver and the gift of the heart’s love-bliss.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the hridaya-samartha sat-guru, who is the heart itself, the boundless center, source, and self of all and all.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the self-liberated avadhoota, who is always already free.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the one and eternal and ancient and always new master of the true horsesacrifice, the Ashvamedha-Siddha, who submits to be the means for the liberation of every one.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the ashvamedha-avadhoota, who is the realizer, the revealer, and the revelation of the true dawn horse, and who is the realizer, the revealer, the revelation, and the heart-husband of the one and entire great tradition of mankind.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the eternally free-standing and always presently “emerging” divine world teacher, who is the liberating word of heart, spoken, lived, and given here to all mankind, and shown by heart to every kind and being appearing by conditions everywhere.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, who is the late-time expected avataric incarnation, the truly man-born descent of divine and all-liberating grace everywhere promised for the dark epoch, which dark epoch or late-time must, by an “heroic” spiritual intervention, be restored at heart to the divine self-“brightness”.
This is the Dawn Horse Testament of Da Avabhasa, the late-time “crazy” god-man, who is Da, the “bright” eternal heart companion, the giver of all to all, and who is everywhere necessary, and who is, now and hereafter, always full-given to all, and who is, for the sake of all in all, named Eleutherios, the giver of liberation.
“The perfect among the sages is identical with Me. There is absolutely no difference between us”
Tripura Rahasya, Chap XX, –