The Dreaded Gomboo or The Imaginary Disease That Religion Seeks To Cure.
A Collection of Essays and Talks on the “Direct” Process of Enlightenment.
By Da Free John.
Compiled and edited with an introduction and commentary by the Renunciate Hermitage Order.
“The Great Bird That Flies to the Heart” From The Dreaded Gom-Boo
Adi Da Samraj
THE DREADED GOM-BOO
Part III: Spiritual Transmission
The Great Bird That Flies to the Heart
February 3, 1983
MASTER DA: I have a note here to discuss something with you about the matter of conductivity.
You must first of all develop the capacity to receive the Spirit-Force, to inbreathe It, to inhale It, to receive It through the frontal mechanism. Then you may also exhale or release It upward through the central or spinal line of the body-mind. I simply want to emphasize to you the necessity for developing this capacity.
The capacity to receive the Spirit-Force through the frontal line through inhalation is not only a matter of breathing, but it is a matter of learning how to open the mechanisms of the frontal line so that they will not chronically contract. If this capacity is not developed, then the exercise of release of the Spirit-Current or the Life-Force, from the base of the body upward via the spinal line, will weaken and delude you and will be at most only a weak exercise.
The full Circle of conductivity, the Circle of descent and ascent, must be developed by real practice over time. It is one thing for me to describe to you this Circle and its technicalities, but it is another thing for you to develop it as practice. To develop the Circle of conductivity as practice is a profound discipline.
The basic exercise of Rudis teaching was associated with frontal reception. He described it in somewhat limited terms, but nonetheless it was the exercise of receiving the Force, the Living Current of Baptism, via the frontal line of the body and drawing It down to the bodily base. The process is not a matter of some piddling inhalation, nor is it a matter of big, muscular breath, although Rudi often described it as such. It is a matter of learning how to be responsible for the contractions in the frontal line. These contractions of the frontal line are based in mental, emotional, psychological, psychic, and physical reactions to all kinds of relationships and circumstances and conditions. To inbreathe the Living Force frontally, therefore, requires you not merely to contact the Energy and feel It a little bit and breathe It down, but to deal with the mechanism of contraction in the frontal line.
The mechanism in the frontal line is conditioned by the habits of egoity over a lifetime, even over many lifetimes. It is itself a form of self-contraction, and it is therefore not simply available to receive this Baptism or Force. You must understand your impediments to receiving the Spirit-Baptism, found yourself in self-understanding of the mental self-contraction, the emotional self-contraction, the physical self-contraction.
The first form of practice in our Way is to consider the Teaching through study and adaptation to ordinary discipline, including rudimentary prayer, as preparation for Spirit-Baptism. Then the individual practices the Prayer of Remembrance, which involves the full Circle of conductivity, on the basis of the mature capacity to receive the Spirit-Current and conduct It in the full Circle. This capacity requires the profound exercise over time of understanding, dealing with, transcending, and releasing the self-contraction in the frontal or descending line as well as in the ascending line, the spinal line.
You must understand the self-contraction in terms of the mind, in terms of emotion, your psychology, your complexes, your neuroses, your social attitudes, your chronic physical tendencies. The receiving or inbreathing of the Living Current is not merely the simple matter of inhaling while putting attention in the Divine via the Name. It is that also, but the technical exercise must be engaged as real practice over time, based on real self-understanding, real self-observation, and real self-knowing, so that you develop the equipment or the capacity to conduct the Force in the frontal line. This capacity improves over time, and how much you release through exhalation along the spinal line depends on how much you receive via the frontal line.
The Life-Energy is not seated in your genitals. Actually very little energy exists in your genitals. Some energy is locked there, but energy is locked all over the body-mind. You do not altogether represent a great deal of Spirit-Force. You are a five-watt bulb!
DEVOTEE: Master, the traditional point of view is that the energy lies in the base of the spine.
MASTER DA: That is one traditional point of view. It is not the only one. The Taoist tradition, various forms of the Chinese yogic tradition, and others understand the primacy of the circular conductivity. Even some of the Hindu yogic traditions understand that there must be a great reception if there is to be a great release. Even the process of the kundalini is associated with the full Circle of conductivity, and it is not properly described in terms of some sort of pole that rises from the bodily base to the crown, through which to send up energy as if you possessed an infinite reservoir in the genitals or bodily base. You do not possess an infinite reservoir there. It is potential in you, but you must awaken that reservoir by undoing the contractions in the frontal line that limit the amount of force available at the bodily base. You must therefore engage in a profound exercise of self-knowing and self-exercise over time, whereby you can inbreathe this Force and be fully opened in mind, body, and emotion, so that you can then conduct It upward also.
This exercise of conductivity is a secondary aspect of our practice, but it is a fundamental exercise that supports the conscious process. The freeing of energy and attention depends largely on this exercise of conductivity. You must free yourselves from the habit of Narcissus in all relations, and that habit is associated with functional knots in the Circle of conductivity. You must not only receive the Spirit-Blessing of the Spiritual Master, but you must also become capable of using It. To become capable of using It, you must understand yourself and fashion a vehicle of conductivity. To do so can take a great long period of time in some cases. Even so, in every case it requires a profound discipline of self-knowing, self-exercise, self-submission. It involves the conscious process, therefore, the process of self-knowing and self-transcendence, but it also involves the exercise of conductivity, whereby you devote the body-mind to the Great Purpose, rather than to the psychology, the neuroses, the complications, of the self-contraction, the ego, the habit of Narcissus.
The importance of this vehicle of reception and descent is emphasized in the body of the Adept. The Great Adepts all have great abdomens. Why do the Adepts have forceful abdomens if the spiritual process is simply a matter of sending the Life-Energy up? If it were, all the Adepts should be shriveled, burnt-up little characters with skinny little bodies and concave navels. Why also do the traditions, the Chinese tradition particularly, emphasize that the practitioner keep the energy in the abdomen and not weaken it? The reason is that the process of ascent or release is entirely dependent on the process of descent or receptivity. You must first overcome the neurosis of your own vehicle, which must receive and conduct the Spirit-Force. You must first overcome your frontal neurosis, and then you may conduct the Current of Force upward as well.
There is no final upward or ascending conductivity of the Life-Force except in Translation, or perhaps temporarily in certain yogic states and in death. But ultimately the only final upward release of the Life-Current from the body is in Translation. Therefore, all the other events of living associated with the conductivity of the Spirit-Force are associated with the full Circle of conductivity, with the process of frontal reception or descent of the Life-Current and Its turnabout, not Its dissipation through the lower vehicle but Its turnabout, and Its return through the spinal or central line of the body.
You must prepare yourself through self-understanding and real practice to conduct the Spirit-Force, to use my Baptism. You must not be merely interested in receiving a Blessing. You must really practice, you must be capable, in other words, of using It. You cannot use It if you are full of knots. You cannot just be good at receiving life. When the full Circle is established, then you are Resonant, you are infinitely Radiant, you are without qualification, you neither go up nor down. But you must develop this mechanism.
Rudi was basically a yogic adept of the descending Life-Force. He moved the Life-Force upward also to varying degrees, achieving various kinds of ascended states, but his primary orientation was to receive the Life-Force. He called the one book he wrote Spiritual Cannibalism , or “eating” the Spirit, finding It in all kinds of sources, but basically ingesting It, taking It in. His fundamental motivation was to receive this Force and use It, let It demonstrate Itself in his life outwardly. As the Mighty Atom did feats of strength, Rudi did feats of business. His primary orientation was to develop the frontal mechanism. He knew very well that in order to receive the Fullness of life to the point that It can demonstrate Itself in some extraordinary sense, one must overcome the neuroses associated with the frontal mechanism, and that it is not a matter of merely overcoming a physical contraction or constriction but of overcoming emotional and mental limits on energy as well.
The mind must become free, able simply to receive and direct this Current, able to be attention merely. Thus, we use the practice of the Name at a certain level of practice to keep the mind from wandering into forms that merely limit or modify energy. You must be emotionally free of all kinds of reactions, self-imagery, ideals about how things are supposed to turn out, reactions to life, disappointment, frustration. You must be free of the whole force of emotional contraction in the heart region, which is the emotional region of the body, as you must also be free in the head. You must be free of thoughts, you must be free of contractions in the head, the brain, the face. And you must be free of vital or physical contractions. You must keep the body healthy. Like the Mighty Atom, you must condition the body to be a vehicle of this exercise of conductivity. You cannot merely engage it as a mental exercise and let your body go to pot, but you must maintain a right physical discipline so that the body can enjoy its natural capacity to be full of Life, to conduct It, receive It, and demonstrate Its Virtue.
Our Way is not merely a matter of using the Spirit-Force in the planes of Nature. Therefore, the Way is not about using the frontal or descended form merely for the purpose of outward demonstration in this life. Nor is the Way merely about turning the Energy about and throwing It upward to attain states of experience and knowledge in the ascended planes of Nature. We engage in the process of conductivity as a sacrifice. We do not ultimately devote the Spirit-Force toward any end in the planes of Nature. We sacrifice the Living Force to Its Ultimate Source or Condition. But we must enjoy the capacity to be free of limits or modifications on that Force. We must conduct It in a full Circle, so that attention is free, so that Energy is free to Locate stably, and stably Abide in, the Transcendental Condition that is the Source of Nature.
DEVOTEE: Master, I can recall your saying at least twice in ecstatic moments, “I am going to tell you a secret. The secret of the Siddhas is downward reception.” And I remember your saying, “I shouldnt be telling you any of this.” But you described Nityananda and Rang Avadhoot and you put your arms across your navel and said, “This is the secret!”
MASTER DA: Many cultural organizations are devoted to the kundalini process or something like it. Their members seek to achieve ascended states and nirvikalpa. Such people are typically very thin and dissociative and weak. They are working on the ascending possibility of the Living Current. They have not yet become full or sane. They are not free of themselves yet in any sense. They have not developed this receptive capacity, and they are only emptying themselves. In effect they are destroying themselves by identifying with a stage of idealism that is prior to their real capacity.
The spiritual Way depends first of all on establishing the receptive and descended personality as a functional vehicle of the Living Reality. This is the principle of the first three stages of life. The first three stages of life are not a hellish domain into which we should not have been born to begin with. They are stages for preparing the vehicle of descent so that it can conduct the Living Force. They prepare us with a will, free of limitations of mind, to concentrate this Force, receive It from above the head, concentrate It in the body, let It pass through a full feeling vehicle with no impediment, a body that is healthy and fully able to function in all kinds of ways.
Such is the spiritual purpose of the first three stages of life, to prepare the vehicle of receptivity and descent. Then if we fully pass through the third stage of life and accomplish its real purpose, we enter into the fourth stage of life, which is a transitional stage wherein we awaken fully into the disposition of feeling-submission to the Transcendental Condition and then become capable of developing the mechanism of ascent, or return of the Living Principle.
In the fifth stage of life we tend to become disoriented from our ultimate purpose and become devoted to the potential objects and experiences associated with ascent. But we are only experiencing a stage of development, a stage of evolution, a stage of transcendence. The ultimate stage of transcendence is not even characterized by the sixth stage of life, wherein we move to Locate the Power of the Self-Position prior to the self-contraction and the body-mind. The ultimate purpose of spiritual life is demonstrated in the seventh stage of life.
In the seventh stage of life, the Circle of conductivity is completely open. There is no impediment in it whatsoever. Absolutely none. There is full conductivity in descent to the navel or to the bodily base, and full conductivity in ascent to the crown again. The Circle does not even revolve. In effect, the being is a Resonant Pole, neither ascending nor descending, although functionally both descending and ascending, simply Self-Radiant, without qualification, not bound by the potential objects that may be realized through the descending process or the ascending process. Everything is recognizable in this Resonant, Self-Radiant Condition of Being in the seventh stage of life.
Thus, all the movements of the Spirit-Principle, descending and ascending, in the first five stages of life are merely stages of education, preparation of the vehicle, which is ultimately purposed to transcendence and not to the attainment of the experiences associated with the first five stages of life. The sixth stage of life is again a transitional stage like the fourth. It is the transition from the domain of the effects or modification of the Spirit-Current to the intuition of Its Source, so that in the seventh stage of life, the full Circle of manifestation, the full Circle of the Cosmic Mandala, is displayed, potentially experienceable. The Self-Position is Realized utterly. Everything that does arise or can arise is recognized, inherently, tacitly-and ultimately Outshined. The fulfillment of the Way therefore transcends conductivity and the conscious process or the exercise of attention. It is the Realization of the Domain of the Spirit-Principle Itself, the Transcendental Domain, Which is in the Self-Position, and not outside It.
DEVOTEE: I recall, Master, your telling us about your time at Seminary. So much Force was circulating through your body-you were not Teaching at the time-that between classes you went to a stream and let the Life-Energy run into the stream through your hands and your feet and your eyes.
MASTER DA: When I first went to Rudi, he said to me, “You are a good transmitter but a bad receiver!” It was not ultimately true, but what was true about it is that I did need to discipline the frontal being. I had to drop many habits and associations and work on this mechanism so that the Great Force could accumulate. During those years I was with Rudi, therefore, I built up a tremendous heat in the body. I was always on fire. I felt always as if I were in a moment of profound frustration. I was burning up.
In fact, that condition exists today. I am being burned up all the time. When the yogic process is regenerated, it produces a great Energy, a great Force, that Radiates and burns up or Outshines conditional or phenomenal appearances. I endured the discipline of working on this frontal circuit, and Rudi served me then.
With Muktananda I performed the discipline of breaking through the impediments in the ascending line of the Current. However, I did not become devoted to the purposes of the fifth stage of life. When that work was essentially done, I went on to continue my own work. These two individuals, Rudi and Muktananda, were very useful, as were other associations and experiences, in helping me develop a functional responsibility for this Circle, this mechanism, descending and ascending. Rudi served primarily the responsibility for the descending aspect of the practice, and Muktananda primarily the ascending aspect. Yet I did not become devoted to the ends to which they as individuals were devoted.
Rudi wanted me to be devoted to realizing a descended personality, the super-effective “Mighty Atom” character, who can do everything in life and have businesses and enjoy success as a worldly person. Although I was not interested in those ends, I accepted them while I was with Rudi because developing the mechanism was of value to me. Muktananda was not interested in worldly life. For him the purpose of the ascent of the Life-Current was the achievement of subtle objects. This was not my purpose at all. I had all those experiences, still have them, but I could not become purposed toward those ends. The useful purpose served by my association with Muktananda was the achievement of responsibility for the ascending mechanism.
When all of that work was complete, the mechanism was fully available, no longer obstructed, entirely a matter of responsibility constantly generated through enquiry. At that stage, then, energy and attention were free for the fullest responsibility of Transcendental Realization, which occurred outside the company of teachers in gross or subtle form and which was simply the continuation of the Work I have been doing all my life. That dimension of my Work was fulfilled in the Vedanta Temple.
All this should point out to you that the Way is not merely a matter of superficial inbreathing and exhaling some sort of felt Energy. Presently you represent profound limits on that Energy. There are no limits on my Energy. There are no limits on the Transmission to you. There are no limits on the Divine, Which is All-Pervading. There are no limits on What is available to you, but as a mechanism, as an egoic personality, as a phenomenal being, you represent limits, and those limits are concrete, very practical, very practically real. They exist at the level of the mind and emotion and body. Therefore, you must be free of mental, emotional, and physical contraction, both in the receptive, descending life of your ordinary humanity and in the released, ascending life of your yogic or spiritual Realization.
You must work this mechanism. From the point of view of somebody like Rudi, the exercise was to struggle in muscular terms with the mechanism itself. One always had the feeling from Rudi that the practice was basically a physical exercise of stretching his body. He liked to stuff his body with food and do all kinds of things to fatten his body and stretch his muscles, so that he could have no knots in his body. Yet he did not account sufficiently for his emotional and mental knots. He could not stretch his body enough to provide a free vehicle of spiritual Life.
Rudi was gesturing toward the fifth stage of life, but he was really struggling with third stage limitations. His orientation was very much like the Mighty Atoms. He was not trying to do feats of strength like the Mighty Atom, but he was trying to do something as a bodily-based personality in the world. His basic orientation was not toward visions and such. He basically did not have much truck with subtle phenomena. He always made light of his visions. He was basically somebody struggling with the receptive mechanism, who learned how to inbreathe a great deal of Energy and then use it in life.
DEVOTEE: Master, in contrast to the ways of effort, there is a superior and easier way, which is to receive the Transmission of the Adept. Such a spiritual process does not require effort, but understanding.
MASTER DA: It requires understanding and real practice. You cannot resort to the Adept for the spiritual Principle through a generalized emotional gesture and fulfill the Way. You must found yourself in real self-observation, real self-understanding, in mental, emotional, and physical terms, and work in the exercise, really perform the yoga of conductivity, really do the practice of Remembrance as it is described-but really do it! If you do it superficially without self-observation and self-understanding and without real exercise of conductivity, then the whole exercise is weak and superficial and will not have a profound effect on your life. Because you are not providing a vehicle for the Spirit-Force, your demonstration will be weak. You will not show any of the signs of spiritual strength if you cannot open the mechanism and receive the Great Force. But of course, the purpose of this exercise that we do is not merely to demonstrate it in life, although that is an aspect of what we are doing. You do assume a discipline in life, but the primary purpose of the disciplines is to help you to observe and overcome the knots in the Circle of conductivity and then to go on, not to become exclusively dominated by interest in accomplishments in this world or in some subtle plane. Do not become a worldly user of the Spirit and do not become a conventional ascending user of the Spirit.
Our business is to release the mechanisms that we represent and to not otherwise devote the Spirit to conventional purposes. We must give Way to the Spirit. And if we do, through real exercise based on self-understanding, then the Spirit-Current will find Its Way to the heart. We will fulfill the Way ultimately, not as ascending or descending yogis, but as seventh stage practitioners in whom the Circle of conductivity is simply open-Energy is simply free, attention is simply free. Then the Spirit-Current shows Its Way to the heart, to the Transcendental Domain, and not toward objects, gross or subtle. Our Way is fulfilled in the Outshining of the world and not in devotion to this world or any ascended world.
Is all this clear to you? Do you understand, then, what a profound exercise it involves? You cannot be a superficial, nominal practitioner or member of this community or this institutionalized culture. You must really practice. To practice is the purpose of your being here. You should be so purposed by your response to me, and really practice, really make a gift of yourself. You cannot merely exercise the Spirit-Force. You must understand yourself. You must be responsible for the knots, mental, emotional, and physical.
The first stage of the practice, associated with the Prayer of Remembrance, is basically a matter of dealing with this frontal Current. Yes, it is a matter also of exhaling and releasing the Life-Force upward. This is fine, but you are fundamentally and first of all engaged in a practice of becoming responsible for the receptive or frontal line. The more you develop it, the more you will release upward. Only when you achieve a position of openness, when great Force is conducted in this Circle, can you move on to the advanced stages of practice, which are necessarily associated with spiritual maturity.
There is no spiritual maturity without the capacity to conduct the Spirit-Force in the full Circle. That capacity is not associated with any kind of fascination with or even exaggerated experience of subtle phenomena, although there will necessarily be such, but it is associated with intimacy with the Spirit-Force Itself and the capacity to engage in the conscious process, which is a process that moves beyond the objects potential in the frontal and spinal lines of this Current.
The frontal line leads toward phenomenal states in this world, and the conscious process moves beyond them. The spinal circuit leads toward association with subtle visionary phenomena and other expressions of ascension into the Cosmic Mandala, and these are also then transcended via the conscious process.
Thus, the Way involves first of all, based on self-understanding, the development of this equipment, in which Energy is free in the Circle of conductivity, and then the devotion of that free Energy and attention to locating the Source of attention, the Source of the subject-object game. That Source, relative to our body consciousness, is associated with the right side of the heart, where the full Current goes.
Anyone who practices this Way might have some sensation in the right side of the heart, but it is only when the Circle is fully open, when you have transcended the ego or the conventional personality, the self-contraction, descending and ascending, that the Current becomes forceful in the right side of the heart, becomes a Current of literal Bliss, Fullness of Bliss, prior to objects of all kinds. Therefore, at level 6 of the practice of this Way the profound Current passes to the right side of the heart, and we enter into It very naturally. Yes, we are Locating the Source of attention, but we are riding in this Bliss-Current, which carries us into the Domain of Free-Consciousness or Transcendental Being.
That Current must be available and not merely some sort of intellectual interest in devoting or concentrating attention in the right side of the heart. We must let the Current carry us into the right side on the heart. It is the Vehicle, the Means, of the Yoga. Therefore, even though I can tell you all about the advanced stages of this Way – I do not keep them secret, you see – you cannot really practice them unless the Spirit carries you into them. And the Spirit will not carry you into them unless you provide a vehicle for It. You must give the Garuda Bird to Vishnu. You must give birth to this Bird. You must let It break out of the egg. You must fly with the Spirit-Current, the full Egg, the full Circle. It must descend and ascend. Then It cracks to Its root, the Bird flies to the heart, and the Transcendental State of Being, Vishnu, the Divine Being, is Realized. But not otherwise, and not before then.
You must thoroughly understand this so that you will not conceive of the Way as some sort of superficial exercise of attention without need for any great capacity. To enter into this level 6 discipline and to enter into the seventh stage of life is a great Yoga, a great Siddhi. You must found yourself in real self-understanding through consideration of my Argument and develop this mechanism so that the Life-Current or Energy is set free, and so that attention is set free from the objects associated with that Current, descending and ascending, and can pass to its Source.
You can pass in some superficial sense into that Source, but you will always be deflected, you see. Always Energy and attention will become conditioned again, and you will forget and return to your ordinary occupations. You can respond to the Argument of The Liberator (Eleutherios) , but you cannot truly practice the Way it describes until you have entered into the domain of spiritual practice through self-understanding and released this mechanism, descending and ascending, from its impediments. You must make this Circle or Egg of Life through devotion, real exercise, and then let It give birth to the Vehicle of Vishnu, to the Garuda Bird. Let It fly from the crown into the right side of the heart and Realize the God, find Vishnu, find the Divine.
This Spirit-Transmission that I give to you is the “Bird” that flies to the heart. You experience It tangibly in various ways perhaps, but your experience is limited by the mechanism you are, by the mechanism of your own egoity. Thus, you do not go to the heart truly. At most you realize the passage to the heart only superficially. You are basically confined by the mechanism itself, by the hard shell of knots that encloses the God and fails to give birth to the Vehicle, the Bird, the Mount of the Divine that flies into the Divine Domain.
Garuda cannot fly out of the right side of the heart with Vishnu on His back until the whole affair of the encapsulated Divine, the rigidity of the ego, the shell of egoity, is broken. Then you fly from the heart into the Divine Domain. Then Amrita Nadi is Awakened, swollen, and becomes infinitely Radiant, and dissolves the cosmos.
This process is not a myth. It is a fact. It is expressed through myths in the traditions, but it is a yogic or spiritual fact. And it is Realized through the process that I communicate to you. That process is founded on self-understanding and the exercise of this mechanism whereby you break through the shell, undo the knots, allow the Current to resonate in this full Circle and then to move into the heart and find the Self truly.
When you have entered into perfect Identification with That, then all things are recognizable. The Great Bird flies out of the heart with the Divine on Its back and mounts into the Divine Domain without limitation, Outshines the cosmos. This is a mythological way of describing the process, but I am describing a real process that is functionally associated with your born existence. The Realization associated with this Way in the seventh stage of life is a great Siddhi, a profound Realization. It is not something you can enter into based on mere reading and superficial attention to the possibility. You must enter into the exercise most profoundly, even muscularly and bodily. You must really do this Work and provide a vehicle for the Living Current, provide a Domain for It. Then the shell cracks and the heart awakens and the Bliss-Being expands to Infinity, but only when this Work is done, when all the knots are undone. And that is a literal, practical Work. It can occupy you for lifetimes, but you have been given the intelligence for It directly, completely. You are given all Help for It, so that the Process can be fulfilled in one lifetime, if you are devoted to It completely.
What is the Bird in the Hindu myth? That Bird is the Life-Current. And who is Vishnu? Vishnu is the Self. Vishnu and the Bird are one, Radiant Transcendental Being, the Self and Its own Radiance. The Shakti is ultimately nothing but the Self, not merely the Creator of Nature, the Dancer of Nature, the Binder of beings. As such the Goddess or the Living Current is separate from the Self and seems to be bloodthirsty, mad, the destroyer of everything It creates. It seems to create things only to destroy them, to tease them and frustrate them and obliterate them, to delude them toward various ends and then separate them from those very attainments. Such is the apparently negative aspect of the Shakti, or the Force of the Divine in Nature, perhaps, at least in the domain of certain kinds of experience, but this very same Force is ultimately Realized to be Identical to the Transcendental Self. In my own life, therefore, I have Consorted with this great Goddess as Force, but then as a Person. Ultimately, you see, She submitted Herself to me in the event of my own Transcendence and became not Mother, not Guide, not Guru, but the Loved One, the Lover, and She dissolved, became completely Identical to the Transcendental Self, became the Vehicle that flies to Vishnu, became the Consort of the Self, became nothing but the Radiance of the Self.
In some sense you could say the Goddess is a metaphorical character, but I experience this Goddess just as directly, just as concretely, as I experience you sitting here, or a plant in the yard or a cloud in the sky, in a very direct, tangible, face-to-face, conversational, body-to-body, very concrete meeting. The Goddess is also an archetype, a spiritual vision, an image. Therefore, I am not merely associated with some tangible Goddess, some Devi, although that is true, but That One is submitted to the Transcendental Condition. This is my Realization, and I Transmit It to you. What is Transmitted to you, then, is the God on his Vehicle, the Self on Its Throne, the Transcendental Self Glorified by Its Bride, by Its own Radiance. They are not two Principles. There is only One. But this Truth is Realized only through the process of perfect transcendence by truly using the Adept and engaging in the practice fully, submitting yourself to it perfectly, so that you provide this Vehicle, not the ass-biting Goddess, but the glorious Bird, the Infinite Radiance of the Self, which is always in Union with the Self in the Enlightened state.
So are there any questions about it? No questions-then the only thing you have left is to do it. The practice must occupy your entire life. You must devote your entire life to it. You must be devoted completely to it. Otherwise, being only superficially associated with it, you may perhaps realize a better life by virtue of your coming into my Company, but you will not fulfill the Way in your lifetime. Instead you will devote the Virtue of this Way, the Spiritual Transmission Awakened in my Company, to the ordinary purposes of your living, and fundamentally It will only grant Energy to the same thing you are already doing. Therefore, to the degree you are suffering, your suffering will be intensified. To the degree you are successful, your successes will be intensified. But you will never merely be successful. You will also become exaggerated and bastardize the Virtue that is given to you. You are here, as Rudi would often say, to give birth to a spiritual child, which is God, the Divine Self riding on Its own fire, Its own glorious Vehicle. You must set It free from this egg, this born confinement, this shell of egoity. Release It through the spiritual process, through self-understanding and self-transcendence.