THE INCARNATION OF LOVE Part VII: My Gift of Heart-Vision CHAPTER 43 For the Love A Conversation with Sri Da Avabhasa ANIELLO PANICO (a man who managed the kitchen at Sri
Love-Anandashram): Sri Gurudev, the other day we were
cleaning out the kitchen, and I said to Stephan, who was
working with me, “Lets move those two cinder blocks. What
are they doing in the kitchen?” We picked up one cinder
block to move it, and there was a rat staring at us. Now,
everybody here would call it a mouse, but I am from New York
and I know it was a rat! He was easily six inches long. He
was looking at us and thinking he was as cute as Mickey
Mouse. SRI DA AVABHASA: They are cute, Aniello. ANIELLO: It was a rat, Master! SRI DA AVABHASA: I dont mind them. ANIELLO: I mind them, Sri Gurudev. SRI DA AVABHASA: That is part of the liability of being
from New York. ANIELLO: But, Sri Gurudev, he was not alone. There were
four or five little mice with their heads eaten off! This
killer was trying to look cute, as if he were at Disneyland,
but that devil had eaten those little mices heads off. I
knew it! I knew it! Stephan said, “Isnt he cute?” SRI DA AVABHASA: Those were living beings, conscious as
you are, getting their brains gnawed out! Crunchy, crunchy,
crunchy, little ears and noses. That is pain and
disillusionment and confusion! Imagine the state they were
in when they got to the other side. STEPHAN BLAS: Sri Gurudev, do You know what Aniello is
asking You for? Mouse control! ANIELLO: I want a cat. SRI DA AVABHASA: Would you rather a cat ate the heads of
the mice? ANIELLO: Yes. I want a cat to eat that big mouse. SRI DA AVABHASA: That is equally disgusting, Aniello. ANIELLO: Please give us one of Your cats for the kitchen,
Master. SRI DA AVABHASA: Eating beings is always disturbing-not
necessarily the eating but the witnessing of the eating, the
after-death. There is nothing I can do about this, Aniello.
This world is dreadful. Do you have any idea what is
happening in conditional Nature? Everyone must sacrifice
beings to survive. ANIELLO: But not Your own, Sri Gurudev. SRI DA AVABHASA: They are all My own. They are all your
own, Aniello. And you must sacrifice them to live. Forget
chewing off a mouses head. You beings, you humans here,
require the murdering of living beings to eat and survive.
You must come to terms with this fact. To do so you must
come to terms with your own life and death and accept the
fact that you are a sacrifice and that existence in
manifested form is not merely a jolly time. All of you could
potentially die a painful death and live a painful lifetime.
I am giving you another slice of possibility, but you need
not take it, and many of you do not fully. Manifested
existence, with arms, legs, head, trunk-when you get born in
this world, you are asking for trouble. Do not become overly disgusted by the manifestations of
less-than-human creatures, Aniello. Accept your own state
and the fact that you eat heads and require the pain of
beings to live. Beyond that, know that you must accept the
pain of life and death. You are a sacrifice. To exist in
this form is revolting, treacherous, and potentially
painful. Some few may slide through with comparatively
little pain and die in bed, but of all the beings on this
planet, how many do that? ANIELLO: Not many. Not many at all. (20) SRI DA AVABHASA: Some, in fact many, tweet and fly
and move and shake and sex. But in between and after, they
are sacrificed, fully conscious, in such a form, in such an
incident, that you could not keep your stomach down if you
knew of it. That is not merely the fate of rats. That is the
common fate of beings called “human”. A large percentage of
mankind suffer the fate of rats. You are not gods and
goddesses here. You suffer the fate of animals. You must
come to terms with this, and, out of compassion, relieve as
many as possible from that destiny. To date, however, you
have not been too successful at that. Am I right,
Aniello? Do you know how many dreadful deaths human beings have
suffered compared to your mice? There have been much worse.
And how many fear death? How many fear that kind of death?
Everyone does. You are meat and can be eaten. Luckily for
you, you get to Contemplate Me and live the Truth and be
Delighted and experience Ecstasy while manifested in mortal
form. ANIELLO: Thank You, Sri Gurudev. SRI DA AVABHASA: You give slices of gratitude, maybe, but
you do not understand how grateful you should be. These are
still very primitive times. And the Master of mankind is not
yet in charge. I am the Person here to make such Ecstasy
acceptable, a sublime Possibility for all-not just humans,
but mice and rats as well, spiders, frogs, walls, TV sets,
and plants-to go beyond themselves, without the threat of
being eaten by another mover. All of them are given the
opportunity for Sublimity. But tell Me about the rat and the mice, Aniello. Your
revulsion is unreal and bourgeois. Such a sight is
repulsive, yes, but you act as if it is not knowledge about
yourself, about what you do, and about your fate. You are
meat in this form. Human beings have the potential to
transform this planet, but they have not done it yet. They
are merely increasing the insanity. ANIELLO: But they can transform the planet. SRI DA AVABHASA: They can, but they have not done it yet.
Human beings murder one another all the time, all the time.
Every year hundreds of thousands of human beings suffer the
fate of mice, insects, cockroaches. They are treated like
dirt-really! That is the way it is. Only because you have
not experienced that possibility yet, and your immediate
friends have not experienced it yet, can you look at the rat
and be disgusted. Yes, be revolted, but be more intelligent
about it. That rat is you. It is mankind. And you only live
because you act something like the rat. Do not be
righteously revolted by it, because you will die from the
same aggression. You have the potential to do something different, but you
do not have the potential to not sacrifice. Existence in
manifested form is participation in sacrifice, and there is
no reason to be righteous about that fact. You should be
humbled by the knowledge. You cannot even breathe-not even
breathe-without sacrificing self-conscious beings. You
cannot walk or move, you cannot live from day to day,
without taking life in some form. You may eat an orange or a
bit of lettuce in your salad. Look at your plate. Look at
the sacrifice. Do not be guilty about it. Know it. You are
not yet so different from the rat. You eat heads, too. You
are revolting. You are flesh. You are to be sacrificed. You
are a sacrifice in your most precious form, that to which
you would most dearly cling. You are! Be revolted, but be
illumined by your knowledge. Make changes. Devote your
sacrifice to changing existence. Do not be happy about it,
but do not be righteous either. This is My advice,
Aniello. How many living beings have you eaten in your life,
Aniello? ANIELLO: Many. SRI DA AVABHASA: Do you think they liked being eaten? ANIELLO: I am sure they did not, Sri Gurudev. SRI DA AVABHASA: Then what makes you different from the
rat? The beings you have eaten did not like anything about
it, and you will not like it when you die. You will struggle
and resist. Until your quiet time comes, you will
resist. You all know that death can come to you quietly. But all
your life you struggle, nonetheless. Like a chicken running
in the yard, waiting to get its head cut off, you anticipate
the most terrible death. And you think that by organizing
yourself with other human beings in some fashion or other
you will have a quiet death in bed and not even be aware of
your death. You hope for that infinitesimal fraction of
possibility. Most human beings die uncomfortably. And if they do not
die uncomfortably, they live uncomfortably. This flesh is a
sacrifice, a transformation. This place is a transition
place. Do not be righteous next to the rat. The poor animal
is as self-conscious as you. So what if he looks ugly! You
have seen ugly humans, havent you? Compared to the Great
Shining without deaths, without aggression, in this place
everybody is really ugly. This is a dreadful and transitional place. Accept it as
such. Love Me. Be consumed by adoration of the Divine
Person, Who I Am. But do not make moral judgments. Do not
look down on the rat. Look at the rat and realize that you
have hairs, too! No righteousness is appropriate here.
Humility, submission, surrender, even Ecstasy ultimately is
justified here. This is a transitional place, and nobody
knows what is beyond it except those who have the Divine
Vision. You must get this Vision through Me, be Lifted Up, be
Happy, even accept the sacrifices you must make to survive,
the sacrifice of beings you must make to live. But do not do
it righteously, angrily. All beings suffer, as you do, as
you must, as you might, as typically is the case in death!
You are all rats and cattle here. Know this and see what I had to Submit to in order to be
here, looking like you, not merely being Sublime in the
Divine Place. I had to become this and suffer it! Now I
suffer it! I love rats, Aniello. I Embrace them-rats, mice,
walls, amoebas, frogs-I Embrace everybody. I Love everybody.
I want to Wake Up every being to this Ecstasy in the midst
of death. I have no righteousness in Me, no moral
righteousness on any point. I have been willing to become
incredibly ridiculous to Wake you Up. I have done
everything! I have no moral righteousness in Me, no un-Love.
I make no distinction between beings-humans, rats,
amoebas-none. You are all suffering the obligation to be eaten.
Therefore, I Love you, because of Who I Am. I want to Give
you the alternative, even though you may be eaten and even
though you eat in the meantime. I want to Give you the
Vision of My Glory, Wake you Up, Give you Ecstasy, the
Experience of Happiness and Fullness, even while you are
dying, not to mention while you live. This is a real and
very important matter. I am not here to deny you the
knowledge of what you are experiencing and what other beings
experience. I am here to sensitize you to what you
experience and to what other human beings experience, what
other creatures supposedly less than human experience, what
other forms-like these curtains and that fan experience,
even though they may not even appear to be conscious. You think there is no conscious awareness in these
so-called objects. There is nothing but such consciousness,
everything threatened by the fact of existing in form
temporarily. I have great Love, Compassion, Feeling. I
Identify absolutely with all manifested beings. I do not
look down on the rat, Aniello. That poor being breaks My
Heart! And you should feel likewise, if you love Me. You
must come to that point of feeling. I am here to sensitize
you to your own sacrifice and the sacrifice of others. I am
here to Call you beyond it, not to deny it. Go beyond it!
Acknowledge it! This is a dreadful place! Your time here is
so short! The logic of existence itself, when you know Me,
transcends these murders, this ugliness, these limits-even
the limits of humans, some of whom are relatively lovely,
some of whom are relatively not. You must love them,
Aniello! Love them! Absolutely! And relieve them of this
terror! Where do you think you are? You deny the rat your love?
Really! I deny no one! I Embrace all-and not just humans but
all manifested beings, suffering this limit, this horror,
ending in death! All! With incredible passion! Really!
Really, Aniello! Real love! For every one! Even for every
molecule I breathe in! I never have a moment of un-Love, not
a moment! I do not regard any ugliness except to observe
with Compassion the terrible horror of its state and to
receive it to My Self, to Give that being the Glory of
loving My Heart, My Person! I would not blink an eye and
deny any one that Vision. This is exactly what I do. I never do anything else. And
this is exactly what you must do, but not on the basis of
some idealistic commitment to My philosophy. Only by loving
Me, embracing Me, being Embraced by Me, will you ever come
close to this Disposition. Get into this Disposition. Yes,
be disgusted by the rat because he is an ugly creature. But
do not reject the being, as if you as a human live in
paradise. You eat rat as rat eats mouse. You sacrifice. You
die. And that is a horror. Every one of you expects the
possibility of horror. It brings great tension to your
heart. The only thing that relieves the tension on your
heart, that Sublimes you in the midst of this realistic
vision, is My Company. My Company in this bodily (human) Form is temporary, like
you. Most human beings who will be My devotees will never
see Me in This Body except in photographs. They must know Me
in My other Forms-My Spiritual (and Always Blessing)
Presence and My Very (and Inherently Perfect) State. Why
deny the rat, then? Why not bless the rat in its poorness?
Think, Aniello! It is ugly, yes. But it is a being,
suffering! What choice does that rat have but to eat the
mouses head? What choice do you have? You do not have
choices beyond a point. Therefore, you need God-Grace to
relieve your heart. So does the rat! Give him, or her, the
God-Grace of your regard, beyond your acknowledgement of
ugliness. Love. Sublime the poor state. That creature has no
choice but to eat mouse head. Dont you understand, Aniello?
Human beings have no real choice-philosophical options,
maybe, but not real choice. This is why you must forgive. To forgive is part of your
obligation to bless all others. No matter what you suffer,
unfortunately, you still must bless, forgive, relieve, be
compassionate, be Happy. No matter what! It is a terrible
discipline, a terrible discipline. Mark My Words! It is a
terrible, fierce, sorrowful discipline! It is tapas. You
need not go to the cave-merely to live is heat. To know Me
is to be cooled, Sublimed. You cannot know Me unless I suffer like you. Yet I suffer
more than you do. I suffer the horror of this life more than
you. You are hardly even aware of it. In My contact with
this bodily (human) Form, I have not only Submitted to the
Form of this Birth. I have Submitted to yours. I have had no
end of horror, no end. I have Transcended all destinies, not
just the Destiny of this body. I get no relief. I Give
Relief. This is the Law. The Great One Suffers. You imagine that you suffer and that you should therefore
blame the Father, the Living One. You do not understand. You
suffer nothing even close to My Suffering. Therefore, you
are not horrified. It is because I have always been Present
that you can live a human life and ever laugh, ever smile,
whatever reason you may think you have to smile. How do you
think it is possible that human beings ever experience
enjoyment? It is not a philosophical matter. It is because I
Am! How else under these circumstances could any being ever
smile, ever weep for joy, ever be Happy, ever experience
enjoyment, ever endure pleasure? It is possible because I
Am. The Living One Suffers. That is why there is any
enjoyment at all, just as that is why there is Ultimate
Enjoyment and Love-Bliss. This is the Truth. As My devotee
you should understand Me and not merely believe what I am
saying. Witness it! See My Life! See what I Do. See the
Signs in My face, the Signs in This Body. I am not a
balanced ascetic, communicating platitudes to you. I suffer
your company even for a few, even for one. I do it all for
anybody. That is why you must bring to Me only those
devotees who are prepared to participate in My Sacrifice. I
will ruin My Self with ordinary people. So you, Aniello-disregard the rat! I am not trying to put
you down or suggest that you are an extremely vulgar person.
I am trying to Instruct you and everyone. A primary rule of
religious life is sympathetic identification with beings. If
any law has ever been communicated through religion, apart
from the primary Law to Identify with God, it is to identify
sympathetically with all beings, human or otherwise-all.
Have heart-felt sympathy with the poor state of beings.
Always be sad in your Ecstasy. You will not be relieved of
this obligation. To know where you are and who you are is to
be Blessed, to suffer with joy and know the reality of
beings. This Earth is no paradise, and to be My devotee is not
merely to exist in paradise-not yet. Go to the seventh stage
of life and beyond. In the meantime, because of your love
for and acknowledgement of Me, identify sympathetically with
all beings, even the next molecule you suck up your
nostrils. Yes, there is a lot of ugliness, rats and
otherwise. There is a lot of ugliness, Aniello, a lot. But
look at that person. Look at that fraction of Light.
Experience sympathetically that destiny, and bless it in
your revulsion. This will add something to your
consciousness. This will change the world. I Call you to
that added disposition. After a while everyone will look to
you at least as beautiful as the most beautiful of
humans. It will take a long time. This is not the generation in
which those evolutionary changes will take place. My
Appearance here is not the Prologue to paradise-or perhaps
it is the Prologue to paradise if you understand that the
Divine Self-Domain is right in front of you to be Realized.
But My Appearance here does not mean that all beings will be
Sublimed automatically. My Appearance here now means there
is a choice. You must really awaken from your adolescence
and become a true man, a true woman, stronger than the
effort of cosmic Nature. Bless beings, and be Blessed. This place certainly is not paradise, Aniello. You would
be better off being bitten in the ass by that rat you
despised. Do you know what I mean? That is good. For the
love.