Perfect Freedom Is Not Free Will (pages 1151 – 1153)
PERFECT FREEDOM IS NOT FREE WILL
There is no intrinsically free will for there is no free ego.
Indeed, the ego-“I” is intrinsically and always pattern-bound, un-free, and always only seeking to be free and can never achieve either free will or freedom itself.
The ego-“I” wills itself to act only because it is stimulated to do so by a pattern of conditionally apparent circumstances in space and time and is always “caused” to act, by the stimulating “effect” of one or another kind, or mode, or state of conditionally evident pattern-context.
Therefore, the ego-“I”, or would-be-active agent, is not primary, or self-existing, or intrinsically free, but only an “effect”, or a secondary, subsequent, merely “caused”, and always limited agent.
The ego-“I” is entirely and only a secondary and subordinate pattern within a larger pattern—a comprehensive pattern of totality and particularity, upon which the ego-“I” depends, and which is, itself, the “cause” of the reaction that is ego-“I” itself.
There is no independent ego-“entity”, no separate and absolute ego-“I”—no intrinsically free agent of conditional action.
The existing pattern always pre-determines the options of the would-be-active agent.
Therefore, the willful ego-“I” cannot act as an independent agent, actively prior to the pattern in which it would act—because the pattern-bound ego-“I” can only react to pattern itself.
The willful ego-“I” can only act as a pattern within a pattern.
The willful ego-“I” can choose among conditionally evident options—but the willful ego-“I” is able to make choices only as a pre-patterned agent of pattern itself.
Therefore, the always only pattern-reactive egoic will to act is not free will.
Fundamentally, the ego-“I” is a pattern-slave—or a pattern-impulsed subordinate element within a larger and choice-programmed pattern context.
The pattern itself always “plays” the egoic agent, within an always predetermined and intrinsically limited field of options.
In any moment or circumstance, the egoic agent can only choose one of the given options—and the always pattern-particular choice determines the available action-pattern for the next moment and circumstance of options and choices.
No matter what choice or action the ego-“I” makes in any moment, it is always the pattern itself that continues—whereas the ego-“I” itself is always mutable and threatened, and, at last, it is mortally terminated by the pattern itself.
It is always contextually self-evident to the ego-“I” that pattern can never be “finally” escaped, dominated, or cancelled by the will and activity of the ego-“I”.
Therefore, from the “point of view” of the conditionally arising ego-“I”, it is intrinsically self-evident in the context of any and all conditionally arising “experience” that, while choosing among pattern-evident options may continue to be possible for an indefinite life-period of time, the only “final” option for the egoic agent is to either “self”-destruct or remain inert—because pattern itself is inexorable.
Suicide and utter passivity are the only “final”—and, in any case, merely and entirely reactive, seeking, enslaved, and utterly ego-bound—options for the intrinsically pattern-bound ego-“I”.
However, there Is Always A Perfect Option—Which is neither ego-bound, nor pattern-bound, nor reactive in and to the intrinsic dilemma of ego-versus-pattern here.
The only Perfect Option is to transcend pattern itself, by searchless “self”-understanding and by the intrinsic transcending of the “self”-identity of “active agent”—or the ego-“I” of “point of view” and of the pattern-stimulated will to act.
The only Perfect Option is egolessness itself—intrinsically transcending all pattern-bondage and all seeking for freedom itself.
The only Perfect Freedom Is Intrinsic egolessness—The Reality-State That Is Always Already Prior to both pattern and action.
Therefore, you cannot, by any kind or mode or time or place of will and action become free.
You can only Be Free.
So Be It.