Heart is the Hole in the Donut – Bubba Free John



June 23, 1976

BUBBA: Oh yea, most born entities go
through the cycle of identification with appearances quite
naturally. So birth is the, even before birth, conception,
begins a period of adaptation. Because even the period of
gestation of the fetus represents part of the desiring of
the entity. So it maintains close association with that
process. But where’s there’s some special uncommon destiny
involved, very often, the consciousness takes up its hold on
the body only at a later stage of its development when it’s
at lease available to some higher intention.

ANDREW: Bubba, would the same sort
of thing be true of somebody like Maharshi?

BUBBA: Well, it would be different
in everyone’s case because everyone has a different function
in particular and different kind of psychic integration

NINA: So when you talk about release
Bubba, that means, it seems like what you’re saying puts a
whole new light on release. It is release of that, of all of
that gross life of the body.

BUBBA: Right, you’re all busy
developing yourselves you know, and feeling better about it
all, but the sacrifice of God Realization is one in which
you completely yield the mind, the body, the emotions, the
life, all form entirely. Whereas you’re looking for a better
arrangement for this entity. But God Realization is
sacrifice. A complete yielding of your position. Having no
position. Having no destiny. No form. None. You know how you
snap into consciousness every now and then when you’re just
about to go to sleep. Because you for a moment, lose the
sense of the body, and yet are aware of it, and you jerk
back into the body. Well, that’s not uncommon. Everyone,
even the enlightened ones have such an experience
apparently. But this tends to inform your consciousness. It
really describes your consciousness. Because you identify
with that, have motive in that position. An so for the usual
man religion, spirituality, is a matter of

The Guru in human
form doesn’t have a conventional function.
Conventionally people want to use the Guru as some
sort of symbol, some sort of cultic figure, at the
center of their obsessed life, that makes them feel
a little better and talks them into sadhana, and
all that sort of stuff, from day to day. But that’s
only a secondary possibility inherent in one who is
merged in the divine reality.

creating a better circumstance for
that point of view. You know, that ego. But actually
enlightenment is not that at all. The process of
spirituality in its perfect sense is complete dissolution of
the bodily point of view, of the mental point of view, the
born point of view, the form of existence. Having no form of
existence. Completely releasing it. Having no position
whatsoever. Complete death relative to the forms of
manifestation. And yet, when this process actually occurs,
death in the conventional sense ceases to bind. And there’s
the realization in consciousness of the condition of
existence that transcends birth., That has nothing
whatsoever to do with it. That’s not limited to it That has
no destiny. But the usual man is not interested in giving up
the body, giving up the self, giving up the mind. He wants a
position. And he’s interested in defending that position. Of
providing it with as much of a consoling input as he can

You must be completely free of the
self position. The egoic gross and subtle. As much of a
surrounding. You know, a desirable surrounding as he or she
can grasp. But the spiritual process is one in which all of
that is undone. In which there is no such surrounding. In
which it is spontaneously sacrificed. And that’s the only
so-called position because it’s not a position. It’s not a
place. But it’s the only position, if we can use that word,
in which there is no bondage. There is no limitation. There
is no threat. It’s a completely absurd condition of
existence relative to this life. Because in this life you
must defend your place, you must secure your position from
intrusions of circumstance. But in the God Realized
condition, there are no conditions, no forms that need to be
maintained. Everything is discarded. Everything is
completely meaningless, and absurd, and stupid. Which is
what it really is. Because there would be no reason
whatsoever for you to appear in this form if it weren’t for
your stupidity and unconsciousness and obsessiveness. Your
mate desiring for certain kinds of consoling conditions. It
weren’t for that, there would be no reason whatsoever for
this birth. That’s the only reason you’re here. It has no
meaning whatsoever apart from that. The only reason for this
birth is to satisfy certain unconscious inclinations which
need to be repeated in the form of experiences. Overcome
that and this world means nothing. Absolutely nothing. It’s
just a commercial.

At least this is the way it seems to
me, but what do I know? I’m no authority on this sort of
thing. (LAUGHTER) How did I get involved in this anyway?

Do you all know what an immense
burden it is to carry on an existence from day to day.
There’s something about it this promising, it implies,
waking up and being somebody implies a destiny of some sort
that has pleasure associated with it. The fulfillment of an
idea has a pleasure associated with it. And that’s all that
a born existence is. You happen to feel identified with this
body, and psyche and so forth. And it carries with it the
implication of pleasures, consolations, enjoyments,
fulfillment’s. And that is what binds you to it. But you
don’t consider the inherent suffering also which appears
one-to-one, face-to-face with all of the consolations of the
same birth. Hum? When you begin to become aware of the
entire field of possibility, and experience of your born
existence. That’s when you begin to realize the inherent
suffering of birth. Of mere existence in form. Until that
time you begin to, you think in base terms of your
god-created life, or you know, your universe, mother-nature
created life, however you describe it. You think of it in
essentially positive terms, against odds. But when you truly
see the nature of your life. What your experience is, in any
moment. Then you begin to be released from your attachment
to the fulfillment of existence. And it’s then that you may
begin to do sadhana, sadhana in the form of the Way of
Divine Communion.

STUDENT: Even then, Bubba, it seems
like the only recourse is in your company.

BUBBA: No, this isn’t true, I’m a
retired person. I mean obviously there is some value in
intimate association with the man of understanding, or some
such person. It can quicken the affair of one’s release,
one’s sadhana. The Guru in human form doesn’t have a
conventional function. Conventionally people want to use the
Guru as some sort of symbol, some sort of cultic figure, at
the center of their obsessed life, that makes them feel a
little better and talks them into sadhana, and all that sort
of stuff, from day to day. But that’s only a secondary
possibility inherent in one who is merged in the divine
reality. It’s not an obligation of such a one. But in the
passage from maturity in God-Realization to dissolution in
the Divine, a function arises in the apparent individual
that can serve others. And Bubba Free John is an expression
of such possibility. And his function is to communicate this
way. And in the time in which that communication was the
burden of this one, the spiritual function through this
body, and so forth, was very important. Then there comes a
time in the maturity of Sahaj, in which the obligation that
all beings represent, in terms of teaching, and
transforming, loses all of its weight. As you will all see
when such enjoyment is yours. And it ceases to be at all
meaningful to transform one more human event. Or any event
whatsoever. it is no longer an obligation, it is no longer
interesting. It’s no longer necessary. And at such a point,
that apparent individual who had a spiritual function for
people in general for a time begins to drop back out of the
picture of human experience. And this is not only true in
the case of Bubba Free John. You see the evidence of that in
his case now, but it’s true in the case of all devotees who
begin to enter into the stages of God-Realization for which
the Way of Divine Communion, and the Way of Understanding
are the preparation, and begins to mature in the process of
Sahaj samadhi. And gradually they begin to lose their grasp
of the spiritual process that’s significant for everyone
else. And so as devotees mature, they drop out, not because
of any strategy to become spiritual. They just forget about
it. I mean literally forget. They stop noticing it. It is
not intention of theirs. You know, now I should drop it,
they just forget it. Whenever they remember it, they go back
to it, but they forget it. And the Divine itself, in the
most absolute sense, has completely forgot you, (LAUGHING)
You are in a state of being forgotten by the Divine and that
is what we call birth. When you’ve been left to your own
device, your own generation of experience.

Well, the beginnings of the way out
of that is to remember the Divine. That’s your
responsibility. It’s not the responsibility of the Divine to
remember you, but it’s your responsibility to remember the
Divine. And when you begin to remember the Divine, then you
begin to enter into all kinds of intimacy with the Divine in
which the Divine seems to love you and remember you and deal
with you and so forth, and that’s a genuine enough aspect of
the process of spiritual practice. But then at the most
mature state of God-Realization, in which you are not
absorbed in the Divine, but in which you are completely
forgotten in the Divine yourself, which that is your very
condition. And also your own outward demonstration of
helping and service, sadhana and all that, begins to fall
away. Because there’s no entity there. There’s no purpose.
Threats just release. In which you completely forget all
this insanity. It is really insanity. This dumb ass world.
You know what I mean?