I am Not a Source of Information


Beloved Adi Da’s Discourse began as a Response to a devotee’s questions about devotees limited assumptions about Beloved and the Way of Adidam that are the cultural inheritance from the Great Tradition. Beloved Adi Da used the opportunity to Expound upon the limitations inherent in language, and then Addressed right attitude in asking Him questions.


“If you are turned to Me, it is  not going to enable you to survive egoically.”



AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: Everyday speech is the language of the ego. No matter how refined the speech becomes, it is still ego speech it is intelligible to others who presume the presumptions of egoity, and that is what is untrue about it.

The matter of Realization is not about any perfection of words or the achieving of some ultimate thought. It is about Realizing That which inherently Transcends egoity and, therefore, all thought. It is not about getting rid of thoughts. It is about Realizing That which is inherently free of thoughts, which is prior to thought.

Any effort to seek it is driven by mind, and therefore has nothing to do with Realization. And what is to be Realized not only cannot fruitfully be sought, It is Always Already The Case. That is why It cannot fruitfully be sought. You cannot seek for something that is already the case without avoiding it.

This is My Instruction, but I do not limit it to merely Saying such a thing, which is a rather paradoxical statement, and having you screw up your brows and think it through until your brain pops, and you go “Ohhhhh!” [Beloved mimics a face of “Eureka!”]

No that is a stroke or something. Until you transcend all those illusions, you cannot even use the language as I am doing for the purposes of this Discourse. What I am Speaking to you is not the product of the bondage that conventional language naturally presupposes. So I am not trying to give you an ego based or ego satisfying answer. In fact, I could not.

DEVOTEE: Thank You, Beloved.

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: It is useful to ask Me questions, in order to be disabused of your illusions not to have Me satisfy them further.

DEVOTEE: Yes. Thank You for that Gift.

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: I am not merely a source of information. It is not fruitful to approach Me for conventional or casual conversation. You should make right use of My Company, be at least in some sense aware of Me, and not confuse Me with your own mind.  Then, if then you approach Me to ask a question, you will approach based on that understanding.

I can Speak about traditions for the evening if you like, but what difference do they make? We might as well talk about any random sentence that you spoke without even thinking about it, and just take a look at it and examine its parts. It does not make any difference what sentence you put together, even sheer nonsense—it is based on an uninspected illusion.

It does not make any difference what questions people ask Me or what descriptions of themselves they offer to Me, including their experiences. I am not your approving parental other. Nor am I interested in being your disapproving parental other, you see.

What is the point of asking Me a question anyway? If you are serious, you will be asking Me questions that are on the edge of your own real practice and the dilemma somehow associated with the moment of it such that by My Discourse or otherwise in exchange with Me, the process of your real, right practice will be furthered. And your bondage to your illusions will be weakened, purified, even removed.

This is the purpose of the relationship to Me altogether not to use Me to support egos, but to realize that I Am egolessly present here.

If you are turned to Me, it is not going to enable you to survive egoically. So to ask Me a question is dangerous in that sense not dangerous to someone serious, but to come to Me with a question or as a question is to be required to surrender further. Every utterance made by you all in questions is an egoic self-representation, which you are calling Me to defeat by Skillful Means or perhaps even by not responding, or responding however I might.

[October 1, 2004]