Have I Said It?
Note to reader:
As a member of Adi Da’s (then Bubba Free John’s) community from about 1973-1975, during which time I lived for nine months in Persimmon, the sanctuary where he lived. My service was to create an index of his early books. I found these writings to be compelling, along with some of the outrageous talks that have not found their way into print. Around his birthday in 1975 (to the best of my recollection), Adi Da was planning on moving with a small group to Hawaii. For that occasion, I arranged a selection of his compelling words by topic (mostly selected from his books) and hand-wrote them in a blank book for his enjoyment. As far as I know, nothing ever came of that compilation. That became Book One of two parts, the second of which I completed some time thereafter. Now through the Internet, I make both parts available to interested readers. These blank books (I made a copy for myself) have been sitting on my bookshelves all this time, and after Adi Da’s passing, it occurred to me that this compilation would be very useful to many readers.
Enjoy,
Ed Hirsch
presenceofone@yahoo.com
Ashland, Oregon
Chapter 8
Realization
As Certainly as God, Truth
and Reality Is,
God, Truth and Reality Will Be Known.
As certainly
As God, Truth and Reality
Is,
God, Truth and
Reality
Will be known.
Just as God, Truth and
Reality Is
Prior to all
things,
God-Realization
is
Prior to all
things.
It is not the result of
anything,
And neither is sacrifice
or love.
It isn’t by going toward
God
But standing in the
Divine
Already,
Already happy.
It is God, Truth and
Reality first,
Not God, Truth and Reality
as the goal.
Clearly there is a
paradox
In doing a spiritual
discipline
In which you ultimately
realize
Your own nature or
condition,
Because it is your
nature
Or condition
From the
beginning.
The whole
affair
Of this spiritual
practice
And the apparent
transformation
Of an
individual
Is an immensely
complex
And paradoxical
business,
Because there is only
God, Truth and
Reality
From the
beginning.
Divine
Communion
Is conscious
realization
Of the real
condition
Of the present
moment.
This is the
condition
You are presently
given
In which to realize
God, Truth and
Reality
The condition
That may be realized
today,
In this moment,
Is truth, is
happiness,
Entirely
non-dependent
Upon changes and
conditions
Of existence.
And that is very good
news,
It seems to me!
The highest
And only true
realization
Is Truth
itself,
The very Self or
Reality.
To enjoy Truth
Is simply to be
awake.
What is required to wake
up?
What can you do within the
dream
To wake up?
Nothing.
There is only the Waking
itself.
It is like a man
discovering
That he has been pinching
himself.
His pain was always his
own event,
The theatre of his own
action.
When he finally
sees,
It is a simple
matter.
He no longer needs to go
through
Any sort of complicated
affair
To get free of
pain.
He doesn’t have to go
through
Any kind of therapy,
special diet,
Yoga, or mantra
In order to be
free.
All he has to
do
Is take his hand
away.
No change of
state
Is necessary
For the realization of
Truth.
This
Realization
Involves no necessary
change at all,
In any
dimension,
But only
Realization
Of the actual,
prior
And present
condition
That everywhere
pertains.
The dream doesn’t have to
be changed
In any way for the waking
man
To feel that he is
awake.
Nothing has to happen to
the dream.
Only Waking is
necessary.
To one who is
awake,
The dream is
obvious.
No action in the
dream
Is the equivalent of
waking.
All waking comes
suddenly.
There is no
necessity
To the dream,
But only
persistence.
See it truly and abide in
the Real.
Truth can only
be
Already
enjoyed,
Already the
case.
Truth is not a
matter
Of seeking.
There are no
reasons
For joy and
freedom.
Truth is the most
radical
Penetration
Of this whole
event.
And only at that
moment
Is there
happiness.
There is no
happiness
That can be
acquired.
There is no
realization
That can be
attained.
Only the
Happiness
That already exists is
true.
Only the
Freedom
That already
exists
Is natural and
stable.
The only point of
view
From which to live any
life
In any world
Is that of
absolute
Self-realization and
God-knowledge.
Everything else is ripped
off,
It does not
survive.
No creature can be
happy
The way a human
being
Can be happy.
The creatures have no
option
But to be
creatures,
But men have the
obligation
To be
God, Truth and
Reality.
The ecstatic
life
Is not part of any
order.
It is simply
The Divine
condition.
The great
ecstasy
Is not release
Into the
extraordinary,
But the Perfect
Realization
Of the nature of your
condition.
In all states,
Ordinary or
extraordinary.
When the life is only
open,
When this incredible
force
Is flowing
through,
It churns you,
It purifies the
life.
Then there is nothing at
last
To be unhappy
about,
Nothing to think
about.
The flood of
enjoyment
Rushes through the
body,
Dissolves the
mind,
Overwhelms the
life.
When that
contraction
Just opens a
little,
The force of delight and
love
Begins to flow,
And the
obstructions
Begin to break
down,
Until, finally,
The person is
shattered.
Relationship is
Abiding in what is
always
And already
Real.
To know what
arises
In Truth
Is simply to be
In relationship
To what arises.
Relationship is
enjoyed
Under all
circumstances,
All conditions,
With all
beings,
In all
environments.
It is always
Simply that basic
enjoyment,
That unobstructed,
spontaneous,
Moment to moment
existence
As
relationship.
It is what is called
“love.”
It is simply the
force
Of the Heart, the
Real,
Which is
unobstructed,
Unqualified
existence.
To love requires a great
transformation.
Without the realization of
the Heart,
There is no true
humanity,
And no love.
Love is living without
obstruction,
Without
contraction.
Without the demand for
attention,
Without creating your
perimeter.
That doesn’t come
about
By doing all kinds of
things
To yourself.
It is a Grace.
Loving is also
pleasurable.
There is no doubt about
it.
Ecstasy is
selflessness.
Happiness is already
sacrifice.
True attention
Is enjoyed with the whole
being.
But, in fact,
That enjoyment is
not
Attention at
all.
It is presence,
radiance.
It has no
object,
But it excludes
nothing.
That state is the natural
state
Of realization
And also the natural
state
Of devotion.
Consciousness has no
answers,
It has no
questions.
That is the true
state.
From that
state,
The creation of
marvels
Begins.
You persist in that
realization
Because there is nothing
beyond it.
You cannot leap into some
consciousness
That is not it because you
were there
Just a moment
ago!
Now your enjoyment has no
definition
Whatsoever, no destiny, no
relationship
To anything.
It cannot be
specified
And it cannot be
isolated.
It cannot be
Separated out.
It is not an
alternative
To anything.
Everything just continues
to happen.
Everything becomes
yourself,
Everything is
happy,
Everything is
marvelous.
This enjoyment is the
grounds
For absolute
dissolution
In which nothing else
occurs.
You do not go
anywhere,
Life does not become
blank.
Things continue to
happen,
But your
realization
Becomes completely
unspeakable.
And beyond that
realization
Nothing may be
said,
Nothing may be
defined,
No destiny may be
described,
No work you do many be
described,
Nothing may be
said
About it at
all.
Everything happens
perfectly
From that
moment
And there is
nothing
That may be said about
it
That makes any
sense
Whatsoever.
The self is not
Behind all
this.
The self is
this
Without a
doubt.
There is no
separation
Whatsoever.
Therefore,
Self-realization is
perfectly
Compatible with human
existence.
Realization of the
God-nature
Is not anathema
To human
existence,
Or worldly
existence.
It is, in fact,
The very principle of
it.
Life or manifest
existence
Is realization.
Things do not
cease
To arise.
They have not
Ceased to
arise.
All things
Arise as
before.
All forms
Have returned.
To realize
That you are
Already.
God, Truth and
Reality
Doesn’t make you any
more
Than anybody
else.
It makes you the
same
As everybody
else.
When there is
truly
No difference,
No one
survives.
Where there is the
realization
Of non-separateness in
Truth,
No one survives
Beyond that
moment.
This
understanding,
When it occurs,
Will not be your
enlightenment,
Because when it
occurs,
There is no one
left.
When Truth
arises,
The one in whom it
arises
Is unknown.
All things
arise
Within the
Truth,
Or within the
Real.
But as soon as the Truth
itself
Becomes
obvious,
“you”
disappear!
There is no
“one”
To find that
out.
It is a spontaneous
event,
The most
absolute
Of all events.
It is a gift!
It is itself
God, Truth,
Reality!
Truth is a radical
condition
In which there is no
self,
No ego, no separate
motivation,
No fulfillment.
It’s the absolute
undermining
Of the ordinary
state.
The paradoxes
Represented by
everything
That appears
Begin to show
themselves
In God.
You will find no
self,
No world,
No other God,
But only
God, Truth and
Reality
Unreasonable
happiness
Is the eternally
appropriate
Mood of man.
Celebration is the yoga of
man.
The fundamental taboo is
ecstasy,
And the fundamental
ecstasy
Is
God-consciousness,
Openly lived and
assumed
In every function of
life.
There is no
God-realization
Until every dimension of
your born life
Has become the Seat of
Realization.
There is no
yoga
If the very
cells
Do not begin to intuit the
Divine.
All things will be given
to you
That are necessary and
appropriate,
But you will stand
happy
And full of
humor
In the midst of
life.
The prior
condition
Is
consciousness.
It is not
something
Consciousness does or
knows.
It is
consciousness.
So when it is truly
realized
There is no
danger,
No falling from
it,
Because it is not held in
place
By anything.
It is not dependent on
anything.
When there is no
longer
Any such
danger,
Then you are
humorous,
Then you see humor in
everything.
You can afford
To have such humor
then.
But if you have to hold it
in place,
You can’t
afford
To be humorous.
I don’t see
humor
In anything
whatsoever.
Humor has to do with
God.
There is no humor in
life.
When you perceive the
Divine
In the midst of any
world
Whatsoever,
Then humor becomes the
quality
You present to
life.
If truth begins to
manifest
In life, as
life,
It glorifies life to some
degree.
But the glory that enters
life
Is not that of life
itself.
It is the glory
Of the fullness of
truth.
Those who live
truth
While alive
Are not
glorifying
Life in itself.
They are glorifying
Truth.
The process
I am describing
Is instant, direct,
present.
The reason you are
not
Getting any
closer
Is because you
cannot
Get any closer.
That
realization
Has to occur
In this moment.
The Truth
Is radical
non-avoidance
Moment to
moment.
It is to live
This moment,
This event,
Without
conflict,
Directly.
It is a single
Realization
While alive.
It is the
condition
Of life, in
life.
This
realization
Must be lived.
It must be
Consciously
lived
At every level
Of
manifestation.
Your life-force
Must be free.
It must be
restored
To the
universe.
It is infinite.
There is a conscious
instant
In which it becomes
obvious
That this is
so.
All you will have
realized,
After all,
Is the obvious.
Life is simply
The realization
Of
“ordinariness.”
To so-called
ordinary
Is realized as the
perfect,
The Divine.
The ordinary
Is the
extraordinary.
When your eyes have
opened
In the morning
light,
Everything will be obvious
to you.
And you will
know
That you have never
slept,
That you have never
dreamed,
That you have never been
limited
To any thing that has
appeared.
You have never
been
In any
condition
That you have
assumed.
There was always only
Reality,
Your true
nature,
Which is bliss,
Consciousness,
The unqualified
Reality.
The process
In Divine
communion
Is very gentle.
It is even
enjoyable.
The “event” is
unnoticed.
The realization of
Truth
Is as natural
As a simple
response
To sunlight.
It is no big
deal.
All big deals
Are shy of it.
The absolute
thing
Is
unmentionable.
There is no
thing.
There is the holding
on
To everything,
And the falling
away
Of everything.
No mediocre man
Or woman
Has ever
realized
Such a
meditation.
No fool
Will ever enjoy
it.
No childish
person
Will ever begin
it.
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