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On July 1, 1973, Adidam publishes
The Divine Siddha-Method of The Ruchira Avatar, Volume I: My
Bright Word, first published as The
Method of the Siddhas.
From Chapter 8 Meditation and Satsang
“Soldier on the March”
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: Periodically, every individual
passes through a time
of crisis, of great resistance and fear. Ultimately,
every one of My devotees must go through the same
fundamental process of self-understanding and
ego-transcendence that I Demonstrated during My “Sadhana
Years”. Not precisely in the same apparent formbut,
within the pattern of the individual’s own conditions, that
same fundamental process must occur.
Real Spiritual life absolutely requires the undermining
and frustration of the capability for ego-binding
distraction. That is why Spiritual life has often been
described in harrowing terms. That is why My devotees must
be responsible for constantly cultivating the devotional
(and, in due course, Spiritual) relationship to Me, for
rightly disciplining the basic life-functions, and for
observing, understanding, and (more and more) transcending
the dramatization of egoity they are always tending to
enact.
Spiritual life is a crisis. Therefore, Spiritual life
involves discomfort at times. Such discomfort does not mean
that Spiritual life is failing, or that you are not good
enough for it. Crisis and discomfort must occur. The crisis
(or turnabout) is what Spiritual life is all about. It is
supposed to occur.
You are supposed to suffer purifying events.
You are supposed to encounter resistance in yourself.
You are supposed to discover all kinds of garbage in
yourself.
So why should there be any special resistance to it when
it occurs? There may be discomfort, and you may wish you did
not have to go through it. But, apart from that, there is no
reason why you should be over-whelmed or completely
disenchanted by the fact that you are experiencing a period
of intense conflict, crisis, suffering, and disturbance.
The more time you waste identifying with all of that, the
less sensitive you become to the event itself. Therefore,
Satsang with Me, devotion to Me, and a loving and
intelligent approach to all of life should be intensified in
the periods of apparent discomfort.
These apparently disturbing episodes of crisis in the
Real process of Spiritual life are very intelligent, very
meaningful. They have a great deal to show you. The more
capable you are of passing through these times, the more
useful they become.
The individual who is really using this process can be
enduring this crisis almost continually, with great
frequency and intensityand, yet, like a soldier on the
march, the person never misses a step, never becomes
outwardly reactive. Such a person continues to function, and
apparently only enjoys life. He or she does not get involved
in an entire drama of upset.
In the beginning, however, when someone is just beginning
to pass through this kind of crisis in consciousness, there
tend to be reactions and breakdowns whenever the crisis
begins. There is very often an emotional collapse, even a
physical collapse. There are episodes that have an almost
psychotic quality to them. It is during those times that the
person is wondering whether or not to continue to do the
sadhana, and all of that. But, as you pass through more of
these purifying episodes, you begin to realize how you must
function in terms of the Real Spiritual process.
Once you have begun to mature in the process, then, when
such an event of crisis arises, there is something already
familiar about it. You know the signs, you know what is
about to occur, you know the kinds of reactions that will
tend to build up. You know that, instead of clenching your
teeth and resisting the crisis, you should find some more
work to do during that time.
Instead of planning a vacation or a binge when you see a
crisis coming, you cancel all forms of entertainment or
ordinary distraction, everything that you would normally use
to distract yourself from your usual state. You plan a great
deal of work for the coming days. You plan an ordinary,
functional life.
When you have matured to that degree, you make good use,
really good use, of these episodes. The more intelligent you
are, the better the use you make of them. The less
intelligent you are, and the more capable you are of binding
distraction at such times, the more you will look for means
to dramatize your state, to distract yourself from the
lesson that turns purification into trans-formation.
You must know that everything I am doing is a means to
bring about this crisis. I desire this crisis in you.
I do not want it not to happen.
I do not want to console you.
I do not want you to be contented in your
unconsciousness.
I want you to become sensitive to your actual state.
I want you to know very well what you are always up
to.
I want you to become capable of observing yourself under
all kinds of conditions.
I want you to notice the machine of your ordinary
activity.
And I want that entire ego-machine to collapse. I want it
to come to an end. I want the “death” of all of that.
If that “death” does not occur, there will be no release,
no Realization. There will just be the self-generation of
the unconscious event of life and death, the continual round
that is already distracting you.
I am here to Reveal and to Give the various means
necessary to serve this crisisbecause to serve this
crisis is to serve most fundamental self-understanding in My
devotee, and (ultimately) to serve the True and Absolute Joy
That characterizes the Realization of most perfect “radical”
self-understanding. Therefore, every instant in Satsang with
Me is working to bring about this crisis.
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