The call came over the radio that Bhagavan Adi Da had
collapsed in Picture Perfect. It was immediately clear that
this was extremely serious, so I ran to the room of Charles
Seage, Bhagavan Adi Das physician, and we got on a
cart and were at Picture Perfect within two minutes of the
event. I remember that driving to Picture Perfect on the
cart, I was frightened, but I was also thinking
its a swoon, it has to be. Picture Perfect quickly became a very busy scene of
service to our Master, we all were focused in touching His
precious Body, assisting the doctors, and seriously invoking
and calling to Him to return to His Body. Some of us were
telling Bhagavan that we werent ready for Him to leave
yet. Naamleela held Bhagavans great head and whispered
softly to His Divine Presence in His ear. It took a long time, looking back on it, for me to
realize that Bhagavan had passed. I think that we were so
focused in serving His return, and for me, in denial and
hope and fear all at once, that it must have been an hour or
more before I realized this calling to Him and serving His
Divine Body were not causing Bhagavan to reanimate His
Avataric Bodily Human Form. I asked the doctors what else
could be done, and they both said it is a Spiritual
matter now, there is nothing more that can be done
medically. When it was clear in the room that Bhagavan had passed,
we brought in the stretcher and gently placed His Blessing
Body on it. We carried our Beloved Master to His bedroom at
Aham Da Asmi Sthan and placed Him on His bed in a seated
posture. Then the vigil began. I was in shock, and didnt really allow the full
descent of the sorrow until the next day when I was
orienting Bhagavan Adi Das Fijian devotees from
Ciqomi. I was telling them that they would be invited into
Bhagavans Bedroom to view His Body. When I looked at
Finiasis face, I could see His deep sorrow, and I
began to weep. I walked over to Ruchiradama Quandra
Sukhapur, and when she saw my face, she began to weep. We
went inside the bedroom, and the Fijians didnt hold
back, they were fully expressive in their sorrow at the loss
of the physical form of their Master. This helped me to also
feel to a greater depth, there was no self-protection
effective in that environment. While this event was very
emotional, it also was the beginning for me of finding
Bhagavan Spiritually after His passing. His Transcendental
Spiritual Presence was thick, a Force field in the
atmosphere of His Sacred Bedroom space. Not long after Bhagavans Divine Mahasamadhi,
devotees started to confess that they felt Him
alive in His Murti, and that He had magnified
His Spiritual Presence through this profound event. I was
skeptical of this at first, and didnt want to hype
anything out of need to find Bhagavan. Now, eight months later and looking back, I am feeling
the Truth of what Bhagavan had predicted, that after His
Divine Mahasamadhi, we would go through a time of sorrow,
and then we would find the Humor of His continuing Presence.
I find Bhagavan Adi Da to be very much alive Spiritually,
and the relationship with Him to be continuing in tangible
terms. Now I see the great Grace of the Silver Hall process. In
fact, so many things that Bhagavan Said or did altogether,
have become clear to me as Perfect, Brilliant, and of great
service to devotees. Before Bhagavan Adi Da Love-Ananda took
His Divine Mahasamadhi, He revealed His Divine State to His
devotees almost daily in the concentrated and set-apart
circumstance of the Silver Hall. He showed us that His
Divine Spiritual Body is not bound to His physical Body,
even though He is contacted through beholding the Gift of
His Form. Bhagavan showed us that He is Brightly pervading
the room and beyond. He persisted until we could
see Him there in the Hall as the Bright, a great
Sphere that included His Body, but was also
larger than His physical Body. And Bhagavan kept
sitting with devotees. He revealed that this Spiritually
alive Body we were finding, is the same as the Perfect
Knower of the Preliminary Practice of Perfect Knowledge,
that the tacit knowing of Bhagavan as His
Transcendental Spiritual Blessing is always Prior,
Spiritually Full as Love-Bliss Presence, without any
separation, Present in the mere beholding of Him. He said
that this discovery is profound and can radically alter the
life of the devotee. I find that this Spiritual revelation
given by Bhagavan is slowly becoming the core of the culture
here.
A Personal Account
by Michael Shaw
July 2009
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