The Primal Urge for Sanctuary

The Primal Urge for Sanctuary

Adi Da Samraj

Originally published in


Volume 2, Number 8


The Primal Urge for Sanctuary

A talk by Bubba Free John (Adi Da Samraj)

BUBBA: The principle of the relationship between the
Spiritual Master and devotees is that he includes them in
the field of his light. The literal physics of the physical
universe is involved in that fundamental process. Through
right relationship, the devotee enters into the aura, the
field of energy, of the Spiritual Master. That field of
energy works on the field of energy of the devotee, drawing
it, through sympathy, into the same condition as the field
of energy of the Spiritual Master. Before that absorption
becomes complete, there is much that the devotee must learn,
and much adapting and evolving he or she must do, until, at
some point, he or she realizes permanently the same state as
the Spiritual Master in the domain of energy. From that
point the devotee does the same work that the Spiritual
Master is doing bodily, which is to radiate the physical
body to the point that it becomes energy.

The Adept is, in addition, returned to the
pre-evolutionary stages through which he has already passed.
His work is now to bring others to the same Realization by
drawing them into his field of force. Thus, the Spiritual
Master must stay involved in all of the games of those he
presumes to be in his field of influence. He must play with
them, deal with them, and suffer the same limits that they
do. That relationship is the Truth of the spiritual process.
It is the esoteric teaching. The Spiritual Masters field of
energy includes and works on that of his devotee. The
devotee cooperates with that transformation through all his
psycho-physical functions. He can retard the process, or he
can serve its fulfillment. That physics is the real esoteric
teaching, and it is knowable basically only by experience,
only by entering into it. Then you are able to confess it;
then you are part of that process. Such people are the
community of true devotees.

DEVOTEE: I would like to think that we cannot ultimately
retard that process though. Is this true, Bubba?

BUBBA: When everything returns to Infinity you will be
there, too-I suppose that is what you mean by “ultimately.”
You can retard the process of your transformation for a long
time certainly. That is why people come and go from my
Company, you see. They cannot let the process happen. They
differentiate themselves and bring it all to an end. They
settle for some ordinary development of their own limited
body-mind. But even those who stay are always living in
stress, always maintaining the problem situation, always
failing at creating a foundation of sanctuary for the Church
community. Thus, you see, everybody is working against true
existence all the time.

What have you all been doing? You are beginning to
acknowledge that you are serious about religious practice
and that you intend to do it. But practicing religion is
another matter. You are practicing a discipline that
fundamentally is a modestly healthful way to live, both
physically and mentally, but you are living in stress. You
are living in the mind of stress, negativity, and fear. You
live a frenzy of fear, always eating and sexing.

The sex drive in human beings, for example, is simply a
product of the evolutionary state we are presently
presuming. We live in stress, with the verbal mind awake and
the sympathetic nervous system pounding us out into the
world. The body has its own messages. When you have to
confront mortality in every moment, then the body sets up
stress chemistry that helps it to function in various ways.
That stress chemistry keeps the verbal or problem-solving
mind active, and, among other things, it keeps us sexually
driven constantly. Thus, human beings do not have a few
weeks of every year when they are interested in sex. Sex is
a continuous capacity as well as an obsession. Whatever the
psychology of your relationship to sex, sexual obsession is
fundamentally the stress chemistry of the body urging you to
constant and superfluous reproduction.

The human male produces millions of sperms for one egg-a
superfluity. That superfluity is a sign that Nature wants to
reproduce itself in multiples. The lower creatures multiply
by thousands. Sometimes a single creature will give birth to
thousands. There is in Nature a superfluity of reproductive
energy. The creatures must reproduce themselves constantly
because they instinctively feel that they are threatened,
that they can be eaten. Likewise, human beings have retained
this mechanism, because human beings have not evolved
socially and spiritually into a more inclusive state wherein
both halves of the brain are fully functioning. We are still
living in the jungle, striving to survive against odds.

Our sexual mechanism naturally reflects that negative
approach to existence. Sex is not simply obsession with
pleasure. It is the bodys own obsession with reproducing
itself under stress. If we could eliminate the stress
factor, you see, and enter whole bodily into the field of
Life, in which there is no fear, our sexuality then would
also be transformed. All of the energies of the body are
converted and balanced then, and you cease to be sexually
obsessed, because sexual obsession is fundamentally a
reproductive urge. The energy that we enjoy in the body
during the full and loving enjoyment of mature sexuality
should be our blissful enjoyment all the time, not just
during sex, you see.

DEVOTEE: Bubba, it seems that the lower the species, the
more it reproduces.

BUBBA: Human beings reproduce fairly slowly, usually one
child at a time. But the urge to reproduction still
represents this superfluous sexual energy, the reproductive
urge. Once one egg is fertilized, a woman may not conceive
for nine months. Then she bears one child usually, and she
usually cannot begin that cycle again for several months! So
perhaps a woman can reproduce once a year. Why then does the
male produce superfluous reproductive chemistry? Why not
mate once a year, since we can only reproduce once a year?
Because the body is programmed for superfluity. It has the
feeling that it is threatened and that therefore it must
reproduce itself. The body is constantly giving itself the
signal that it should be reproducing itself in

DEVOTEE: Are women less committed to the reproductive
urge then?

BUBBA: It is true that the woman does not produce many
eggs at one time. She usually produces one. Thus, the womans
body is conserving the production of eggs, because she can
be impregnated only once in any case. Nevertheless, the
erotic urge is continuous in the woman, because of the urge
that we should always be involved in the reproductive

This obsessive urgency is a product of the stress of the
lower-adapted human being. The higher chemistries of the
body that stimulate the right brain and higher functioning
are not being developed. Except for a few rudimentary vital
activities and thinking of the lower mind, the brain is
basically asleep. There is not much of a psyche, not much of
a force of life. We are living under stress, more or less in
the animal mode, somewhat higher than the animal because we
have this capacity to think and to solve problems, and to
make machines and such. But basically we are still
functioning within that realm of the threatened existence of
beings who get eaten. Thus, we animate the urge to reproduce
because we feel that everybody is being eaten! We feel,
bodily, that everybody is prey to something else.

In fact we see the drama of hunter and prey all over the
world. Listen to the news! People are being killed all over
the Earth every day, simply murdered in weird conflicts.
Such a dreadful circumstance is just part of the unevolved
state of Man. Everybody asks “Why are we doing this?” But
nobody has come up with any reason to stop doing it! We
could just as easily change our circumstance. Why dont we
just change it then? The animal is still in our hormones,
you see. Our body chemistry is still keying us to live like
the creature. Thus, we must have conflicts and opponents. We
must eat and be devoured ourselves.

At the same time we can also observe this mechanism in
ourselves from a more highly evolved point of view, so we
feel somewhat confused about our situation. We would like
our existence to be different, but people in general are not
yet moving toward anything significantly different. Thus,
the world is still a lower-adapted, subhuman world. Perhaps
some people are a little more highly evolved-people who can
live an apparently moral, ecstatic, spiritual life-but they
are not common. Most people are living under stress, and
they do not know enough to create sanctuary for

To create sanctuary is the one true urge, the primal
urge. In other words, we are looking for a human and natural
environment in which we can live without stress chemistry.
We want to be transformed bodily. And we know, deeply,
psychically, that we cannot realize that transformation
until we can create the culture in which people can live
without stress. Sanctuary is the motive for spiritual

Because we believe that we are not surviving, that we are
under threat, we die early. We think that it is
extraordinary to live to the age of sixty-five or eighty.
Our expected life span is better than it was even a few
decades ago, but still it is no time at all. And we live
under stress the whole time! Very little can be accomplished
in such a span. We are always dropping the body and having
to begin again. You must find the ways to overcome the
stresses, to transform the chemistry of the body literally,
so that you can live long and without stress, both chemical
and social, or cultural. Such a life is not possible for a
group of people until they create sanctuary with one
another, a mutually protected, stable, basically
unthreatened way of life.

“We are threatened!” is the message of the news. It
reminds us of our situation. The program of the news is all
about people who are threatening one another, either with
terrible violence or with just social nastiness, the
exploiting of one another. Loveless society is basically the
idea that we constantly reinforce in one another. We teach
each other and we pass on to our children all the techniques
for living as a stressful personality that reinforce the
negative content of social interaction. We believe bodily,
stressfully, that our life cannot, even should not, be long,
that it is not good to be alive in the body, that we are
supposed to go elsewhere. We have all these ideas that are
Life-negative in bodily terms, but the ultimate way of
Enlightenment is to become Life-positive in bodily terms,
which is just the reverse of what we are tending to do.
Human beings are living way down at the bottom of their
evolutionary potential. Nevertheless, if you can personally,
and with a few others, grasp the higher realities of the
mechanisms in which you live, then you can practice a Way of
life that stimulates those factors. You must have sanctuary,
a relatively protected world, to do that because you must
live in a way that is not compatible with the way other
people want to live. So you must eliminate stress, bodily.
Under stress, in fear, mortally self-conscious, we are
poisoning ourselves with our own chemistry. All those
negative reactions are actually setting up signals for the
body so that it will function as an animal strives to

DEVOTEE: Some of us were talking about this last night
and we realized that each individual must die.

BUBBA: Yes. But we think about death in terms of the end
of a lifetime. We do not want to give up to death until we
are actually dying in bed. But the urge to death contains
the secret of evolution. The bodily capacity for death, for
giving itself up to the Life-Principle, is its primary
evolutionary mechanism. It is our resistance to death, in
every moment, that creates negative life-chemistry. We are
always protecting ourselves under stress, living with a
tightness over the heart. We feel afraid to die, and we are
always afraid. We are constantly contemplating death. The
fact of it is awesome, overwhelming. We are always thinking
about it! In our social superficiality we talk about sex and
violence, but we are always dwelling on and mulling over

Thus, you live your whole life afraid, trying to be
relatively free of anxiety. You have a sufficient number of
pleasures in your life to help you overcome a basic sense of
absolute terror, a continuing, underlying fear. But you are
always afraid you are going to die. Always! Death is what we
do not talk about, you see. You are expected to be cool, and
charming, and sexual, and full of pleasure; and you are
expected to be a moral person, and to do good deeds and to
learn a lot. You must be all these things, but you are
scared. You know you are being this thing that may drop dead
at any moment. That knowledge makes you reluctant to engage
life and relationships and love.

Your religious practice must deal very explicitly and
directly with that fear, and deal with it in physical terms.
You must also deal with it in psychological and personal
terms, relational terms, that is true, but fundamentally it
is a physical matter. At the heart, you are under the stress
of the death threat, all the time. Therefore, you must
release the heart into Life, by giving yourself up to death
in every moment. Then the whole process of the bodys
chemistry changes. When you have already died in this
moment, when you have already given yourself up to the point
of death, when you have surrendered into Life perfectly, you
do not have any fear because you have already done it. You
must feel into the threat of death in every moment. It is
not a matter of being morbid. It is a matter of giving
yourself up to energy and Life. Lose yourself. Realize

You wonder why you feel so rotten, why you must take
things into the body, like alcohol or drugs, in order to
feel good. Such intoxicants do something to the body that
you should be doing for yourself, but you are just not able
to do it. You are afraid. Thus, you are always making
choices that protect you in your fear. Protecting yourself
is basically what you are doing for your entire life, until
finally you do die. It could happen in any moment. What is
it going to be like? Your breathing stops, you strangle, and
your body rots! What will you have left then? You do not
know, and it is scary. Right? So you put everything aside
for death. In the future you will confront death if it has
to come, but in the meantime you protect yourself, and
protection becomes your whole life. But you should be dying
now. You must trust whatever your life is. It put you into
being, so you already depend on it. It is what you are, and
you must be willing to surrender to it and then let it show
you the bodys secret. But you will never realize it while
contracted and full of stress.

Real life, then, the higher evolutionary process, is a
basic matter of surrendering from the heart in every moment
and feeling to the point of dissolution or ecstasy. Only
that practice stimulates the body differently. Until you
begin to stimulate pleasure in the body differently, in the
native way, you will have no means for feeling as good as
you may feel when you are artificially intoxicated. You will
never in an ordinary moment feel that good. You may calm
down a little, but you will not eliminate stress chemistry
altogether. Even though nothing is particularly threatening
in this room right now, we are still living recoiled, afraid
of death. We are always under that stress, you see, and that
is the stress that we must eliminate, not just our ability
to react to some immediate threat, but our chronic stress,
our chronic fear of death.

Thus, you must actually be prepared, in your feeling, to
die in every moment. Then you will begin to change in all
the other ways. Then you can truly take up the disciplines
of religious practice. You must “hear” me first and enter
into the Communion of relationship with me in which all of
these disciplines become more and more mature.