Transcend Your Invisible Script





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Myth, Dreams and Reality – Adi Da Samraj –
1992

 

The Ego Does Not Sleep

Transcending Your Invisible
Script

In his writings on the
human psyche, Freud was not merely philosophizing about the
Oedipal” complex. His
judgments and interpretations were based on the evidence
that he acquired through his thorough examination of people,
and his published works include the reports of that
evidence. Although Freud’s view of life was limited as
a philosophy, he nevertheless did develop clinical evidence
about the origins of the lives of human beings as sexual
personalities. This evidence is confirmed in my experience –
not only my own early-life experience, but my observation of
everyone. Everyone has a unique, characteristic manner of
demonstrating the psychology of the “Oedipal”
complex, just as everyone demonstrates the character of
“Narcissus” in a unique fashion, through a unique
history.

Everyone is living out an unconscious force in the
reaction of the body-mind-persona to the mother and father.
This reaction had its source in the circumstance of infancy
and early childhood, before any kind of a mind develops.
This unconscious reaction parents is not the product of
thinking. It was the product of a very primitive situation
wherein there was no analytical activity.

 

“The root of the
“Oedipal” complex is not a big incident that
happened in the past. You are presently re-inacting it in
every moment of your unconscious
life.”

 

The body-mind-persona is living out a drama as if someone
else had written the scrip – and most people will live out
that drama to the end, unless its principle is understood
and becomes a matter of responsibility.

Everyone tends to think of themselves as a person who
lives by choice. The ego, the sense of ‘I’, likes to think
of itself as the one in control, making choices and doing
what it wants. Yet, the ego, this sense of ‘me’ is already
programmed by an invisible script. You do not really have a
life of intention. You begin to notice that you are merely
living out a script that is unconscious, and, therefore,
typically invisible to you.

When you truly observe this, then the business of life
becomes something entirely different from living out a drama
of existence, whether voluntarily or involuntarily. The
script is utterly non-necessary and mysterious. This is why
I call everyone to examine this patterning. You can take
responsibility for your unconscious script, without even
having to do anything to it. You simply stand beyond it and
begin to live a different life.

If you will examine yourself in terms of your history –
including your characteristic patterns of reaction, of
relating to people, of emotional-sexual habits, and so on –
you will eventually begin to see a pattern that is otherwise
invisible and not mentalized – in other words, that is
pre-mental. It is characterized as unconscious, but not in
the sense that it is asleep. It is unconscious in the sense
that it does not exist in the form of the thinking mind.
Actually, the egoic pattern is always awake. Even when you
go to sleep and dream at night, it is still making images
for you. It does not go to sleep any more than Consciousness
Itself goes to sleep.

Like everyone else, you tend to refer to the thinking
mind as “yourself”, and you depend on the thinking
mind for information, data, and beliefs – even for
presumptions about Truth and Reality. Nevertheless, you must
look beyond the mind into the patterning itself, to the
content that is pre-verbal – that is not verbal at all, in
fact. You must begin to observe the force that lies
underneath your verbal presentation of yourself, your
constant thinking about yourself and your presumed
problems.

If you will enter into such direct investigation of
yourself, you will begin to observe the evidence of an
unwritten script, an undescribed character. You are this
“Oedipal” character, but you do not identify
yourself as such. To the waking (or thinking) mind, it
generally seems that the “Oedipal” script does not
exist. In your “consideration”, therefore, you
must look for the concrete evidence of it. Dreams, reveries,
and thoughts can give you evidence of it, yes – but, far
more directly, patterns of behavior reveal it to you.

You need not delve deep into some unconscious or
subconscious domain to discover this script. You simply must
consistently observe your actual behavior, your actual
reactions, your actual patterns. The patterns of the
body-mind are being produced by the same unconscious that
produces dreams. The evidence of this fact is not hidden. It
is right there all the time.

If you will thus observe yourself, there may well be
memories that you might suddenly be able to grasp – but,
nevertheless, the “Oedipal” script is pre-mental.
Observe yourself until you begin to see the pattern that it
is describing, until you see the picture it is describing,
and you will see that your present relations with people of
the opposite sex and people of the same sex are being
determined by an infantile reaction to your relations with
your parents. Before you had any sophisticated mind at all,
you interpreted your situation in a certain manner and felt
yourself to be the opposite to one parent and the same as
another. You were played upon by what you observed as an
infant, even though you did not quite understand it. The
situation of your childhood provided the basis for your
reaction to all of your experiences, and you developed the
early-childhood persona in more and more complex ways as you
became more and more experienced.

Even now, you are simply perpetuating the infantile
sexual situation. Until you understand yourself most
fundamentally, the sexual persona that you are animating is
about two years old. You are being a child in your sexual
relationships – not a mature adult in your twenties,
thirties, forties, and so on. You are animating the same
persona that began as an infant, before you had a mind or
any social sophistication, when you were no longer on the
breast but were not yet very socialized – when you were
about two years old. Fundamentally, as the key persona in
this script, you designed your role on the basis of your
interpretation of that primitive situation.

If you are a heterosexual male, you felt you were the
lover of your mother. Your father had sexual relations with
her in which she participated voluntarily. You felt betrayed
by that situation, you wanted her, and you have been playing
out that script ever since – not because it is in your
memory, but because you are always “with your
mother”. You encounter your mother in every woman.

If you are a heterosexual female, you felt you were the
lover of your father. Your father had sexual relations with
your mother, and now you are jealous and in conflict with
all other women and you feel betrayed by all males.

The sexual partner is always the parent. There is no
ambiguity about this whatsoever from the “point of
view” of the so-called “unconscious”
personality. That persona, if you are a male, is always
relating to a woman as your mother, the one with whom you
had the initial love-relationship, the one who betrayed you,
and so on. And for the female, just the opposite is the
case: The man is always the father. As a male, the
relationship you had with your mother in your early life
(from infancy into your teens) will characterize you in
relation to all other women. And as a female, the
relationship you had with your father in your early life
will characterize you in relationship to men. If you observe
yourself, you will see that this pattern is absolutely the
case.

Women who had a kind of sexy playfulness in relationship
to their fathers tend to be sexy with all men. They do not
settle down with anybody. They are there to be with
everybody, because the one with whom they had the primitive
relationship was somehow sexy with them. There were no
barriers to sexual feelings in relation to that one. Because
all men are effectively that same one, all men are desirable
and all men are potential sex partners.

Where there was no overtly sexual relationship with the
parent of the opposite sex, the feeling of betrayal
predominates. The parent of the opposite sex had a sexually
intimate relationship with another person of your own sex,
so you feel betrayed. Another typical situation is that some
parents not only did not have relations with their children,
but did not seem to be having any sexually intimate
relationship with one another. They seemed to be non-sexual,
perhaps even anti-sexual. Thus, instead of the feeling of
betrayal there may be problems with sexual dysfunction, such
as emotional coldness, the inability to be openly sexual,
the inability to explore sexuality, and so forth.

Therefore, a range of sexual types exist, from the
promiscuous type to the frigid type who cannot be involved
with sex at all. In between, there is the stereotypical,
so-called “sane”, sexual personality who marries,
settles down, and plays out this invisible script.

2.

In the case of every male, all women are his mother, and
his body is also his mother. In the case of every female,
all men are her father and her body is her father. In other
words, you characteristically relate to bodily existence as
you relate to the opposite sex.

I am speaking in general terms, and there are variations
on this basic pattern, such as in the case of homosexuality.
Yet, even where variations exist, the pattern that I have
described is essentially still true. As
“Narcissus”, you are in conflict with your body –
because it is going to die, because it can become diseased,
can become involved in all kinds of circumstances that are
not desirable or pleasurable. When you enter bodily into
undesirable circumstances, you react just as you react to a
person of the opposite sex. When the body is pleasurized and
in a good circumstance, you treat the body as your lover, as
an “other” with whom you are involved in the
dynamic fashion of sexuality.

Basically, you have a sexual relationship with your
body—the same relationship that you have with all
persons who are sexually interesting to you—and you are
living out that drama constantly. Sometimes you feel good
about the body, and sometimes you do not. You animate
various strategies with it. Ultimately, however, you feel
betrayed, because it is clear to you it is going to die. You
can develop a dependent relationship with it, fall in love
with it, be it, and dramatize its life—but,
nevertheless, sooner or later it is going to go. And it will
betray you in all kinds of unpleasurable ways even before
then. It will undergo all kinds of changes in which you will
have not the slightest interest.

As a consequence, you feel in conflict with this body.
You treat it as an “other”. Likewise, you treat
the “world” as an “other”, and you are
in conflict with the “world”. The same is true of
you in relation to all sex partners. In other words, you do
not stand in the present moment with whatever arises,
because you are contracting into your presumed
“inwardness” and separateness. You do not
“know” the prior unity—that this body is you,
that everyone is you, that the “world” is you,
that all of this is you, is one with you, is not something
with which you are in a relationship as if you were a
“something else”. The body is arising within the
Inherently Perfect, Inherently egoless, and Perfectly
Subjective Divine Being, Truth, and Reality.

There is more to this “Oedipal” matter than
Freud examined, because he was limited by his own
“Oedipal” problems, his philosophical limitations,
his egoic state, and his lack of Illumination and
Enlightenment. On the other hand, he is part of a process
that reminds people about the human drama that is really
going on. I Call you to understand the same thing that Freud
was talking about, but I Call you to come to that
understanding through a greater process than the one that
Freud indicated. I hope that you appreciate the great
difference between the indirect approach of remembering your
past or interpreting your dreams and the direct approach of
observing the pattern that is arising in every moment.

People cannot truly enter into the realm of sexual
relations with any other until they transcend this
“Oedipal” relationship with their parents. And,
first, they must find out that the “Oedipal”
situation is their situation—not by trying to get rid
of it in any way, or by trying to get enough memories of it
so that it disappears, but by observing all their patterns,
and “knowing” themselves thoroughly in the context
of devotion to That Which Stands Prior to the ego, Prior to
the mind.

By becoming one with your own body, you will cease to be
in conflict with yourself and the “world”. You
must cease to be living an invisible script, and must become
capable of a free, happy and right life.

The Freudian techniques do not have ultimate
significance. Freud’s description, based on his
experiences of people, does indicate something very real
about everyone—yet, the process whereby the patterning
is transcended is another kind of process altogether, and it
is based on a different understanding. The
“Narcissistic”, “Oedipal”, or egoic
“bond” is broken—not by relating to it as
something deep inside you that must be rooted out and
destroyed, but by observing this pattern that is arising in
every moment and being what is prior to the hidden
script.

No amount of mere analysis, or remembering the
extraordinary incidents of your childhood, or dreaming
dreams and interpreting them in Freudian, Jungian, or
anybody else’s style can undo this script. The root of
the “Oedipal” complex is not a big incident that
happened in the past. You are presently re-inacting it in
every moment of your unconscious life.

You simply must observe its patterning in this moment and
in every moment. Instead of being that patterning, you must
observe and understand it and Stand in the Position of
Freedom which is Prior to it. To do so is a natural process.
Simply practice this disposition as I Instruct you to
do.


Notes:

The Greek Myth of Oedipus

King Laius of Thebes was warned by a Delphic oracle that
he would be killed by his son. When his wife Jocasta gave
birth to a boy, the king ordered that the baby’s feet
be bound together and that the infant be taken into the
mountains and abandoned, presumably to die. A shepherd found
the child and brought it to Polybus, king of Corinth, who
raised the child as his own son, giving him the name
“Swollen Foot”—Oedipus. When Oedipus grew to
manhood, he was warned by an oracle that he would kill his
father and marry his mother. Seeking to avoid such a fate,
he fled from Corinth to wander in self-imposed exile.

Meanwhile, King Laius undertook a journey to Delphi by
chariot. On a narrow road he met another chariot, driven by
a young man. The king’s attendant ordered the young man
off the road so that the king could pass. When the man
refused, in retribution the attendant killed one of the
young man’s horses. Inflamed by rage, the young Oedipus
slew the king, not knowing him to be his own father.

Shortly thereafter, Oedipus learned that Thebes was under
siege by the Sphinx, a monster with a lion’s body, an
eagle’s

wings, and a woman’s bust and head. Creon, acting
regent of Thebes since Laius’s death, offered the
throne and the queen’s hand in marriage to any man who
could rid Thebes of this monster. The Sphinx stopped all who
approached Thebes and posed the riddle: “What creature
goes on four feet in the morning, on two at midday, and on
three in the evening?” To answer wrongly was to die.
Oedipus gave the correct answer: “Man, who crawls on
hands and feet as a child, walks erect in adulthood, and
hobbles on a cane in old age.” The Sphinx killed
herself in dismay, bestowing on Oedipus the ill fortune to
unknowingly win his own mother in marriage.

For a time, it appeared to Oedipus that the oracle was
wrong. He and Jocasta lived a happy life, far from Polybus
and Corinth, and Thebes prospered. Their children grew to
adulthood. Then, suddenly, Thebes was struck by the double
disaster of plague and drought. Oedipus consulted the
oracle, who stated that only the discovery and punishment of
Laius’s murderer would set things right. Oedipus
initiated the search, only to discover the awful truth: The
killer was none other than himself, the husband of his
mother and the murderer of his father. Upon hearing the
news, Jocasta hanged herself. Oedipus plucked out his own
eyes and became a homeless wanderer until he died.




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