Emotion and the Ordeal of Self-Understanding – Adi Da Samraj







 

The Realization of
Love Changes All Emotional and Egoic Complexes

The Ordeal of
Self-Understanding

Adi Da Samraj
June 5,
1992

The
following exercise by Beezone was taken from a video talk by
Adi Da Samraj, edited and adatped. See Beezone White and
Orange Project for details.

You
must commit yourself bodily, beyond your fear and reluctance
in dealing with your emotional life. This occurs at the base
of the body, at the base chakra. Strong feelings are rooted
there, feelings you are not in touch with, unconscious. When
you get in touch with these base feelings, sorrow, fear and
anger will arise. And when these feelings arise you will
want to stop the process of getting in touch with
them. 

The principle
mood
at the root of your
emotional life is fear. Fear arises in and as separation or
individuation. Separation from what? From the Source! In the
infant the source is the mother, in the adult it’s the
Divine Reality. This Source is prior to mind and prior to
thought. In the child the mind isn’t fully developed yet.
But in the adult, with your developed mind you must get in
touch with this primary emotional matter and allow what was
previously unconscious to become conscious. When
consciousness is ‘applied’ to what was previously unobserved
the possibility of growth in the emotional realm of your
life can become observed and hopefully understood and
transcended. If not, these unconscious feelings, down at the
root, will control your life.

 

“If you are ever
going to establish a firm intimacy with anyone, you must
deal with all these emotions and become emotionally
clarified.”

 

In this basic fear your manifest
personality may develop as a very controlling person or one
who needs to be controlled by others. Security may be a
dominant and aggressive trait of your personality and
therefore your psychology. You may need to dominate others,
control others or be controlled by others to avoid feeling
this underlining fear. You may develop as a very passive
individual basically asleep needing always to consol
yourself with food and experiences in the vital arena. You
may develop as a couch potato or a bungie jumper all in
reaction to your basic underlining fear. Becoming numb or an
adrenaline junkie are two extremes in this type of
personality development. Another unconscious strategy in
dealing (or avoiding) this basic underlying emotion is more
of a mental approach one that shows itself as a strong
intellectual or mental type of person, book worm, a
scientist a scholar. A type of person who basically cuts off
this root feeling by existing only in the mind.

Below is a chart designed from the
teachings of Adi Da. Adi Da observed and described three
distinct character types, or ways in which individuals tend
to dramatize egoity in the first three stages of life. He
calls these three strategies “solid”, “peculiar”, and
“vital”.

The chart below outlines the
attitudes of each of these three strategies.

 

SOLID
PECULIAR
VITAL

PRINCIPLE MOTIVATING
MOOD

Fear

Sorrow

Anger

STAGE OF LIFE

First Stage

Second Stage

Third Stage

ASSOCIATED WITH

Vital shock of
birth

loss of self-security and
loss of power over others on whom one
depends

struggle with motives of
independence and dependence and aggressive effort
toward genital victory

CHARACTER

obsessively
self-controlling and other-controlling

alternately idealistically
(and thus mentally) self-controlled and chaotically
self-indulgent

characteristically vitally
(or physically) self-indulgent

FOUNDATION MOOD

fear of being controlled by
others (or conditions outside the
body-mind-self)

yearning to be effectively
touched or loved and a call and hysterical need (or
search) to be controlled, or restored to balance by
a positive controlling influence

chronic effort to resist,
refuse, or avoid the controlling influence of
others (or even the mind) on the bodily existence
of the conditional self

REACTION TO FEELING OR
ACTUAL EXPERIENCE OF BEING

too much controlled by
others, especially adults

neglected, denied love, and
denied a positive controlling influence

too much controlled by
others, especially adults

“STYLE” OF
REACTION

passive and rather
infantile

hysterical and rather
childish

aggressive and rather
adolescent

STRATEGY

mental (or mentally
“solid”, or strategically, and, principally, by
means that exploit the conceptual mind,
invulnerable)

emotional (or emotionally
“peculiar”, and, perhaps, or sometimes, even
hysterical)

vital (or “vitally”, and,
perhaps, or sometimes, even “grossly”,
physical)

DOMINATE
CHARACTER-ISTIC

hyperactivity of the
conceptual mind

excessively “romantic” (or
even sentimental) and idealistic (or unrealistic)
expectations (that are inevitably frustrated) and
the loss of balance

obsessive and compulsive
vital-physical self-expression


see
more
on the three
primary characteristics of the Solid, Vital and Peculiar
personalities

 

Above these frontal-line emotions is
the heart, or love. And there are greater energies beyond
that, and of course there is a greater participation beyond
the frontal line.

This sequence of dramatizations is a
very natural, even ultimately mechanical, sequence that you
can observe and point out in others. This does not mean, of
course, that you just go on to love from anger. You could
drop back into sorrow, and drop back into fear. However,
when emotion becomes anger, you feel that everything has
come to an end.

The root of this dramatization of
reactive emotion is the feeling of love itself. All these’
emotions are a play upon a basic feeling of affection, a
love feeling. Having put love on the line, you are afraid,
you get sorrowful, and then you are angry. You tend to drop
down from anger into sorrow and wanting to hold on
again.

“Mutual love
conducts the Radiant Power of Life, and it purifies each of
us of our accumulations of independent, subjective, and
mortal experience”
Intimacy
Is the Healing Principle

If you are ever going to establish a
firm intimacy with anyone, you must deal with all these
emotions and become emotionally clarified. In your egoity,
you rarely get in touch with the core of true feeling, or
love. Your capability for detachment and lovelessness is
exactly what you must deal with. The realization of actual
love changes all these egoic complexes.

 

Further reading and
study:

Vitals,
Peculiars, and Solids and the Primal Qualities of Universal
and Bodily Life

The
Frontal Line
– The
descending current

Discriminative
Intelligence and The Seven Stages of
Life
– Laughing Man Magazine



Observe Your Pattern –
Adi Da Samraj, January
30, 1996

*
What’s interesting and
useful about noticing a pattern early in your life is to see
that the pattern is right now.

*
It’s not that you have to
struggle with something that happened early in your life –
if you see it there then you can see something about the
pattern which you are enacting right now. And that’s what
you can change.

*
The more fully you are aware
of the pattern in which you are apparently in motion,
certainly the more intelligent, perhaps the more effective
your transcendence of it in every moment

*
It’s the being set straight
that’s the important part,

*
Then functioning in that
straightness, directly, moment to moment, rather than with a
lot of verbal instructions which you have to organize and
rehearse every other moment.

*
The sadhana must become
straightforward.

*
It’s not about building up a
massive structure of mental calculations.

*
It’s a matter of freeing up
the intelligence from confusion and bondage and uninspected
entanglement.



1. The three human
types (vital, peculiar, and solid) are a strategic play on
life, or the Life-Principle, conceived as dilemma or
conflict. That is, the natural play of the etheric (or
Life-Force dimension) and the elemental (gross physical
dimension) has become a strategic or obstructed
dramatization. In each person or, strategy, the conflict is
between the two conditions of Life-Force and body. The vital
person or strategy dramatizes the conflict by irresponsibly
exploiting the bodily possibilities. The peculiar person or
strategy dramatizes the conflict by irresponsibly exploiting
the emotional possibilities, and the Solid person or
strategy does the same by irresponsibly exploiting the
mental possibilities. All three strategies appear at one or
another moment in every individual, even though any one
strategy may be especially characteristic of him.

The key to all these dramatizations
is irresponsibility. That is, the conflict between
Life-Force and body has not been inspected to the point of
consciousness, humor, and responsible control of the
dramatization. Only the mature individual enjoys such
control. Only such a one has become purified of the vital,
peculiar, and solid games of life and has begun, through
love, stably to feed upon the Transcendental Divine Life, or
the Real and Infinite Condition of our existence. And only
such a one, therefore, may enter into the fourth or truly
psychic and spiritualizing stage of life. First there must
be mastery of the negative dramatization of embodied
Life-Force.

Before we can grow into the higher
functions of the body mind, we must become responsible and
balanced in those functions in which we already appear. By
presenting ways of recognizing and compensating for our
irresponsible vital, peculiar, and solid habits, Bubba Free
John has created a whole body psychology that radically
challenges all conventional psychological systems and
therapies. The conventional approaches only indulge the
individual’s problematic self-imagery through endless
subjective analysis and mental or conceptual insights. But
such approaches never do affect the vital-physical and
emotional roots of our dis-ease and lovelessness. In
contrast, the approach presented in this chapter-and
throughout this book-requires us to heal and harmonize the
body-mind through a practical change of action. Bubba Free
John asserts that “subjectivity follows action”: When the
body and energy are used in a new and lawful way, based upon
whole body insight, or inspection via true feeling, the old
interior patterns of self-possession and disharmony
gradually become obsolete.

One of the most important forms of
new action, in compensating for our strategic imbalances and
forms of self-possessed suffering, is a new, disciplined,
and wholly intelligent approach to diet. This is a radical
and also homely suggestion in the midst of today’s
conceptually sophisticated systems of mental health. In The
Free Communion Church, we have found that the single most
dramatically effective therapeutic measure for all
apparently mental, nervous, and psychological disorders or
chronic difficulties is a change of diet based upon the
observations and recommendations offered in this chapter. In
fact, by applying these dietary regimens within a total life
of practical, devotional, and moral disciplines, men and
women with significant social and psychological liabilities
have adapted to a balanced and productive life in the
culture of The Free Communion Church. Along with others
whose imbalances were more “normal” (or less exaggerated)
but who have experienced equally profound healing and
harmonization, such men and women have gone on to evolve in
experience and mature in true spiritual practice.

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