On The Edge
Beezone compliation based on the teaching of Adi Da Samraj
If you are not obliged by right understanding of your practice to submit yourself in totality to the spiritual process, you could seem to be even an advanced practitioner at any moment. However, if you are obliged to consistently demonstrate a stage of practice beyond your level of real responsibility, you begin to show signs of difficulty. You simply cannot practice any better than you practice at the feeling level, in the emotional domain of your hidden personality that only comes forward in difficult confrontations. You practice no better or deeper than that. That dimension must be brought to school. If it has not been touched, then you are still in the domain of listening, and listening is your discipline, then. If you assume any other discipline, you will either show signs of obvious emotional aberration or you will simply magnify your relatively feelingless social personality, which looks like it has got it all together. You will be an idealistic character who can conform to orderly patterns rather easily. Of course, none of that has anything to do with practice.
Be manly, man or woman. This is My advice – you do what you will. Believe that every moment of life is on the edge. Wakeup! You do not want to, because to be on the edge, to be truly mortal, means you must suffer pain in your heart in every moment of your existence here in this body-every moment. You all know who is doing the really important worki n life among ordinary human beings. It is the people who are dying. They are on the edge of having to deal with everything which has to be dealt with and they have no options. And there is no relief. None. Not with sex, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, politics-nothing can relieve you of this heart-pain that is true to life. Nothing. Only this devotion to Me, to My Sign here, only you embracing Me, wakes up the capability for love with all your friends and lovers. That is the great love. All your faces will be eaten by worms like the faces of all the millions that came before you. Do not be stupid! No one is protected! NO ONE! Everyone is dying. Everyone is threatened. Wake up at heart. Truly!Truly!
Real practice of the Way of the Heart is to be on the edge moment to moment, always stepping back from reactivity, desires, search towards objects and others, stepping back from all of that, in the location of the self-contraction, that unique sensation that precedes all the seeking.
So you must go through that purifying process in the midst of self-frustration, difficulty, binding psychological tendencies, and go beyond them. So the process is purifying all along till the “Perfect Practice” becomes your capability. It relieves knots, you see. And the sign, then, is somebody who’s My devotee, who’s advancing in the practice, is that you are feeling beyond the knots consistently. It’s noticeable by those who know you over time that previously you showed certain kinds of signs in certain situations, had a certain disposition, or whatever -your egoic personality showed itself in some way-and now ten years later, somebody who’s known you all along can notice for you how those things have changed, they’ve disappeared, even, you see. You may feel you’re still dealing with a lot of it on some subtler level, but others notice all kinds of signs in your physical, emotional, and mental qualities, your relational qualities and so on as well, and all your behavior, that its become-one good word for it is benign, relatively En-Lightened, so to speak. In other words, Light has been brought there. You released it in Communion with Meand found the State of Light. It is Radiant, Love-Bliss, not contracted, not negative. And so It shows Itself in everything about you.
So you are presuming darkness or negativity. And you notice everybody you meet, then, in the general attractions of people, is constantly showing signs of going through changes-different every hour, or day, or a week, or year, or whatever-they’re going through all kinds of changes that have to do with being less than Happy, less than enlightened, or “Bright”. They go through signs, in other words, of being, to one or another significant degree, not radiant. They show the sign of being contracted rather than radiant.
Sadhana then is not about the good life, what people would commonly call the good life, the western idea of self-fulfillment. It’s not that at all. However, the person who does sadhana can and rightly should and in general maintain positive life signs, healthful signs, positive relational signs, and so forth, and all these are simply expressions of the dispositions of sadhana in fact.