Love Is a Fierce Force
Adi Da Samraj – April 16, 2000
Avatar Adi Da Samraj in the San Juan Islands
In early April, while visiting Seattle, Avatar Adi Da Samraj accepted the invitation of a devotee to stay at her home in the San Juan Islands just south of the Canadian border, off the coast of Washington State. As He was traveling by ferry to her home, the extremely difficult physical symptoms that seem always to attend moments of crisis and change in Avatar Adi Das Work and which had begun to become evident in the previous days became more severe and reached a critical climax a day or so later when Heart-Master Adi Da came very close to death. At that time, He was taken to a local clinic, where it was confirmed that He was not suffering a heart attack but a form of physical shut down that takes place as a result of great and prolonged stress. Shortly afterwards, weak but re-covering, Adi Da spoke about what had taken place, obviously making a great effort to communicate about His symptoms and experience and Work in a way that others can grasp:
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: I cannot describe My Blessing Work in a way that makes all that much sense to you except to say that I actually participate, all the time, in the events and circumstances that potentially effect the global possibilities of mankinds survival but I do so outside of the physical.
In the physical, I have the possibility to associate with people and to Work with them Spiritually in order to change the global pattern. But that work is frustrated by the fact that individuals who are most influential in the world do not yet come to Me for My Blessing. Thus, the stress of that very difficult and even terrible Work that I must and need to do with My Blessing is frustrated. And the body is not coping with it. [Humorously:] My healing is thus a matter of changing the conditions of My Life, because it is not a matter of an attitude change! I dont have an emotional problem! I am not going to stop doing the Work I am here to do. I need the conditions of My Work to change and I need to be able to get on with what I am here to do in Spiritual terms.
This Body has been living in an extraordinarily difficult situation for a long time. Not difficult in the conventional sense, but dreadful from the point of view of My Blessing Work. It may seem to others that My circumstance is perfectly comfortable, but they are not doing what I am doing. In terms of the Work I am here to do I am limited at every turn. I do not have time to wait nor time to convalesce. The world situation that is potentially terrible for everyone is happening right now and must be Worked with right now.
My urgency to Work does not, in itself, create stress in this body because I can do something about it. I can Work. But if My Work is impeded, that creates the problem. And if the conditions are such that I cannot do what I would do about this beyond a point, then I am required to do that Work in a way that is weakening Me physically. I am doing the Work anyway, but it is destroying Me bodily.
So, some of My physical stress, you could say, is the result of My urgency the stress of being urgent and also frustrated. But it is not a personal matter, as if I am needing to do something personally, for personal reasons. I am simply looking at you all and at what is really happening in this world.
I see what is happening here and you all do not. It is for your sake that I know what is happening here. Since I do know, I must do something about it. I am urgent to do something about it. I am doing something about it. But I should not have to do it the way I am doing it now, which is creating so much suffering in this body and is really not necessary.
My Impulse to deal with all of the dreadful potential as well as the present world-realities is frustrated because I cannot see the uniquely influential individuals whom I need to see. Even so, when I sit here and Work with devotees and contact people, I do feel betterbecause I can do something with the energy of this Impulse. I need to be Working in this way now to be well. I need to do something with this energy or it just backs up on Me and frustrates My Intention. [Just four days later Avatar Adi Da began to grant Darshan twice a day to devotees. It was obvious that these occasions were helping Him to remain associated with the body and that He was gradually regaining strength.]
The usual locks on the human brain are not there in Me as in others. I dont have the pattern, the defenses, the armoring, the unconsciousness. I am not trying to open the Sahasrar [the subtle center, or chakra, at the crown of the head]. It doesnt have the opportunity to close down! There is a constant openness. And so when the conditions become too strained in the physical, then the Work I am doing outside the physical comes down into the physical and becomes these physical symptoms you have witnessed recently.
The other evening [referring to the most critical moment of His recent health crisis] I barely had the ability to maintain a physical connection. There were just waves of pulsing energies in the physical rather than the ordinary, physical awareness. I kept saying to you, Let Me see My feet because the energy, as in death, was ascending. That is just how death occurs, you see. The numbing was coming up the body and it would come up into My throat and into My mouth. I had trouble speaking to everyone because of it. The numbness reached as far as the eyeballs and thats getting close to physical death. The characteristic sound that is heard outside the body as death approaches was getting loud, which signals that the separation of the subtle and the physical is about to occur.
When I would close My eyes I would realize that I shouldnt be closing My eyes because I was going to drop the body altogether if I did. It was night time but I could see the water [referring to the waters that surround the San Juan Islands]. I could see those who were with Me in the room and some others outside the physical.
I kept My eyes open the whole time and kept looking for ways to be physically present here. The Quandra Mai and My daughters talked to me, and other devotees as well were talking to Me in very emotional terms and this, too, was helpful in maintaining the connection to the physical. That was good, and to feel the human love expressed there deeply kept Me in the body. These were the most helpful things that kept Me from going further out of the physical.
For Me, though, its not even a matter of going out. There is nowhere to go. I wasnt going anywhere really. It is just a conventional way to describe the symptoms from the point of view of the body. It isnt that I can or will leave here at death. For Me, the difference between life and death is simply a matter of whether I am situated here in My total Space and Domain or it looks shrunken in this size. I am Sitting in the same Room regardless. It is just that the larger Room does not look like this one. The larger Room is all Light.
So, it was not My intention to be passing at that time. The symptoms were simply occurring. I looked at all the factors to see if it was going to be necessary to pass out of the physical, but the bindu [the central point, or Source Point of the cosmic manifestation] was kept tight. It wouldnt open. And that was good. It made it clear that the passing was not going to happen. If it had opened up into the Whiteness I was sitting in, the body would have passed.
The bindu, or point, I mention is directly in the field of attention forward and up. If you close your eyes and look up, you can see the light there. I did not have to close My eyes to see it, but in any case it remained focused and I remained here physically.
I am just here for beings. I am just here to Work and do what I need to do for everyone. I am related to so unconsciously by human beings. Everybody thinks they are like Me. Everybody is a guru or everybody is a god.
I am uniquely born here and have unique Work to do. And there needs to be a circumstance of devotion and well-being for Me to function in from day to day so that the energies can flow in My Blessing Work and I can Do what I need to do in that regard and so that the larger sphere in which I am functioning does not get sucked down into the body with its bigger-than-human-sized forces. The body cannot survive such invasions repeatedly.
The Fierceness I must maintain outside the body cannot be contained in the physical body. It is not nice. That Fierceness must be equal to what must be changed. The force of what must be changed must be met equally overwhelmingly in fact. With Love, for the sake of everyone.
I am not doing anything destructive whatsoever. It is simply Love-Force. And, therefore, it is extremely vulnerable. And this body is extremely vulnerable. This Vehicle is uniquely made. I have no weapon but Love. But it is a Huge Weapon. And it is also a Fierce Forcenot destructive, but intent. Profoundly intent. Murder for political reasons is something that human beings somehow feel is justifiable. War is murder. It is evil. War is not being carried on by people who think of themselves as evil or who are the embodiment of the devil or anything of the kind. Rather, political justifications are the excuses humanity comes up with for its conflicts.
Political conflicts no longer takes place on the scale of two tribes getting together and beating the shit out of one another. At this point, conflicts that in reality what amount to nothing more than silly, tribal skirmishes can destroy mankind. All of the horror in the daily news is nothing more than reports of tribal skirmishes. But they have the potential to destroy life on earth. That is what is so horrific about it.
W.C. Fields said that he thought the best thing to do about political conflictas an alternative to war would be to send two leaders out onto a hillside with socks full of horseshit and beat the hell out of one another. And the winner determines the outcome.
In the twentieth century more people were killed as a direct result of war than were counted in the entire population of the United States when I was born. This has been the most horrific and obscene period in human history. And while there are all the remarkable technologies and all the discoveries of great principles in the realm of nature that are the sign of human genius, the stupidity relative to the world system is extraordinary.
Look at the terrible situation in Africa the whole continent. Nothing being done for all these poor people. Terrible. Not just nothing being done for them in the social activist sense, but nothing being done to change the ceaseless chaos and the treating of human beings as if they are nothing.
Look at South America. Look at the chaotic interactions and such going on there now. And the Middle East. What can ever come to settle that? Every day it is another drama, another reason why they cannot come to any agreement. And in addition there are terrorists or disturbed, politically motivated individuals who want to draw attention to their cause by getting on TV. So much of the horror that takes places is little more than an effort to get on television. They hope that by getting on television the world will do something for their problem.
When the telegraph was invented in the nineteenth century, people noticed that you could telegraph news from a war front to someplace where people would hear about it in a short time. Likewise, you could communicate instructions over distance.
Well, one of the first things noticed is that the enemy could hear what you said. So they began putting out false information on the telegraph to mislead the enemy. And now we have television and newspapers and all the rest of it in the service of exactly the same tactic. Such public communications are intended to prompt your opponent to think a certain way, react a certain way, be willing to do something, make a concessionwhatever it is, it is all propaganda. Everybody lying and manipulating everybody else in an effort to satisfy their own ends.
Politics is played like a game without any ultimate human concerns being truly served. Each individual and nation plays it for the day for the sake of the advantage they can get in their conflict-negotiation at the moment.
The U.S. is perhaps one of the most hated nations in the world. For that reason, I wanted to be here on the mainland U.S. for awhile. Merely My physical location in places is useful. It can benignly Influence events. Negative things can be reduced in their potential and positive things increased in their potential. I am able to Work most effectively when I am actually in physical locations that have some bearing on it all. That is why I require mobility.
People come and sit with Me. Contact people, for instance, come and offer their gift and sit in front of Me for a moment. They, invariably, receive My Blessing. And I draw them into My Spiritual Pattern. When that connection is made, it continues. If someone does not maintain the devotional connection to Me, that does not mean that what I receive from them in terms of the patterns of the world stops. This is why My devotees must be responsible in relation to Me. Do the sadhana. Maintain right relationship to Me. Cultivate the relationship to Me.
(April 16, 2000)