Culminating gathering of this period, on April 8, 1993
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: People have been seeking Me. Therefore, I Came. I Answered the prayers, and here I Am.
You all must get it. All My devotees must get it. You cannot comprehend most of what I Do. My Concentration, as I told you tonight and before, alsohas been to simply Accomplish My Work, because That had to be Accomplished, regardless of your disinclination, your immaturity and mediocrity. Now it is Accomplished. Now that Work is Done.
You, My devotees, must embrace My Revelation and get down to your business. Tell the truth. Be compassionate. Be truthful but straightforward and loving. I am not here to struggle with anyone now especially, in the extremes of My Lifetime and Work.
Now that My Work is Done, I must simply Confess My Self to you As I Am. So I am Doing it. [March 6, 1993]
In the midst of these profound Revelations about His Divine Nature, Avatar Adi Da was also addressing the matter of His devotees’ practice of the foundations of the Way of Adidam the listening-hearing sadhana. Starting at the end of March and continuing through the first week of April, Avatar Adi Da Samraj confronted the pattern of “Narcissus” in His devotees with overwhelming force:
He was tremendously intensifying His devotees’ sensitivity to the knot of self-contraction, to the point where that cramp would become so present, so obvious, so unbearable, so unnecessary, so absurd…
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: You want Me to talk about your trying to work your life out. Life does not work out! It cannot work out! That is not the Way of Adidam! The Way of Adidam is about ego transcendence, transcending the very thing that seeks to make it all work out! You are wanting Me to address you in this act that you are making to have everything be hunky-dory. And the whole damn thing doesn’t even exist! And that’s what there is to Realize! Absolute Freedom from this illusion that you call “reality” and are trying to make work out perfectly. You are only looking at yourself! That’s all you are ever looking at! And you want it to work out, “Narcissus”. You are looking at all this and you are calling it “the world” but it is you!
All you ever talk about, think about, or perceive is you. It is a private, egoically “self-possessed” illusion. It is a result of your own knot of separateness, and it registers in this poor little slug of a body-mind you identify with as all kinds of illusions, hallucinations, thoughts, presumptions, ideas, perceptions. The whole lot, the whole ball of wax, is all the result of your own separate position, your own point of view, self-contraction, manufacturing illusions on the base of That Which Is Reality Itself. But you have no idea what that Reality is. No notion. You are not associated with Reality Itself, you are dissociated from Reality. That is the whole point!
Well, that being the case, that is what you have to deal with! But you want to persist in your adoration of the “pond”byour experience, your search, and so forthand you are asking Me how to make it work out. I do not have anything to do with the “making-it-work-out” business. I am here to Wake you up! [April 2, 1993]
Avatar Adi Da Samraj cut through every attempt on the part of His devotees to defend themselves from His Criticism. He was tremendously intensifying His devotees’ sensitivity to the knot of self-contraction, to the point where that cramp would become so present, so obvious, so unbearable, so unnecessary, so absurd that they would spontaneously let it go. Late in the night during what turned out to be the culminating gathering of this period, on April 8, 1993, Adi Da brought devotees to that intolerable point. There was a pause while His Radiant Force magnified in the room, melting the clench of “Narcissus”. Then He began to speak differently, quietly:
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: Feel into that knot of stress. Feel into it and account for it. See it as your own action. Regard Me in that moment, in every moment. And then you begin to feel Me. Then the surrender comes, the self-forgetting comes, the native sense of Non-Separateness is felt. This is actually what I am Calling you to do! Actually to do that. Just to be doing it grants equanimity to you, even bodily, grants equanimity to your speech, your actions, your feelings, because you are registering this depth-point and going beyond it and feeling Me. This is the context of practice of the Way of Adidam, not merely outer observances. This is what it means to listen to Me: to be examining this point of contraction in depth, to feel it, and by its unfolding to feel Me. This is not the end of the Way of Adidam. It is the foundation of it. Self-understanding and devotion at depth this is what you must do in every moment. This is what it is to practice the Way of Adidam.
You are basically trying to feel good. Why would you be trying to feel good if you were not already feeling bad? You must understand that, Natively, you always already feel good. But not the way you are doing it. You are not in the Native Position. You are in the position of the self-contraction. If you would Stand Prior to the self-contraction and feel beyond it, you would always already feel good in the most profound heart-sense. It would not make any great difference how the rest of the body-mind felt, because the body-mind is part of the conditional world and is always subject to negative changes and disintegration and death. But when you are in the heart-place, you are Awake. You always already feel good. Always! Already! [April 8, 1993]
By this gathering, many devotees found that they could not snap back as easily as before into a state of immunity to their own act of self-contraction. The heartless machine of the ego was too starkly revealed. There was no lasting relief to be found through any kind of seeking for satisfaction.