The “Reality” You Are Asking
Questions About Is Your Own Illusion

April 22, 1995


Devotee: Beloved Master, what
was the purpose for this whole
of separation
to have
occurred? Why did it have to happen? I have always wanted to
ask this question. I don’t understand.

Adi Da Samraj: You are asking
the question from a point of view of presuming yourself to
be separate. You are engaging in the exercise of naive
realism, just presuming to be a body-mind and seeing reality
from that point of view. And so you ask this question. If
you had practiced to the point of Realization, and could
take all of reality into account, were not merely fastened
in that presumption of separateness, fastened to an
organism, then see if you would still have that

The source of the question is not
that you are looking at all of reality and coming up with a
notion about it. The source of the question is your divorce
from Reality – “How did all this separateness, all this
blah-blah-blah, how did this occur?”, you see. You presume
that separation has occurred, and that it has occurred in
the form in which you perceive it to exist, which is an
illusion based on a gesture of ignorant organism

But, in reality, it is not so.
Reality Itself, Realized, is free of that complication that
is based on your presumption. Reality doesn’t have to
account for the illusion you are suffering from. Reality
doesn’t contain that illusion. What is actually happening is
not what you think, nor what you are presuming. What you are
presuming is an illusion, ultimately. And if there was the
Realization of reality, that question would not exist,
because you would not be suffering the illusion. And then,
seeing even this appearance, perhaps, in that Realized
State, the question would not evolve and it would have no
basis, because Reality is not what you think, or, as
Shakespeare says, “There is more in heaven and earth than is
dreamt of in your philosophy.”

You are constructed in your
questioning by egoic “self-possession”, by illusion, by
results of error, and so on. So you want to account for what
you think to be reality by asking great questions and
wanting great answers. But the question itself is based on
illusion. What you think exists doesn’t exist.

Devotee:I do understand that.
I understand that illusion my question is based on. I just
don’t understand what the point was of this whole

Adi Da Samraj: What event?
The event you are suggesting exists and asking “Whats the
point of it?” is not what it seems to be to you. So there is
no ultimate answer for it-like “Did it come from some Divine
Intention, blah-blah-blah-blah-blah?”, because it doesn’t
exist . Its just a presumption. Reality is actually much
more profound than your question suggests.

Devotee: I intuit that,

Adi Da Samraj: Yes, but then
you still ask, “But why is all of this happening?” All of
what? You see, the “all of this” that you are asking the
“why” of is your illusion of Reality. Your illusion of
reality, then, is your creation. I don’t have to give you
some metaphysical, theological explanation, and so forth,
you see. That reality which you are asking Me about-“Why
does it happen, and whats the point of it?”-is entirely your
creation, and is not a universal reality or condition. Its
entirely your creation, this separate thing and all the rest
of it you perceive on the basis of it, you see. Why did it
happen? You did it. You tell Me-why are you doing this?

Devotee: Well, my question
is, why are any of us doing this?

Adi Da Samraj: Well, I have
thoroughly accounted for it: self-contraction. It doesn’t
have any great purpose. You are doing it out of fear. You
are perceiving reality out of fear, because you have reacted
to your apparent association with a mortal organism, and
your questions come from this. But not only your
questions-your perception of reality comes from this, you
see. So that thing that you’re wondering about-“Why isnt it,
whats the purpose, blah-blah-blah-blah-blah?”- doesn’t have
any purpose. You are doing it.

Devotee: I don’t understand
why, in the whole cosmic creation, this had to

Adi Da Samraj: What you are
presuming to be the whole cosmic creation, or whatever, or
what you are perceiving to be reality, is just an evolute,
an extension, of your own self-contraction. Its not the
universal reality, its your illusion , the result of your
self – contraction ! It doesnt have any purpose, except for
you. You see?

What you perceive to be a universe,
a cosmos of separate things, and blah-blah-blah, doesnt
really exist. Its a result. Your perception suggests that it
is such. It is not in reality such. What you perceive to be
reality is a naive realistic notion based on your own fear,
your own self-contraction. Its not a universal reality. The
universal reality is quite different than you perceive it to
be in your self-contraction. So this great cosmos that you
presume to be a separate something, full of separate
somethings, and separate beings, and so forth, is not so !
It is your presumption, based on a local
activity-self-contraction. And so you must go beyond that,
and, by this Process in My Company, Realize reality itself,
no longer asking questions from the egoic point of view and
no longer perceiving reality from the egoic point of

Then, in that Realization Itself,
your question is answered, vanished, undermined. It no
longer exists, because the illusion doesnt exist, you see.
Then, bereft of illusion, self-contraction, egoity and its
effects, there is the Realization of reality. And the
reality of the cosmic domain is not what you are now
perceiving it to be. Its not that way. I tell you quite
frankly and directly, it is not at all what you are thinking
and perceiving it to be. So that which you are referring to
does not exist, except as an illusion on your part. So its
not a universal reality. Its just an effect of your own

The cause of that thing you are
asking Me to account for is you . Even the cosmic domain is
quite different than you perceive it to be in your
self-contracted illusion. So it doesnt have to be accounted
for by some universal or ultimate description of cause. Its
not caused by That Which is universal or Ultimate. Its
caused by you . By virtue of your self-contraction, you
think and perceive reality to be a particular kind, and
thats not what it is.

So relative to your question, the
true answer, then, is that even the question itself and all
of your perception and the thing you’re wondering about is
an illusion based on your own fear. And it is not necessary.
It is not caused by any Divine or otherwise universal Force.
Its caused just by you, in your fear. You feeling identified
with a mortal organism, you see, produces all kinds of
illusion and, therefore, questions. And you expect answers
to your questions to somehow be satisfactory from your egoic
point of view.

An illusion does not have to be
accounted for in ultimate or universal terms. An illusion
must be transcended. It is false. Hm? This great cosmos-how
much of it do you experience, by the way?-this great cosmos
does not exist in the form that you presently think it
exists. Its like, you look up into the night sky and-Ah!
there are the stars! They are all at different distances
from earth, which is your point of view for perceiving them.
And light in the functional domain of the cosmos has a
certain speed. It takes a certain time for things to be
perceived at a distance. All those stars are at different
distances. So you look up at the night sky and you see the
stars and so forth, and there they are-but they are not
there! Those stars are actually in quite different positions
than you perceive them to be, in this location. you’re
looking at an illusion of light. you’re not only looking at
an illusion of light, you’re looking at it from the point of
view of a presumed separate perceiver, self-bound in a body
and full of fear. So how much of the cosmic domain are you
actually accounting for? you’re just suffering yourself, and
looking at everything from the point of view of that
suffering, that limitation. You are not seeing it as it is.

Speaking from the point of view of
ordinary knowledge, the term “universe” refers to a local
system, in some location in space-time. The totality is not
rightly described as “universe”. So I call it the “cosmic
domain”. In reality, the cosmic domain exists in Infinite
Ecstasy, without the slightest differentiation. And, while
in some sense it may be said to appear, it does not. In
reality, there is not the slightest differentiation. So the
Condition of even the cosmic domain is Infinite, Unbounded
Ecstasy, without the slightest differentiation.

You have asked Me your question,
describing, even in your question, the cosmic domain as
being about separations and separate persons, separate
beings, separate things, separate everything, and all the
things that go along with it in human terms-the suffering,
the limitations, and so forth. But thats not how I just
described the cosmic domain. In reality, the cosmic domain
is as I just described it. It is, and it is not. It is in
Ecstasy, and it is without differentiation. That is


Mysteriously, then, in that reality,
there can be the illusion of separation. There is no “why”
about it, as if it is caused. It is not caused by some
Ultimate Will. Its an illusion, a presumption-possible
within this Infinity, because everything exists. But even
though everything exists, it is without differentiation,
without error. It is Ecstatic, it is all Love-Bliss, and
without the slightest separation.

So there is no Divinity causing
egoity, separateness, and suffering. That is a
local-universe gesture-so local a universe, its not very
large. It takes forms like your own body-mind-which is a
kind of universe, which, by a subtle gesture of reaction,
has entered into the presumption of separation, or
non-Ecstasy, has entered into the presumption of
differentiation, and is under its own illusion.

This illusion is not necessary. The
self-contraction itself is not necessary. It is not caused
from without by some universal or Divine Cause. It is a
possibility in the context of everything. So you are making
that presumption, but you are making it. It wasnt forced
upon you. It is not necessary, and you can transcend it. And
you can Realize the True Condition, the Reality-Condition,
from Which even the question you just asked is nonsense! But
its not nonsense from the point of view of your own
contracted condition. By self-contraction you cut the lines
of Force that are the mechanism of universal Ecstasy and
Unity, without differentiation. No one caused it. There is
no universal Force causing it, no evil force causing it, no
Divine Force causing it. Its a strictly local manifestation
that can be overcome.

Perhaps you did not know this
before. Thats why I am here-so that you can be Drawn out of
your illusion, Realize the circumstance of reality,
transcend your suffering, your questions, and so

Now, speaking locally, then-not only
local universe, but local you -you are living on the basis
of self-contraction, fear of your own locality, fear of
process. You want to be a “thing”, you want to be some ” one
“. But the proceedings of reality are process, without
differentiation, without separateness. Although you are
clinging to your own position, no position can be maintained
forever. All positions dissolve into other positions in
process. There is no fixed position, no separateness at all
. To presume it is to be under an illusion and to cause your
own suffering. Your own suffering is not caused from
without. Your egoity-your suffering, in other words-is not
caused by the Divine or some universal Force. It is not
necessary. Its a liability inherent in reality, but its not
reality itself.

Devotee: But why is it a
liability inherent in reality? Other than the fact that
everything can arise within reality? Im not looking for a
moral answer (I don’t think), but I just don’t understand
the necessity for that.

Adi Da Samraj: But you’re
looking outside yourself. There is no necessity for it. You
are doing it. Examine yourself, you see, and thats the
answer. Not all the objective things-the perceptions, the
questions, and so forth-but your own search, your own
self-contraction is what you must address. And, in examining
it, you will see the “why” of it. It has no Ultimate, or
universal, or Divine Purpose. Its something you are doing,
by presuming to be you, in the separate sense, because you
are afraid rather than surrendered.

Reality-universally, ultimately-is
inherently and infinitely surrendered. The infinitely
surrendered cosmos can be said to be “caused” in some sense,
but not the un surrendered universe. Blessed to exist in
infinite complexity without differentiation-thats a Gift,
thats the Divine Gift. But you have presumed your
separateness and broken the threads, the cords of

With this Blessing to be allowed
universal existence, without differentiation, comes the
possibility of divorcing yourself from it. Hm? Reality
itself is not a problem and is not in pain. Being Blessed
with this Play of forms in Bliss, you have chosen, for the
moment, to differentiate yourself, as a “you”, in this
self-contracted sense. But its not part of the universal
existence. Its not part of reality. Reality, even in the
multiplication of forms, is just a Blessing, in Bliss. But
the forms-appearing, by Blessing- can divorce

So that Blessing, by Grace
Manifested at all, Comes in Person sometimes, to relieve you
of your illusion, of your distress, your suffering-because
you are doing the suffering, and the collective of
like-minded divorced beings are doing the suffering. Not
merely experiencing or suffering the suffering- doing the
suffering. Hm?

This is what I tell you, then.
“Consider” it.

Even your questions come from this
suffering, from your own act. Even the human bodily form is
a Blessing, you see, a spontaneous Blessing without
differentiation, is all Love-Bliss. you’re making it into a
problem. Yes, there are discrete forms, in some sense, but
they are in utter Unity, blended with one another
absolutely, and in process eternally. So theres no fault in
the fact of universal cosmic manifestation, no lack of Bliss
or Ecstasy in it. But that Blessing having been Given, these
apparent forms can divorce themselves from the Unity. Even
though they are necessarily associated with Consciousness,
because it is the universal reality, these forms can divorce
themselves from the Unity. They can contract, they can
react, rather than submit. Thats what you’re doing-reacting
rather than submitting, not trusting the Condition in Which
you are apparently arising.

Really, it all comes down to this
lack of trust, or un-Love. If your heart were full, you
would live in this Ecstasy, and even the cosmic domain is a
dance of appearance and disappearance, but no fault. So you
are out of joint with this Blessing, and I am Revealing to
you-have Revealed to you-how to get with it. You must
surrender. You must trust, just as, when an infant, newly
born, you trusted your mother. While lying in the womb,
there was inherent trust. Thats why the fetus grew, without
complaint, without complication. It existed, heart-born, in
utter trust of its container, its associate, its source, the
energies of its existence-in Bliss.

Then you get booped out of the womb,
you see, cut off the cord, and-hhht! hhht! hhht!
[imitating gasping for air]-air, and more and more
experiences. You fall out of this Reality of Bliss, because
of fear. You could just as well have feared not , continued
to trust absolutely. You could have just as well not been
concerned about process based on appearance. Then you would
have been blended with the Whole, in Ecstasy, and maybe
still walk and talk.

But instead, you got uptight, you
got afraid. Hm? And violated the Law-lost trust, lost faith,
lost love, presumed you were threatened-and you have made an
entire culture out of it, an entire way of life out of
it-out of fear. Fear is just mistrust of reality. Ordinary
fear is a mechanism in the body to react to physical threats
to your survival. Thats just a moment. But constant fear,
anxiety, egoic “self-possession”, negativity,
isolation-thats your own doing. It has no survival use. It
has no great purpose. Its just lack of trust, failure to

If you don’t trust, if you don’t
surrender, if you don’t live in the Infinite Ecstatic Sphere
of Love, then you come up with questions like the one you
just asked Me. Trust, love, enter into Ecstasy, enter into
Reality-then there is no question about it, because the
cosmic domain is not something booped out like a baby,
separate forever and suffering. The cosmic domain exists in
the Luxury of Infinite Love-Bliss, without differentiation,
allowing the proceedings of changes-even births, deaths, all
the rest-without the slightest philosophical or metaphysical
complication about it.

So anything that is complicated
about it is your own lack of trust, your own
self-contraction. Out of this you make questions and
life-activities that are based on an illusion of un-Love,
non-Ecstasy, an illusion of differentiation.

Theres nothing wrong with the
cosmos. Its not separate from the Divine Domain. It is not
separate from Me. This is what I am Revealing to you. But if
you start asking questions about the cosmic domain which are
based on the presumption of separation, you are already
under an illusion, so you want to blame the universe and God
for your suffering. But it didnt come from there-the
suffering didnt come from there. It comes from you.

All the fishes in the sea are in
process, ultimately like trash. And you, too. But, in
Ecstasy, absolute Trust, without differentiation, in the
Samadhi of Divine Realization, it is all allowable. It is
all a Grand Display, a Play, a Play in Ecstasy. A Great
Gift, to be in Infinite Play.

This is why the Source-Condition,
the Divine Reality, is sometimes pictured in ferocious and
obscene forms-like the Kali image in the Hindu
tradition-suggesting that you be Ecstatic in the
circumstance of death, of apparent suffering, of process,
that, even to trust and Commune with the Divine, you must
accept process, death, and not wink. Hm? Not in the

Of course, you all like to imagine
that the Divine is telling you, “Everythings okay. I love
you, just love one another, everythings fine.” You don’t
want no Mother Kali! With thousands of arms lifting up heads
of beings chopped off, fangs, suggesting to you that Ecstasy
requires trust and the utter acceptance of death! No, you
want some comforting message, a rather utopian message that
doesnt require you to transcend yourself or accept the
appearance of reality as just an appearance in the context
of That Which is Infinite Love-Bliss without the slightest

Ramakrishna was one of those devoted
to the Divine as that Force Which is also about death. He
went into Ecstasy relating to the Divine in that manner, you
see. He didnt fear death. He accepted process, but not as
itself Reality, just an appearance. For Him, Reality is
Ecstasy. No differentiation. Didnt require the vanishing of
this. Didnt cling to it, didnt dissociate from

But you think death of bodies and
all of that is a philosophical matter that causes untrust,
distrust in you, and fear, and that fills you with
philosophical propositions that are Godless, Ecstasyless,
Loveless, Blissless.

As a matter of fact, the cosmic
domain is just like Mother Kali. Exactly so. It is full of
death, full of process, full of changes. So, maybe a way to
put it in brief is: In the face of all this that appears,
don’t lose your life-force. don’t distrust. don’t be a naive

So I said that. What

Devotee: You have Drawn me
beyond my question.

Adi Da Samraj: Mm. Then thats
really what its about. The resolution of questions is not
really in the answers, but in the transcendence of the
question. The Way of the Heart is not about seeking and
achieving one end or another. Its about the transcendence of
seeking itself; transcendence of the cause of seeking, which
is self-contraction.

You all haven’t even seen the cosmos
yet. Not as it is, you see. you’re “Narcissus” at the pond.
you’re preoccupied with yourself. You don’t see reality,
conditional or Unconditional, except through this illusion
of divorce from trust, Love-Bliss, undifferentiated

So the body is going to die. Thats
it, thats right. But theres not a jot of differentiation in
the True and Divine Condition when that occurs.

Devotee: Beloved, You do Give
Your Devotees glimpses of that.

Adi Da Samraj: I am here to
Give you more than a glimpse. Shivapuri Baba was asked, you
know, about God-Realization, suffering, and so forth. He
said, “Yes, the suffering is still there, in some sense, but
it doesnt hurt”. Theres no one to be hurt. It doesnt carry
with it the implication of differentiation or of divorce
from Ecstasy.

From the point of view of the ego,
the day of death has got a lot of fear potential in it. You
just tend to participate in it in a naive realism sense,
focused on it as a gross event that implicates you
negatively-or you may have some hopes, some aspirations,
some motive to practice, some way of dealing with it thats
more profound. Thats an individual matter. But for those who
are Godward and do right sadhana, they not only live rightly
and transcend all apparent limitations, but they die rightly
and transcend all of its limitations. Doesnt mean its a
casual day. Its one of those really good, profound days. Not
some pain-in-the-ass boring day.

In fact, all beings are arising in
the same Divine Radiance and Consciousness. All ,
everything. All is One in That. Nevertheless, all beings
want to live . They want to exist . All would struggle to
survive in the moment of intrusion. The fish in the sea, the
fly on the wall, the mosquito-they all experience the same
sense of self-contracted differentiation and a will to
survive as that. All . If you understand this, you can’t
draw the lines or the circles around your own sphere and be
just localized in your love and compassion. Your compassion,
your understanding, must extend to all that is . How can you
possibly protect it? How can you possibly protect all? You
can’t. How can you prevent death? How can you prevent
killing, when your own body kills living organisms who want
to live? Hm? When just breathing kills them? When just doing
whatever you have to do to eat, to feed the body, to make it
survive, kills something or other, even if a plant or
something? You cannot be perfect in that sense. You cannot
be morally righteous. There is no non-killing. Its an
infinite realm of death .

But from your self-contracted,
self-generated-suffering point of view, you see, you can’t
understand that, and you can’t function infinitely. And so
your virtues are all local (if they exist at all), still
result in suffering. In your own lifetime, you have already
killed billions upon billions of beings. You have killed
billions this very day, all of whom wanted to

So, what is going on here? This
manifestation is a plane of universal sacrifice. It is a
process in which all forms appear, continue for a while, are
subject to intrusions, apparent differences, effects, and
then die-but without bringing an end to life or the process
itself, without bringing an end to Consciousness Itself. And
there is nothing you can do about it-not absolutely, to the
point of perfection, to the point of moral
righteousness-absolutely nothing .

So, to understand the “meaning”, so
to speak, of cosmic existence, in which beings die, you must
examine all of this and be intelligent about it. You must
accept the fact that the cosmic domain is a realm of
universal sacrifice. It is Wisdom to appreciate this. And
True Wisdom is to appreciate it to the point that you
transcend all negativity about it. But to do that, you must
transcend your own self-contraction, your own separateness,
your own egoity, and become Godward and Drawn into that
Domain in Which there is no fault, no death. You must accept
that your own body-mind is a sacrifice, the body-minds of
all are a sacrifice. And even though you can be gentle to
some degree locally, you cannot avoid death, or

Death is essential to the reality of
this cosmic process. Every apparent form, although in
Reality not differentiated, nonetheless in its appearance
goes through changes, suffers influences, exists for a time
that cannot be predetermined, and then is disintegrated.
Yes, there are continuations on a subtler level, and so
forth, but it is still the same process: endless changing,
endless change, process, endless sacrifice. Reality is
sacrifice. The cosmic reality is sacrifice.

Self-protective, self-contracted,
you only suffer it. You lose faith, become loveless, in
doubt, and full of fear, and then maybe even try
devices-like somehow avoid all death, avoid killing. Well,
thats impossible. In Truth, then, there must be a
fundamental acceptance of sacrifice, of death, of process,
of changes. It doesnt mean liking the process of sacrifice.
But it does mean a fundamental acceptance of it. But in that
acceptance there must be the relinquishment of
self-contraction. In that relinquishment there is
participation in process with faith, with trust, with
love-ultimately to the point of outgrowing and going beyond
the negative drama of sacrifice, to the point of entering
into the Source of the infinite meal of sacrifice that is
the cosmic domain.

You must outgrow your
self-contraction and cease to be localized in your
disposition. But, having ceased to be localized in your
disposition, you must proceed as part of the meal. Become a
sacrifice, make meaning out of your apparent life, then, by
making it into an intentional sacrifice, full of love and
faith and trust, full of self-surrender, Godwardness,
God-Communion. Instead of fearing your death, intentionally
use your life as a sacrifice. Make it a right and positive
sacrifice, a service of love, of compassion, without
self-concern. Not serving separate self-serving the Ecstasy
of the Whole.

And, as much as you can, relieve the
suffering of beings. Minimize it. Its the best you can, do.
But you can’t be righteous about it. You can’t be absolutely
pure. You must be free of egoic self, and full of trust and
love, full of surrender. Be compassionate, and overcome your
fear of death by allowing your own apparent form to be a
sacrifice-not by violent acts on your person but by service,
by love. Enjoy a happy, compassionate companionship with all
beings, with the entire cosmic domain. In other words, do
not differentiate yourself, do not refuse your own
sacrifice. Trust that death is just part of the process in
the Divine as long as you are gifted with this form of
perception. Be Godward and continue to grow, and this form
of perception will pass, you see. You will have to be a
sacrifice constantly, as all beings are required to be a
sacrifice, until you are Divinely Translated beyond this
perception. But, even while this perception exists, be
grateful. What an extraordinary Gift! You could just as well
not exist, instead. Therefore, be grateful.

What if there were no Divinity, no
Absolute, no cosmos, no life, no forms, no persons, no
relations, no love? No insistence, then – with you being
free to make the choice – no insistence upon Unity, upon
love, upon trust

What a Gift it is that there is the
cosmic domain! It is an undifferentiated domain of Bliss,
one with the Divine Domain! But it has these apparently
discrete manifestations, which should not be the basis of
separateness. It should just be the basis for sacrifice, for
love, for Godwardness. Be grateful that you have this
opportunity, rather than nothing

And this something exists in
Infinite Bliss. You have infinite opportunity. Thus, the way
to transcend your fear is to become a sacrifice in love,
full of trust, and Godward and serving.

Adi Da Samraj