This is a Beezone adaptation and edit from three talks by Adi Da Samraj Beezone essay
Truth, Romance and Delusion
“Before beginning with the instructions, I want to ask everyone to generate the correct attitude before receiving Lord Buddha’s teachings and to maintain a pure frame of mind while receiving them.
The Guru-Disciple Relationship, Introduction by Jamgon Kongtrul the Third
“The Truth of the Self cannot come through self effort. Awakening comes from association with a realized teacher-Guru.
(Katha Upanishad. Part 1, 2:9, p. 85).”
The true Spiritual process is not a kind process with which and to whom you can indulge in a romance! The Gopis were not romantically involved with Krishna. You cannot be casually asking for salvation or even playfully and amusedly involved with the Divine or with Truth. You first must overcome yourself. Once you overcome yourself and truly understand your relationship with the True Romance of the Divine or Truth you can also appear playful, but it is most profound, it is a creative affair.
You can feel all kinds of “Presence” and still be self-possessed, but that is not spiritual, that’s just energy without self-understanding. You may have some sense of a kind of “cosmic” influence but you must understand your relationship to yourself first. To rightly use a true ‘spiritual influence’ is to enter into your own condition. Its exciting and engerizing to be with, an Energy that makes you feel better in yourself the way an infant feels better when it sucks the tit and feels a little full. An infant sucking the tit is not Enlightened, and likewise a practitioner just breathing the excess and superior Energy of a Spiritual kind is not Enlightened, not practicing, not being a practitioner. You must first surrender any notion of yourself, which is sacrifice of self, before you can truly use ‘the gift’. You can feel It, because It is there, but you cannot use It rightly. You are not truly using It rightly unless you give your own gift, which is self-surrender, self-transcendence.
In order to surrender and transcend yourself you must first understand yourself. You must know what you are all about. And what you are all about is this contraction. You must appreciate it, be humbled by it, and Stand Free of it. Only then can you can use a Real Blessing Baptism, but not otherwise. Even though you can say that It exists, even though you can acknowledge a Real Blessing, a Baptism, you may still not be a practitioner.
You must relate rightly to a Real Blessing Force and understand yourself in the midst of it. Otherwise you engage in a romance with your own deluding sense. This is not receiving gift, this is romance and delusion. It is to grab the fruit out of the basket without offering anything first. It is to take heaven by storm. It is an intrusion, a violation, and inappropriate, and it will cause you to experience difficulty ultimately because if you come into association with superior Energy and remain self-indulgent or self-possessed, that very Energy will begin to disturb you, disorient you, cause you to react, individuate yourself, and aberrate yourself.
The only way rightly to relate to the tangible Blessing of Real Spiritual Energy is to understand yourself. Then you can not only receive Real Blessing but begin to allow it to take you over. You can know the Blessing experientially without giving your own gift, but you cannot fullly receive It, accept It, and use It without first submitting yourself. You cannot suck the ear of the Infinite and get away with it!
You can play all sorts of games. You can get devotional, romantic, righteous and delusional but unless you truly understand yourself, this fundamental.
People continue to think that all this life is leading somewhere in some grand evolutionary design and they continue to thrive on the search with “what’s next”. But the more sensitive you become, the more you become aware of this structure of limitation. It’s only when consciousness returns to the zero, moment to moment, that this insight begins to break the bondage. It’s only when you’ve become so limited, when you have no options truly that you begin to understand what’s going on and what you’re up to.
When you realize that you truly are confined and that there is this one quality of knowledge, experience and existence from moment to moment, then are you are beginning to understand. When you realize you can’t play your games any more, you can’t depend on your games because you know all your games are essentially based on the same impulse, the same structure. You realize ultimately the same vision, the same cognition of the search. You realize you are truly locked in to this one form of existence, which is ordinary suffering, the search. It’s in that entrapment, that isolation of real recognition, that the whole process begins to be undone.
That’s why Great Spiritual Masters continue to stress that there is a crisis in consciousness involved in spiritual life, because you must come to a zero point in which you see the one thing you are always doing, the one state lived, in which you see the the never ending search as your very condition. It’s only when you’ve returned to this condition of your own avoidance without recourse, when you have fallen into your own limitation, that True Insight and Understanding can arise. So there must be a crisis.
There’s a purifying dis-ease involved in spiritual life. There is a crisis. It must be a perfect crisis in consciousness in which this one form of ordinary knowledge is seen perfectly and known to be your condition from moment to moment. Knowing that you have no way out of this in the ordinary way.
And that fundamental understanding should your impulse, your discipline, your intelligence, your capacity to be human, manly, male or female. That crisis is your endurance, your use of this great heat of self-frustration. The heat of self-frustration is the energy of meditation. It is the seat of meditation. It is the Heart.
Cut it! It burns! It burns to cut it. And that burning is the glory you register in meditation and its depth. It purifies. It releases obstacles. It releases all limitations. It Outshines it. It burns it off while all the while Illuminating ITSELF, only.
Beezone essay edited and adapted from three talks by Adi Da Samraj