My First Word
Adi Da Samraj
Part Four
The Cult – The Avatar
Beezone editorial note.
My First Word.
Adi Da’s Essay First Word, appears at the beginning of many of His Source Texts and has been written by Avatar Adi Da Samraj as His Personal Introduction to each volume of His “Source-Texts”. Its purpose is to help the reader understand His great Confessions rightly.
Much of Adi Da’s emphasis in the essay is on the error of ego and cultism. The error of ego and cultism is the tendency of individual, using ‘mind’ and ‘language’, to misinterpret Adi Da’s word and teachings as his statements of egoism and grandiosity (even insanity).
To help the reader receive the impact and profundity of the original essay, Beezone has provided the Pingal essay paragraph by paragraph and then followed by editing out its parentheticals and putting the text in a ‘poetic’ structure. And lastly, all italics are Beezone’s edit.
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The Man in the Middle
Original
I am not the “man in the middle”. I do not stand here as a mere man, “middled” to the “center” (or the cornering trap) of ego-based mankind. I am not an ego-“I”, or a mere “other”, or the representation (and the potential scapegoat) of the ego-“I” of mankind (or of any one at all).
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I am not the “man in the middle”.
I do not stand here
as a mere man,
“middled” to the “center”
of ego-based mankind.
I am not an ego-“I”,
or a mere “other”,
or the representation
of the ego-“I”
of mankind.
Original
I Am the Indivisible and Non-Separate One, the (Avatarically Self-Revealed) One and Only and (Self-Evidently) Divine Person—the Perfectly Subjective Divine Self-Condition (and Source-Condition) That Is Perfectly centerless (and Perfectly boundless), Eternally Beyond the “middle” of all and All, and Eternally Surrounding, Pervading, and Blessing all and All.
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I Am
the Indivisible
and Non-Separate One,
the One
and Only
and Divine Person—
the Perfectly Subjective
Divine Self-Condition
That Is Perfectly centerless,
Eternally Beyond
the “middle” of all
and All,
and Eternally Surrounding,
Pervading,
and Blessing all and All.
Original
I Am the Way Beyond the self-cornering (and “other”-cornering) trap of ego-“I”.
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I Am
the Way Beyond
the self-cornering
trap of ego-“I”.
Original
In this “late-time” (or “dark” epoch) of worldly ego-Man, the collective of mankind is “darkened” (and cornered) by egoity. Therefore, mankind has become mad, Lightless, and, like a cornered “thing”, aggressively hostile in its universally competitive fight and bite.
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In this “late-time”
of worldly ego-Man,
the collective of mankind
is “darkened”
by egoity.
Therefore,
mankind has become mad,
Lightless,
and,
like a cornered “thing”,
aggressively hostile
in its universally
competitive fight
and bite.
Original
Therefore, I have not Come here merely to stand Manly in the “middle” of mankind—to suffer its biting abuses, or even to be coddled and ignored in a little corner of religious “cultism”.
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Therefore,
I have not Come
here
merely
to stand
Manly in the “middle” of mankind—
to suffer
its biting abuses,
or even to be coddled
and ignored
in a little corner
of religious “cultism”.
Original
I have Come here to Divinely Liberate one and all (and All) from the “dark” culture and effect of this “late-time”, and (now, and forever hereafter) to Divinely Liberate one and all (and All) from the pattern and the act of ego-“I”, and (Most Ultimately) to Divinely Translate one and all (and All) Into the Indivisible, Perfectly Subjective, and Eternally Non-Separate Self-Domain of My Divine Love-Bliss-Light.
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I have Come here
to Divinely Liberate
one and all
from the “dark” culture
and effect of this “late-time”,
and
to Divinely Liberate
one and all
from the pattern
and the act of ego-“I”,
and
to Divinely Translate
one and all
Into the Indivisible,
Perfectly Subjective,
and Eternally Non-Separate Self-Domain of My Divine Love-Bliss-Light.
Original
The ego-“I” is a “centered” (or separate and separative) trap, from which the heart (and even the entire body-mind) must be Retired. I Am the Way (or the Very Means) of that Retirement from egoity. I Refresh the heart (and even the entire body-mind) of My devotee, in every moment My devotee resorts to Me (by devotionally recognizing Me, and devotionally—and ecstatically, and also, often, meditatively—responding to Me) Beyond the “middle”, Beyond the “centering” act (or trapping gesture) of ego-“I” (or self-contraction).
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The ego-“I”
is a “centered” trap,
from which the heart
must be Retired.
I Am the Way
of that Retirement from egoity.
I Refresh the heart
of My devotee,
in every moment
My devotee resorts to Me
Beyond the “middle”,
Beyond the “centering” act
of ego-“I”.
Original
I Am the Avatarically Self-Revealed (and Perfectly Subjective, and Self-Evidently Divine) Self-Condition (and Source-Condition) of every one, and of all, and of All—but the Perfectly Subjective (and Self-Evidently Divine) Self-Condition (and Source-Condition) is not “within” the ego-“I” (or separate and separative body-mind). The Perfectly Subjective (and Self-Evidently Divine) Self-Condition (and Source-Condition) is not in the “center” (or the “middle”) of Man (or of mankind). The Perfectly Subjective (and Self-Evidently Divine) Self-Condition (and Source-Condition) of one, and of all, and of All Is Inherently centerless (or Always Already Beyond the self-contracted “middle”), and to Be Found only “outside” (or by transcending) the bounds of separateness, relatedness, and “difference”. Therefore, to Realize the Perfectly Subjective (and Self-Evidently Divine) Self-Condition and Source-Condition (or the Perfectly Subjective, and Self-Evidently Divine, Heart) of one, and of all, and of All (or even, in any moment, to exceed the ego-trap—and to be Refreshed at heart, and in the total body-mind), it is necessary to feel (and to, ecstatically, and even meditatively, swoon) Beyond the “center” (or Beyond the “point of view” of separate ego-“I” and separative body-mind). Indeed, Most Ultimately, it is only in self-transcendence to the degree of unqualified relatedness (and Most Perfect Divine Samadhi, or Utterly Non-Separate Enstasy) that the Inherently centerless and boundless, and Perfectly Subjective, and Self-Evidently Divine Self-Condition (and Source-Condition) Stands Obvious and Free (and Is, Thus and Thereby, Most Perfectly Realized).
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I Am the Avatarically Self-Revealed,
Self-Condition of every one,
and of all, and of All—
but the Perfectly Subjective
Self-Condition
is not “within” the ego-“I”.
The Perfectly Subjective Self-Condition
is not in the “center” of Man.
The Perfectly Subjective Self-Condition
of one,
and of all,
and of All
Is Inherently centerless,
and to Be Found
only “outside”
the bounds of separateness,
relatedness,
and “difference”.
Therefore,
to Realize the Perfectly Subjective Self-Condition
and Source-Condition
of one, and of all,
and of All,
it is necessary
to feel
Beyond the “center”.
Indeed,
Most Ultimately,
it is only
in self-transcendence
to the degree of unqualified relatedness
that the Inherently centerless
and boundless,
and Perfectly Subjective,
and Self-Evidently Divine Self-Condition
Stands Obvious
and Free.
Original
It Is only by Means of devotionally Me-recognizing (and devotionally to-Me-responding) devotional meditation on Me (and otherwise ecstatic heart-Contemplation of Me), and total (and totally open, and totally ego-forgetting) psycho-physical Reception of Me, that your madness of heart (and of body-mind) is (now, and now, and now) escaped, and your “darkness” is En-Light-ened (even, at last, Most Perfectly). Therefore, be My true devotee—and, by (formally, and rightly, and truly, and fully, and fully devotionally) practicing the only-by-Me Revealed and Given Way of Adidam (Which Is the True and Complete Way of the True and Real Divine Heart), always Find Me, Beyond your self-“center”, in every here and now.
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It Is only
by Means of devotionally
Me-recognizing devotional meditation
on Me,
and
total psycho-physical Reception of Me,
that your madness of heart
is escaped,
and your “darkness”
is En-Light-ened.
Therefore,
be My true devotee—
and,
by practicing
the only-by-Me Revealed and Given Way of Adidam,
always Find Me,
Beyond your self-“center”,
in every here and now.
Original
Aham Da Asmi. Beloved, I Am Da. And, because I Am Infinitely and Non-Separately “Bright”, all and All Are In My Divine Sphere of “Brightness”. By feeling and surrendering Into the Infinite Sphere of My Avatarically Self-Revealed Divine Self-“Brightness”, My every devotee Is In Me. And, Beyond his or her self-contracting and separative act of ego-“I”, My every devotee (self-surrendered Into heart-Communion With Me) Is the One and Only and Non-Separate and Real God I Have Come to Awaken—by Means of My Avataric Divine Descent, My Avataric Divine Incarnation, and My (now, and forever hereafter) Avataric Divine Self-“Emergence” (here, and every “where” in the Cosmic domain).
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Aham Da Asmi.
Beloved, I Am Da.
And,
because I Am Infinitely
and Non-Separately “Bright”,
all and All
Are In My Divine Sphere of “Brightness”.
By feeling
and surrendering
Into the Infinite Sphere
of My Avatarically Self-Revealed Divine Self-“Brightness”,
My every devotee
Is In Me.
And,
Beyond his or her self-contracting
and separative act of ego-“I”,
My every devotee
Is the One and Only
and Non-Separate
and Real God
I Have Come to Awaken—
by Means
of My Avataric Divine Descent,
My Avataric Divine Incarnation,
and My Avataric Divine Self-“Emergence”.
My First Word
Adi Da Samraj
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The Cult – The Avatar