Mark my Words – The Real Story – The Crashing Down of My Divine Grace

Beezone work of an original talk by Adi Da Samraj
The Crashing Down
of My Divine Grace

February 12, 1993


Mark My Words
Part Two

Read original Mark
My Words (1983)


The seventh stage of life
is made of God Only. So this is My Gift, the seventh stage
of life, the extraordinarily bypassing, unique,
straightforward Yoga that I Give to you. It is time you
understood Me about this and stopped confusing Me with the

The philosophies you read about, all the books you read,
are expressions either of most extraordinarily ordinary
people or of somewhat more advanced, evolved people, in one
or another dimension of the first six stages of life. That
basically is all the religion you ever get on this plane
, except for a little taste here and there from a
few “Crazies”, a little touch, taste, suggestion, of the
seventh stage of life.

The Yoga in My
Company is unique
, but you keep wanting to talk about
and pursue the traditional Yoga. You do
not know the difference
. You have not received My
Revelation. You will not even tell anybody about it. That is
what is so remarkable about your refusal to make a mission,
about simply telling people that I am here, about the
devotional Way in My Company. You want to make the Way of
the Heart into some word about peoples concern for
themselves in the ordinary way, trying to work out their
ordinary life-problems. You do not want to tell them the
Truth, and you do not want to live It yourself.


“Most everyone will reach
their cutoff point, the point where they will tend to stop,
the point where practice tends to be sufficient for them or
where further effort is too frustrating and too offensive.
Everybody reaches the point where he or she tends to
withdraw from the stream of practice”.

Resistance and Outrage


You want the Way of the Heart, you want the Divine Way,
to be about you. The Divine Way is about the Divine. It is
not about you, except that it requires your surrender, your
self-transcendence. But its subject is not you. Its subject
is the Divine, Incarnate, freely Blessing you, filling you
with the unique Yogic capability that is Divine. That is the
Way of the Heart, not the psycho-biography of the ego in its
six stages of development toward greater and greater
illusion and separateness. The purified ego is not
God-Realized. The sixth stage ego is not
God-Realized—perhaps very pure but not God-Realized. It
is separate in the soup only, with much more to Realize, the
Divine Itself.

This Yoga is what I Call you to, yet you have Me here
fussing with your endless dramatizations about your worldly
inclinations, your refusal of the religious life, your
obsession with emotional-sexual
, endlessly changing it, changing partners,
fretting over it, looking for utopia here, fussing with
exoteric social religiosity, and never entering into the Way
of the Heart in My Company, wasting My Lifetime here. All
the while I am sitting here to Bless you in this fashion, so
that you can engage in this Yoga I just described to you.
And who is ready to begin it? “Not I, not I. I am thinking
of my girlfriend, my boyfriend, now. I have this problem,
this business.” There is no end to it. It is insanity. It is
the very insanity I have criticized from the very

By listening
to My Word about it you are supposed to have been converted
at heart
and become My true devotee, so you can purify
your ordinariness, establish the foundation for Spiritual
Yoga in My Company, and be free of this insanity and the
death that is inevitable for you if you will not be

Many of My devotees have experienced My Spiritual
Blessing. Most of you here could describe experiences at one
time or another or even now, because That Blessing is Who I
Am. You have the experience, but you are not prepared for
it. You cannot deal with it, you cannot make a life out of
it, you cannot do the Yoga, because you are fussing over
your ordinary life-insanity. And you will not commit
yourself to handling that business, which is the
prerequisite for receiving My Spiritual Blessing, so that
you can consistently do the Yoga of the reception of Me.
Many have had Spiritual experiences in My Company, but where
are those who are fulfilling the discipline I have Given
you, the discipline I have described in The Dawn Horse


“You should have a serious
appreciation of your unpreparedness and not come to the
Communion gleefully. If you do walk in gleefully, sooner or
later you will be confronted with demands that will make you
resistive. You are asking for consolation, something to
believe in, something to relieve you of the stresses of the
failed first three stages of your life. You are defending
your egoity. Even though you may be interested in Spiritual
life, when you are confronted by the real discipline
involved, you will inevitably resist.”

Adi Da Samraj – 1975


You are just endlessly wanting to be a beginner and fart
your life away with your ordinary life-preoccupation and
your refusal to set that straight, handle
that life business
, understand Me, become responsible
for your contractedness and all your reactivity and desiring
and seeking, and be free of it so that you can live a
Spiritual life in My Company, which is what I am here
for—not to submit My Self to the world and engage in
endless conversation about this worldly insanity you are
preoccupied with, but I address you about it, give it to you
as your business to handle. Having handled it, come into My
Company for My Spiritual Blessing. This is My Command to

You keep wanting to come to Me for lesser reasons and
preoccupy Me and all My Time and Life with addressing you
and your worldly
, and especially all your emotional-sexual
disaster of seeking. You are endlessly fussing, reacting,
indulging yourself, looking for another reason to do so,
confused by the daily
and worldly opportunity and insanity of subhuman
civilization, so-called, that is destroying, killing, people
night and day, perpetually. And you call that an argument to
refuse the religious life, to refuse the Divine.

argument does not hold water
. There is no argument in
it, and yet you pretend to be intelligent. How many more
times will I have to Address you about straightening out
your life and accepting the purification of this devotional
life, this self-understanding? You
just will not grow up
. And you have Me here talking to
you about this. You do not know anything about it. You
do not know the half of it
. You do not understand what
it is all about.

All the half-baked literature you read is not about it
either. It is just a piece
of it here and there
—a little something rose up,
somebody felt a little better, they made a big book, made a
religion. It is lunacy everywhere, mayhem, separateness,
everywhere dramatized in every form, including religion.
After all the struggles of recent centuries, it seems that
everyone is getting down to babbling to the death again
about the theologies developed in the Middle-East and the
Western world in the last 2000-3000 years. After all of
that, it is going to come down to some armageddon of these
separate theologies murdering everybody?

is civilization?
What does it have to do with the great
esoteric Divine matter? Do not collect like mice to suffer
this. Do not ignore Me, making nothing of My Revelation to
you. You think you can bypass discipline and fail to
straighten out your life-business and still be religious.
What kind of insanity is that?

Show Me one Realizer ever, of any degree, who refused
that discipline. There are none. The prerequisite for any
Spiritual growth, whatever form it may take, even in the
egoic evolutionary terms, is the disciplining of this
life-vehicle, the purification of sub-human and ordinary
human existence. Do you think you can bypass it because you
live in this friendly egalitarian time? Everybody thinks
they can bullshit one another and believe the latest
paperback or television garbage. You want to perpetually
come into My Company unprepared for My Spiritual Blessing
and call that the “Way of the Heart”. Understand that you
have to deal
with life
, straighten it out, purify it, make it
straight, prepare themselves for the Divine


Your Death Philosophy and Escape to God

That is necessary, or you die by your own hand, your own
reaction, your own self-contraction. You are dying from it
now with
your death philosophy
. You are all like death-bed
patients with your endless struggle and seeking and
suffering. There is no God in that, no Truth in it. You take
everything lightly, including Me. I am just some token
amusement, some commercial or other, another weekend of
distraction after which you just go back and do the same
damn thing over again.

prerequisite of religion is the purification of the ordinary
. That is why there is hardly any religion in the
world except that—just commands to somehow or other
straighten out or socialize the ordinary ego. All the rest
of religion is more or less anathema, forgotten about,
because nobody will even do that foundation thing. Most of
the time they just use it for some excuse to hate everybody
else who is not in the cult.


“You want Me to talk about
your trying to work your life out. Life does not work out!
It cannot work out! That is not the Way of Adidam! The Way
of Adidam is about ego-transcendence, transcending the very
thing that seeks to make it all work out! You are wanting Me
to address you in this act that you are making to have
everything be hunky-dory. And the whole damn thing doesn’t
even exist! And that’s what there is to Realize! Absolute
Freedom from this illusion—that you call “reality” and
are trying to make work out perfectly. You are only looking
at yourself! That’s all you are ever looking at! And you
want it to work out, “Narcissus”. You are looking at all
this and you are calling it “the world”—but it is

Adi Da Samraj – 1993


The conventional, or traditional, Yogis, being
ego-bound—not founded in hearing,
seeking God, not having found God or unaware of God for real
because they are self-bound and separated out and enduring
only their own natural destiny, karmically—think that
the way to realize God is to somehow stimulate natural force
at the base of the body, raise up the sex-force and whatever
energy they can, by somebody’s touch or by breathing
exercises or by concentration, or whatever, somehow drag it
up through the spinal line through stimulation’s of the
nervous system, which is just as possible in psychosis. It
is a natural possibility. It is just not about
God-Realization Ultimately.

This is how they think. This is what they promote—by
bringing it all up and somehow vanishing out of the top of
the head, you discover God. But very few ever get there.
Those who do experience something of the Divine—because
they vanish the natural appearance of themselves but without
loss of ego, the self-contraction most subtly—imagine
they have the great discovery, the great Enlightenment. They
have found something. They have evolved to a degree. But
they have not gone beyond the evolution of egoity. They do
not know that the God they seek was there from the
beginning. They were too egoically “self-possessed” to
Commune with That One and be released, Awakened. The spinal
Yogic search is just as much ego-bound as all other ordinary
human endeavors.

Great Process
comes about when the Divine Intervenes,
Appears, Incarnates, Blesses, Teaches the understanding and
transcendence of egoity so that the direct Divine Blessing
may be received and the Great Divine Yoga may be entered
into. This is what I Do. If you ask Me if anyone has done it
before, I cannot recall anyone. Who else could it be anyway?
It is so. The Divine must Intervene. That is why I am
here—for this Great and Spiritual Process and Purpose,
which requires the transcendence of egoity from the
beginning, not at the end. If it only occurred at the end,
then the search is justified and that is mapped out by six
stages. And it is impossible to go any further, because if
you are to go into the Divine, the Divine must Kiss you,
Embrace you, Take you Over, Vanish you, Destroy you. It must
be so.

Only God Enlightens. All other things about God are
expressions of the search of ego-bound mankind. That is the
source of ordinary human endeavors and extraordinary ones.
It is the general source of religion. The usual Realizers
are ego-bound, just more advanced, that is all.

I am not advanced. I Am the Very One. I Am the One you
must Realize. But I am not an enforcer here to oppress you
with anything. I Give you a Gift. It is an opportunity. You
choose. It is entirely up to you. I cannot enforce My Self
on you and will not. “Consider” My Word, enter into the
Great Process in My Company, and it will prove itself. That
is all I can say about it. I am not going to manipulate you.
But I also will not be manipulated by you and have you
reduce the Way of the Heart to some worldly nonsense,
something compatible with the worldly view, just because you
are too timid and too egoically “self-possessed” to do
anything great. I am not some fool or just the next guy
teaching religion, some American honking to make bucks.

Find Me out. “Consider” My Word. Embrace the Way of the
Heart, which I have Given you, and stop making a way of your
own, at least in My Company. If
you want to make a way of your own, then go and do it
somewhere else.

You come into My Company voluntarily. You are not
manipulated to do so. You are not required to be here. It is
entirely your choice. You “consider” it. You embrace it. You
work it out. Stop the stupid, Westerner nonsense of always
finding someone to blame. Nobody is to blame. You must
handle your own business. Do what you must to prepare
yourself by responding to Me and being My devotee. What you
must prepare yourself for is this Yoga I have just described
to you—the Crashing Down of My Blessing, the Divine
Intrusion—and you, if you hear Me, are able to
relinquish all egoic “self-possession”, all dissociation,
all separateness, receiving Me utterly.

Then the seventh stage Awakening will be Accomplished by
Grace. It cannot be accomplished otherwise. There is no
method for accomplishing It. It is entirely Given by Me. It
cannot be Realized by anyone in the full sense, the truest
sense, without My Divine Blessing. I am telling you the
Great Secret that is not Revealed in any books that you can
read. It is unknown.


“It is not that you are being
called to a religion of Shiva or of dissolution alone. You
are being called to the religion of the Whole God and of the
whole body.”

Adi Da Samraj – The
Religion of the Whole Body
, August 21, 1977


Prove the Truth of My Revelation to you by truly living
the Way of the Heart in My Company, and stop this endless
rehearsal of reactivity and desire and seeking and nonsense,
your stupid worldly religiosity, trying to combine the Free
Daist Communion, the community, the mission, and the culture
of My devotees with worldly presumptions, satisfying your
ordinary social and emotional-sexual interests and
pretending this is devotion to Me. It has nothing to do with
it. If that is all the Way of the Heart amounts to, if that
is all you people are going to do, there is no virtue in
this gathering whatsoever and it will disappear. There is no
need for another stupid cult here in this world, another
bunch of egoically “self-possessed” fools consoling
themselves with religion and denying their own Revelation.
There does not have to be another one of those. That is
total garbage. There is an endless supply of that. That is
not what I am here to do.


“You all want God to be your


Being Spiritually Awake in My Company, receiving Me
Spiritually, doing the Yoga Spiritually in My Company, you
do not care anymore about this poor, “oinking” stupidity
with all these pains, tendencies, and knots. It is just
garbage. Here I Am, Crashing Down, and you do not care about
the body-mind. In that Yoga you do not care about it. Let it
be smithereened. Let it be crushed, absolutely disappeared.
That is the attitude of the true Yogi in My Company, the
true devotee, one who has heard Me.

Not “Oh, give me some healing for this, help my mother,
give me a better intimate relationship, make my intimate
relationship work out”, all the time praying to Me for some
end or other to satisfy your egoic “self-possession”, your
trouble. When you hear Me, all that is done. You realize
that your own separate consciousness is gone, and there is
Infinite Consciousness, Self-Radiant, Self-Existing, and
this poor mushroom, this fungus, you call your “self” cannot
even repeat itself again. That is the attitude. That is
Blessing. That is God-Realization.

You all want God to be your slave and give you all kinds
of experiences to make you feel good and make this world a
terrific wonderful place and give you intimates and friends,
a long life, amusements, distractions. You want to call that
“religion”. That kind of religion is about you. Real
religion is about God, Truth, That Which is Inherently
Divine, Great, Absolute, Self-Existing, Self-Radiant, All
Love-Bliss. You will not Realize That until you are crushed
into non-existence, as you fear death will do. This must
happen in life, or merely dying will just be a moment after
which you will perpetuate your separateness.

You have to receive God in life and be submitted utterly.
To be submitted utterly you must understand yourself.
Hearing must be your capability. This is why I keep
declaring it to you. This is the beginning. This is the
necessary foundation.

You want to rush on to experiences and so forth. That is
all ego-bound nonsense, investing yourself in the
evolutionary rehearsal of the first six stages of life, the
rushing about looking for that experience, this, that, or
the other kind of experience, of self-immersion, and so
forth. Where is the end of it? You cannot even handle
somebody’s opening the door! [Sri Gurudev makes a
gasping sound.] Even the blink of an eye distracts

As it says in the Brihadaranyaka Upanishad, wherever
there is an other, fear arises
. Where there is the
slightest sense of another—in other words, wherever
there is separateness, wherever there is
self-contraction—there is fear. And fear motivates
seeking, the whole life of illusion, the whole conditional
display, which is just an illusion of energy. And you are
causing it. And it is totally unnecessary. It is boobery,
fungus life, and you want to perfect it or indulge in it in
some silly fashion and have some little God on the side,
some Yogi, some Guru, something or other, attached to some
pimple or other on your hip, so you can feel a little less
stress while you are indulging yourself in this insane

That is how you are using Me, as a teddy bear. “Oh, my
teddy bear [Sri Gurudev mimics hugging a teddy bear, and
speaks in a sweet voice], my teddy bear. [He mimics
punching the bear.] Bam! Bam! Bam! Bam! [Hugging the
bear and speaking in a sweet voice] Oh, my teddy bear,
my teddy bear. [Punching the bear] Bam! Bam! Bam!
Bam!” That is you, you know. That is how you deal with God.
It is true. You have no notion of Real God. Real God you
would never treat that way. Devotees of Real God ask for
nothing but God. Not [Sri Gurudev mimics a pleading
voice] “O God, if you make me win this baseball game, I
will be your devotee for life. If you just straighten out my
relationship with my intimate partner, Lord, I will serve
you always. If you just heal me of foot cancer, Lord, I am
Your boy.” Of course if it ever vanished, ever did get
healed, ever did get straightened out, you would not think
about God for years. Don’t you know?

It is time you got God. God must Appear, but God cannot
Appear directly out of the blue. God must have Mechanism,
Vehicle, Agent. But the Agent that can be used is egoless.
The body-mind that speaks Divinely is egoless. Only the
Divine is there, only That One, Fully Conscious,
Self-Existing, Self-Radiant, All Love-Bliss, full of
incomprehensible Siddhis—That I Am. It is not merely My
Declaration here. You find out. You prove it by using the
Wisdom I have Given you that applies to you as you are now.
Really do it.

When you find Me out further, you will prove the Way of
the Heart by doing it, not by believing it merely. But you
must do it and stop arguing with Me about it and stop
piddling your life away in what you call the “communities of
the Way of the Heart” in My Company. They have not even
begun to be anything remotely like that. Authenticate them.
Make them right. Live the Way of the Heart really.

Be strong, strong with yourself, strong with others. Stop
bullshitting. Stop adapting to the world, and adapt to Me.
Wake up. Stop being a fool. Stop being stupid. Am I right or

Are you afraid of being possessed? That is the Yoga. To
realize God you must be utterly possessed by God. Mark My


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