Emotion and the Ordeal of Self-Understanding – Adi Da Samraj

The Realization of
Changes All Emotional and Egoic Complexes

Ordeal of

Adi Da Samraj

June 5,


first level of the process of this emotional-sexual
“consideration”, occurs at the base of the body, at the base
chakra, where you must commit yourself bodily, beyond your
fear and reluctance, to dealing with your emotional-sexual
existence. When you have done that much, then the strong
emotion that comes up is sorrow and all the like feelings,
which correspond to the second chakra, the second level up,
and the next one to touch upon. Feeling the sorrow, you
basically want to stop the process altogether.

Beyond your sorrowful reaction you
become aggressively angry, at the navel, which is the next
level up. (This progression is not in the esoteric spinal
line. These are frontal-line emotions that build up one on
top of the other in a sequence of


“You are not
supposed to solve the problem of what type you are. These
descriptions (Solids, Peculiars and Vitals) are given to you
only so that you can account for what you have already








First Stage

Second Stage

Third Stage


Vital shock of

loss of self-security and
loss of power over others on whom one

struggle with motives of
independence and dependence and aggressive effort
toward genital victory


self-controlling and other-controlling

alternately idealistically
(and thus mentally) self-controlled and chaotically

characteristically vitally
(or physically) self-indulgent


fear of being controlled by
others (or conditions outside the

yearning to be effectively
touched or loved and a call and hysterical need (or
search) to be controlled, or restored to balance by
a positive controlling influence

chronic effort to resist,
refuse, or avoid the controlling influence of
others (or even the mind) on the bodily existence
of the conditional self


too much controlled by
others, especially adults

neglected, denied love, and
denied a positive controlling influence

too much controlled by
others, especially adults


passive and rather

hysterical and rather

aggressive and rather


mental (or mentally
“solid”, or strategically, and, principally, by
means that exploit the conceptual mind,

emotional (or emotionally
“peculiar”, and, perhaps, or sometimes, even

vital (or “vitally”, and,
perhaps, or sometimes, even “grossly”,


hyperactivity of the
conceptual mind

excessively “romantic” (or
even sentimental) and idealistic (or un-realistic)
expectations (that are inevitably frustrated) and
the loss of balance

obsessive and compulsive
vital-physical self-expression

on the three
primary characteristics of the Solid, Vital and Peculiar


Above these frontal-line emotions is
the heart, or love. And there are greater energies beyond
that, and of course there is a greater participation beyond
the frontal line.

This sequence of dramatizations is a
very natural, even ultimately mechanical, sequence that you
can observe and point out in others. This does not mean, of
course, that you just go on to love from anger. You could
drop back into sorrow, and drop back into fear. However,
when emotion becomes anger, you feel that everything has
come to an end.

The root of this dramatization of
reactive emotion is the feeling of love itself. All these’
emotions are a play upon a basic feeling of affection, a
love feeling. Having put love on the line, you are afraid,
you get sorrowful, and then you are angry. You tend to drop
down from anger into sorrow and wanting to hold on

“Mutual love
conducts the Radiant Power of Life, and it purifies each of
us of our accumulations of independent, subjective, and
mortal experience”
Is the Healing Principle

If you are ever going to establish a
firm intimacy with anyone, you must deal with all these
emotions and become emotionally clarified. In your egoity,
you rarely get in touch with the core of true feeling, or
love. Your capability for detachment and lovelessness is
exactly what you must deal with. The realization of actual
love changes all these egoic complexes.


Further reading and

Peculiars, and Solids and the Primal Qualities of Universal
and Bodily Life

Frontal Line
– The
descending current

Intelligence and The Seven Stages of
– Laughing Man Magazine

Observe Your Pattern –
Adi Da Samraj, January
30, 1996

What’s interesting and
useful about noticing a pattern early in your life is to see
that the pattern is right now.

It’s not that you have to
struggle with something that happened early in your life –
if you see it there then you can see something about the
pattern which you are enacting right now. And that’s what
you can change.

The more fully you are aware
of the pattern in which you are apparently in motion,
certainly the more intelligent, perhaps the more effective
your transcendence of it in every moment

It’s the being set straight
that’s the important part,

Then functioning in that
straightness, directly, moment to moment, rather than with a
lot of verbal instructions which you have to organize and
rehearse every other moment.

The sadhana must become

It’s not about building up a
massive structure of mental calculations.

It’s a matter of freeing up
the intelligence from confusion and bondage and uninspected

1. The three human
types (vital, peculiar, and solid) are a strategic play on
life, or the Life-Principle, conceived as dilemma or
conflict. That is, the natural play of the etheric (or
Life-Force dimension) and the elemental (gross physical
dimension) has become a strategic or obstructed
dramatization. In each person or, strategy, the conflict is
between the two conditions of Life-Force and body. The vital
person or strategy dramatizes the conflict by irresponsibly
exploiting the bodily possibilities. The peculiar person or
strategy dramatizes the conflict by irresponsibly exploiting
the emotional possibilities, and the Solid person or
strategy does the same by irresponsibly exploiting the
mental possibilities. All three strategies appear at one or
another moment in every individual, even though any one
strategy may be especially characteristic of him.

The key to all these dramatizations
is irresponsibility. That is, the conflict between
Life-Force and body has not been inspected to the point of
consciousness, humor, and responsible control of the
dramatization. Only the mature individual enjoys such
control. Only such a one has become purified of the vital,
peculiar, and solid games of life and has begun, through
love, stably to feed upon the Transcendental Divine Life, or
the Real and Infinite Condition of our existence. And only
such a one, therefore, may enter into the fourth or truly
psychic and spiritualizing stage of life. First there must
be mastery of the negative dramatization of embodied

Before we can grow into the higher
functions of the body mind, we must become responsible and
balanced in those functions in which we already appear. By
presenting ways of recognizing and compensating for our
irresponsible vital, peculiar, and solid habits, Bubba Free
John has created a whole body psychology that radically
challenges all conventional psychological systems and
therapies. The conventional approaches only indulge the
individual’s problematic self-imagery through endless
subjective analysis and mental or conceptual insights. But
such approaches never do affect the vital-physical and
emotional roots of our dis-ease and lovelessness. In
contrast, the approach presented in this chapter-and
throughout this book-requires us to heal and harmonize the
body-mind through a practical change of action. Bubba Free
John asserts that “subjectivity follows action”: When the
body and energy are used in a new and lawful way, based upon
whole body insight, or inspection via true feeling, the old
interior patterns of self-possession and disharmony
gradually become obsolete.

One of the most important forms of
new action, in compensating for our strategic imbalances and
forms of self-possessed suffering, is a new, disciplined,
and wholly intelligent approach to diet. This is a radical
and also homely suggestion in the midst of today’s
conceptually sophisticated systems of mental health. In The
Free Communion Church, we have found that the single most
dramatically effective therapeutic measure for all
apparently mental, nervous, and psychological disorders or
chronic difficulties is a change of diet based upon the
observations and recommendations offered in this chapter. In
fact, by applying these dietary regimens within a total life
of practical, devotional, and moral disciplines, men and
women with significant social and psychological liabilities
have adapted to a balanced and productive life in the
culture of The Free Communion Church. Along with others
whose imbalances were more “normal” (or less exaggerated)
but who have experienced equally profound healing and
harmonization, such men and women have gone on to evolve in
experience and mature in true spiritual practice.

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